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Title: Did my music prompt her to end it? Post by: Arminius on October 09, 2014, 06:55:17 PM Slightly odd, I know, but on the night she suddenly ended our 7 yrs, and from that moment split me black, I played her this for the first time... .One of my old favourites we had just not shared yet... .
www.youtu.be/4QRvgQGWhKg Stain'd . Outside. And you Can bring me to my knees Again All the times That I could beg you please In vain All the times That I felt insecure For you And I leave My burdens at the door But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I felt like this won't end It's for you And I taste What I could never have It was from you All the times That I've cried My intentions Full of pride But I waste More time than anyone But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I've cried All this wasted It's all inside And I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back again And I lie Here in bed All alone I can't mend But I feel Tomorrow will be OK But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you Just listened to this today, for the first time since that nigh time year ago, and the significance kinda smacked me in the head! Title: Re: Did my music prompt her to end it? Post by: ReluctantSurvivor on October 09, 2014, 07:17:35 PM I doubt it. When talking with my therapist about my own relationship end he told me, "don't put too much weight into the events of this t
relationship." He added that a BPD individual would have found any reason to flee, it is just how they operate. Trying to rationalize irrational behavior will just drive us mad. Title: Re: Did my music prompt her to end it? Post by: Arminius on October 09, 2014, 08:53:53 PM I was smiling when I wrote the post. I'm totally over the hell she put me through, and in no small part due to this site. Does make me smile, wryly, when I read the lyrics.
Frankly, I don't care why anymore. My life has moved on. I live, laugh and love better, I'm materially better off, I drink less and look better, I've lost weight and I still have all the good parts of my life apart from the fake good of her. She still has her... .And that's punishment enough. |