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I apologize for the spelling errors before hand im on a cell. so i cut out a guy iv talked about on here finally for good. i let in a friend though who is also borderline recently. i sort of went off on her earlier tonight about her attacking my mothering once and saying sone pretty nasty sh**. ivlater apologized and then explained how i was still hurt over it and that she didnt really acknowledge or apologize forbthe horrible thibgs she said let alone trying to start a fight between me and another friend if mine.

she showed no remorse or empathy l... .so i told her i deserved betterand i cant accept that in a friendship. She basically accused me of blowibg hot and cold... .accused me of beibg borderline ect... .she then texted me over and over tellibg me i had no empathy despite my neutality and ignoring her awful texts.

thing is i feel good bc im going to stop caretaking borderlines... .but i feel so sad ahout it bc i care about her and love her. iv literally carried her through so much ___ with very little in return and she shows no remorse for her poor behavior.

i have shown limitless empathy with her... but i cant do that anymore. i cant let people give me very little while ibgive everything only to be treated like crap again.

am i the borderline one? did i make the wrong decision?

i just feel like it is important i do this. that i stop having these unhealthy borderline attachments.

she says im borderline and blaming. and that in seriously effed up and dobt see it. im not blaming atracking my mothering just to hurt me was horrible and a goid friend wouldbt have done that ib the first place let alone struggle to acknowledge the misjustice.


now im worried she will contact my ex and be vengeful. I want to stop attracting borderlines and acxepting their mistreatment over and over. i shouldbt have to fear their wrath when im a good person and care for them. its nit fair its abusive and i deserve better. encouragement please?

they really have a way of makibg you doubt cuttibg them out and your reality.

She claimed she couldnt remember what she had said before. my ex also did this all the time. in so sick of that excuse... if you dont remember... how can you twist so much regarding it to makr it seem like it wasnt so bad? i think im hust literally exhausted emotionally fron years of borderline and giving so much of myself to people who will mever actually love or appreciate me. its quite sad all the time iv invested into some of the most hurtful vengeful sbusive people. and i genuinely love them. its sick. that tine could have been invested elsewhere.