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Title: Feeling Dark, and up for real bloody Fight Post by: Moselle on September 26, 2014, 02:29:49 PM Well I'm feeling very dark, but comfortable. Like "I won't mess with you W, but don't F with me" dark, because you will lose out. I've felt subdued and weak for some time, but there is a dark fighting mood settling on me. Fighting tooth and nail for my and my children's sanity.
Having been through 14 years of mental, emotional, and physical abuse. (all completely unaware of the damage), then 7 months of separation (all too aware of the damage), I am ready to really tackle this beast. I'm choosing a recycle as a default. She's suddenly started pulling me back in, and I'm really ready to rip and tear. I'm not angry, just dark, grounded and serious. I feel Wisemind and in control, but calculating and strategic. I do not want to hurt her emotionally, but I do want to hurt her parents, who parade themselves around as the absolute model of parenting. Pious, and perfect. I want to walk up to them calmly and say. you are completely unaware of what I'm about to tell you, but you are plonker-parents, you have ripped the heart and spirit out of your daughter. She was neglected, abused or raised with such rigidity that you inflicted on her. You broke her by loving her conditionally, and punishingly. She is brutal, numb, harsh, critical and has no ability to empathise. All learned in your "special" home. She doesn't feel like an individual, she feels like an extention of your horrible "kingdom" (as the father refers to his family - King Plonker) You kept it all hidden, but you knew very well what I was getting married to, and did not have the honesty or decency to tell me the truth. I had 3 children with your Borderline Narcissistc daughter, and my children have the same brutal treatment which you taught her as a child. Shame on you, not on me. SHAME ON YOU! Title: Re: Feeling Dark, and up for real bloody Fight Post by: Infern0 on September 26, 2014, 09:47:25 PM I know this feeling well.
I have been seriously on the verge of calling her dad out and beating him up and down the streets, seriously giving him the hiding of a lifetime. And then verbally destroying her mother. I utterly loathe the pair of them, they raised this monster and now act as though nothing is wrong, enabling her behavior. The root of her problems is them. Raised unloved, passed around, abused. All because she "came along at the wrong time" I seriously want to give that man a beating. Still this isn't the middle ages, we can't go out and thrash someone for being a scumbag. We would be painted as psychopaths and end up in jail. |