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Go on with your new (old boyfriend) damaged little troll that he is, and that your family considers him to be. You broke our engagement, moved far away with only a moments notice, and immediately started a life with a man you romanticized over a weekend reconnecting at a friend's wedding and a few high school level texts. You gave up a huge circle of friends, a reputation of character, standing in our community, and a life that would have been pretty damn good pretending to seek independence, but really just running to this piece of trash, who only had relationships with strippers and prostitutes since you left him seven years ago. You made yourself pathetic and ridiculous in the eyes of all who knew you over the past 6 years. So now it's back to only your high school enablers, your long distance friends you lie to and your Facebook friends who don't really know you. But by all means, this is you "winning" at life. So enjoy your time with this man, enjoy your new reputation, marry him, turn out little damaged kids, make his life hell for a few years before you cheat on him and leave him, sink the hooks in deep so he knows all the pain I am now familiar with. Be ashamed to bring him around for family gatherings and christmas. Let your father grimace as he walks you down the aisle to deliver you to that thing. Grow old, have nothing but men who want to use you for quick sex before throwing you aside, let those cracks keep on growing. And since you're such a damn narcissist, you'll never get help or admit there's anything wrong. Since you have no empathy, you'll never admit how you wronged me and us. Be hell on your parents, an embarrassment to your siblings, who will never quite trust you around the children they are about to have. Good luck with your new life, I have no more interest in showing you compassion or support. Enjoy your life as a high functioning narcissist borderline. You may even get one of your books published one day, and when you do, the world will see what you are pretty quickly.

Let it out Heldfast.

I'll share some of my anger.

I have known some terrible people in my life, junkies, jailbirds and worse but you are by far the worst human being I have ever known.  You are not terrible because you are mentally ill, you are terrible because you are self aware of your terrible behavior and selfishness yet do nothing to change.  It is easier for your lazy ass to use drugs and high risk sex as an escape.  Nevermind all those that are left hurt in your wake, all that matters is trying to fill that blackhole you have where decent people have a heart and soul.  You will go through life sharing your pain with anyone foolish enough to show you loyalty, until you too drive a man to suicide like your mother.

Just venting to get it out. I was feeling compassionate until she reached out to a friend traveling to her new home city. Then she and the new guy left him in the lurch. Just a rude, petty thing. Made me ill.

It's good to get it out.

Thanks for sharing Heldfast.