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My exBPD has been invading my dreams lately. It usually ends with me screaming and telling her to go away or not giving into her temptation. I wake up feeling deflated and depressed.

I never want to see her again. I want any trace of her from my life gone. She's been blocked from everything. My closest friends have deleted her as a FB contact as well as my family. She has no access to me unless it's through her sister. 

I definitely feel like I have jumped over a hurdle. I know she was wrong for me. This is way better in the long run. The only way out it through, etc. I am going to therapy, talking to friends, working out hard and bettering myself for the future. But I just want to feel like I am really detaching. She still gets in my head. Does anyone have some exercises they know of? Some mantra, etc.?  I really need to make some real steps and not stew. I can't continue to live like this. My brain is definitely telling me to move forward, but I just need to tools. Thank you!

I have found that after a nightmare is one of the best times to process the pain.

It is so frustrating to even dream about the suffering it is like their is no safe haven in and ocean of chaos and we are struggling to keep our head above water.

I'm sorry it hurts so much. We will get through this though.

I'm sorry to hear that you are having nightmares for your ex. It may be due to trauma and a T should be able to give you advice on how to deal with the nightmares. Have you mentioned it to your T?

I'm almost completely over her, but a couple of nights ago i had a vivid nightmare as well. I was dreaming she was in my bed, it was so real i punched my pillows next to me with my elbow. It scared the ___ out of me... .