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Title: Sometimes I Fear... Post by: In Pain on October 15, 2014, 06:09:58 AM Sometimes I fear I will never find another person like you.
Maybe this is why I hold on. But then I realise that it is easy to find damaged people like you. Self absorbed Overly jealous Alcoholic Verbally abusive Emotionally unstable Child like emotions Selfish A cheater A lier Someone who projects their own insecurities and faults on others. No, sometimes I fear I WILL find another person like you. Title: Re: Sometimes I Fear... Post by: MrConfusedWithItAll on October 15, 2014, 06:18:24 AM Yes I fear I will find someone again who is:
opinionated insulting unstable spiteful manipulative insane untrustworthy But now I have learnt a good lesson - I will never entertain someone like this again. Ever. Title: Re: Sometimes I Fear... Post by: Infern0 on October 15, 2014, 06:26:29 AM Insecure
Jealous Manipulative Untrustworthy Self loathing Spiteful Passive agressive Deceitful Game playing Callous Unempathetic Dependant Unintelligent Aimless And you know what, not even that good looking Title: Re: Sometimes I Fear... Post by: Deeno02 on October 15, 2014, 06:26:42 AM Sometimes I fear I will never find another person like you. Maybe this is why I hold on. But then I realise that it is easy to find damaged people like you. Self absorbed Overly jealous Alcoholic Verbally abusive Emotionally unstable Child like emotions Selfish A cheater A lier Someone who projects their own insecurities and faults on others. No, sometimes I fear I WILL find another person like you. Heres a journal entry in which I expressed my anger over my relationship with my exBPDgf: Journal entry for the day: What gives you the: Right to be immediately happy again, when im destroyed Right to discard my love for her and her kids Right to leave me in tears Right to call my daughter names Right to deny me any opportunity to say goodbye to her kids Right to make up stuff that never happened Right to keep me under wraps and not bring me around her friends Right to never do anything i may want to do. Right to demand all my time when i too have a house to run. Right to threaten me with "treat me special or lose me" Right to never care about my day Right to never take care of my emotional needs as a combat veteran. Might have something to do with why i went quiet a few times and wanted to be alone. I did it because i didnt want to expose you and the kids to it. Right to deny me any opportunity to help you with 5 kids and their schedules Right to call me a liar Right to deny my daughter your love. She loved you more than her own mother, who walked out on us. Now you have too. Right to treat me as an inferior because I dont have a fancy house, make super money or run in certain circles. I KNEW that was going to be a problem no matter what you said. Right to keep me alone, even when i was with you. Right to deny me affection because you were mad. "I have to like you again" Right to deny me any contact unless it was for your needs Right to never make me feel at home Right to devalue me as a person.I am a person who loved you and your five kids. Youll never know about the ring and proposal because you threw me away. Now I wander in my mind wondering what i could have done, and i own some of it i kept hidden from you in my dark times, but you never expressed an interest in my problems or thoughts. I loved you, Ive missed you, but youve wrecked me as a human being. Im still not sure what Ive done... . I re-read this from time to time when Im longing to be with her. Then I wake up. Still hurts, but this is a harsh reminder as to why I need to do better... . |