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Title: Erie silence Post by: newlifeBPDfree on March 02, 2015, 06:52:51 PM It's been a week since my BPD ex-husband was served with an order of protection. It's been a week of pure silence and peace. Before that I would get 100+ hateful text messages from him per day. Now for a week I have heard nothing and it feels so good yet very strange. It's nice but at the same time I feel like there is this void in my life and lack of excitement... .I guess I was so used to always having some drama in my life and now that I don't (for now) I'm not sure what to do with myself. Anyone else experienced this?
Title: Re: Erie silence Post by: vbor on March 02, 2015, 07:06:34 PM Yes.
My resting pulse has returned to normal and I'm no longer living in a constant state of anxiety. It feels great. I feel re-born. Still... .only 5 weeks out of that chaos, without that drama in my world, I feel like something's missing. I believe time and healing will ultimately fix that. And if I need "drama", I'll add that genre to my Netflix que. Title: Re: Erie silence Post by: fromheeltoheal on March 02, 2015, 07:47:10 PM Excerpt Anyone else experienced this? Yes, most if not all of us did. Constant chaos is invigorating in a sense, and also exhausting. Similar to when someone goes through an emergency situation, car crash or whatever, and they report that it seemed like everything was in slow motion as well as they felt fully alive in that moment. Unsustainable and it's up to us to decide if it was fulfilling, here on Leaving most would report it was not, but invigorating nonetheless. There's another benefit too: we can't focus on our own stuff if we're spending all of our time reacting to someone else's chaos. That's the birthplace of codependency. The good news is once we can be alone with our thoughts and start focusing on us the fog clears and we can start really processing what we've been through. Not pretty at times, but always fruitful. Take care of you! |