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Title: through the furnace Post by: morningagain on April 13, 2015, 10:48:10 PM only to find there is little left of me.
do not want what i had. do not want what I have. do not want any future i can realistically imagine. 2 and a half plus years out. lots of progress and healing, detachment, learning, reflection, introspection, self-awareness, deeply accepting my role, etc. anybody else this exhausted? shouldn't i feel SOME invigoration? sigh. took an effort capitalize 'some' What IS this? Title: Re: through the furnace Post by: Tim300 on April 13, 2015, 10:49:50 PM You're 2.5 years out, congrats. How long were you in it?
Title: Re: through the furnace Post by: morningagain on April 13, 2015, 10:52:22 PM tim,
somewhere around 10 years. 'congrats' rings hollow. nothing to congratulate me for. was a wreck then, am still now. Title: Re: through the furnace Post by: Tim300 on April 13, 2015, 11:04:40 PM Are you better off than you were a couple years ago? When did you pick up on BPD?
Title: Re: through the furnace Post by: Lucky Jim on April 14, 2015, 10:20:14 AM Hey michael999, I can relate, having recently gone through a divorce from my BPDxW. I've lost a lot, no doubt, but to me, it's helpful to focus on what remains. Suggest you pay attention to small desires, which provide clues to things you really like. Maybe a song sounds good on the radio; maybe the sunset is particularly beautiful; maybe you meet someone who you find intriguing; maybe you read a book that you really like. You get the idea. See if you can come up with some of these things on your own. LuckyJim
Title: Re: through the furnace Post by: Suzn on April 17, 2015, 08:11:07 PM Hi Michael, it's good to see you.
2 and a half plus years out. lots of progress and healing, detachment, learning, reflection, introspection, self-awareness, deeply accepting my role, etc. anybody else this exhausted? Sounds like a LOT of hard work. Self work has it's rewards however you can overdo a good thing. Where are you taking breaks? Meaning what are you doing to get back out there? Hobbies? Friends? Church? Are you isolating? I have learned that I need to get out with a friend, dinner, a movie, something, at least once a week or every two weeks. |