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Feeling awful alone today. Not because of her really, but because it's the weekend and miss doing things with her for the most part. However, any time alone is better than a day with her. 24 hour day would involve 4 to 6 hours of good, 6 to 8 of BS and the rest profusely apologizing. I think I'll take alone for right now. What the heck was I thinking.

For whatever reason its over if she had not of gone you would be still having those days like you said. So what was you thinking?.

I was feeling lonely today, too (I usually don't).   ... .and ruminating about her. I think it may be the holiday weekend bothering me... .but it will pass. I will be busier tomorrow and socializing tomorrow nite. Try to stay busy... .It helps on days like today.  I think it's also important to feel our feelings too, though and not to avoid them so sometimes it's just better to sit with them until it passes.

Sometimes we miss the way we felt when we were with them... .but now we know that they just were not feeling the same way toward us.

 "any time alone is better than a day with her"

How I know this much is true. But the withdrawal can be a mother___er. Keep your head up and thank your lucky stars they found someone else to disrespect, mistreat, abuse, and sooner rather than later he'll be wondering where all the sex went. And then he will be replaced by yet another. Makes me want to rinse.

If I had a dollar. 

I'm struggling with today too. I don't really know why - I guess it is withdrawal.  We lived together for 4 years and now I wake up to an empty house.  It still feels very surreal.  But I agree with you about knowing that I'd rather be alone than be with her.  I just wish I could feel that way.

Yeah, I think it was just holiday related crap. Black Friday xmas shopping stuff we did together. Then again, that would turn into something stupid as well. Again, What the heck was I thinking?