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Driving home today when 'Time is Running Out' by Muse came on the radio. Now I'd always loved this song, but hadn't heard it since meeting my uBPDexgf. Listening to it today, and the lyrics really seem to typify the pain and inner turmoil felt by many posters on this message board. What do you think guys?

Time Is Running Out"

I think I'm drowning

Asphyxiated

I wanna break this spell

That you've created

You're something beautiful

A contradiction

I wanna play the game

I want the friction

You will be the death of me

You will be the death of me

Bury it

I won't let you bury it

I won't let you smother it

I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out

Our time is running out

You can't push it underground

You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom

Bound and restricted

I tried to give you up

But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation

You'd never dream of

Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it

I won't let you bury it

I won't let you smother it

I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out

Our time is running out

You can't push it underground

You can't stop it screaming out

How did it come to this?

Oh

You will suck the life out of me

Bury it

I won't let you bury it

I won't let you smother it

I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out

Our time is running out

You can't push it underground

You can't stop it screaming out

How did it come to this?

Oh

Lol I tememer that one! 

I got into a perfect circle and the nirvanna in in utero album.

Tool, Push it

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A Perfect Circle, Passive

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At the beginning of my break up, when I was still very conflicted about my decision, the "Say Something" song by Great Big World featuring Christina Aguilera really hit a note with me:

Say Something"


Say something, I'm giving up on you

I'll be the one, if you want me to

Anywhere I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small

It was over my head

I know nothing at all

And I will stumble & fall

I'm still learning to love

Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

Anywhere I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride

You're the one that I love

And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

And anywhere I would've followed you (Ooh-oh)

Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something... .


And this is what is hitting the note currently - Wake me up by Avicii

"Wake Me Up"


Feeling my way through the darkness

Guided by a beating heart

I can't tell where the journey will end

But I know where to start

They tell me I'm too young to understand

They say I'm caught up in a dream

Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes

Well that's fine by me

[2x]

So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself

And I didn't know I was lost

I tried carrying the weight of the world

But I only have two hands

Hope I get the chance to travel the world

But I don't have any plans

Wish that I could stay forever this young

Not afraid to close my eyes

Life's a game made for everyone

And love is the prize

[2x]

So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself

And I didn't know I was lost

Didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know (didn't know, didn't know)

FannyB those lyrics are spot on! I'll have to listen to that.

Newlife - You know what is funny is I was relating to that song (say something) 4 mos into my relationship!  Why oh why didn't I get out then... .sigh

good tune fanny    korn is the answer

My xBPDgf loved "Ooops I did it again" by Britney Spears. I wasn't aware of the secret agenda... . until it was too late.

Believe it or not I actually watched the live youtube video from Wembly Stadium a week after we broke up... .good tune.  Love all the Tool and APC fans in here... .Pu___ is an epic song... .saw the gap again today... .

that darn brittny got me too   sad part is i new bettr lol  i saw the red flag and helpd her fly it

Papa Roach - "Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And my scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

You're making me insane

All I can say is

[Chorus:]

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That you're drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassions in my nature

Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever come around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause you're drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

lol - this typifies their behaviour to a tee. Perhaps 'Toxic' by the same singer (is Britney borderline?) is our riposte to them!  :)

This is a great thread idea. I really love music and stuff, so here are some of the artists that I went through from day one of my breakup to now—about 3 months ago.

First it was all like, new hip-hop, kinda trappy stuff like Future, Drake, Rich Gang, etc. Then I completely abandoned rap music and just started listening to really trashy indie rock. First more modern stuff like Beach Fossils, and Real Estate. Then lots of earlier stuff like Built to Spill, Beat Happening, things like that. Then, the punk phase of the breakup came and I was listening to a lot of Wire, The Wipers, etc.

For some reason I got really into country music, bluegrass, etc. Could absolutely not stop listening to Townes Van Zandt, and The Nitty Gritty Dirt Band. Really good stuff, haha.

Recently I've moved on to 60s era southern soul, and I think I'll be here for a while. Been obsessing over Al Green, Sam Cooke, Aretha, all the greats.

The best track I can relate to is Linkin Park- Pushing Me Away


I've lied to you

The same way that I always do

This is the last smile

That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart

Even the people who never frown

Eventually break down)

The sacrifice of hiding in a lie

(Everything has to end

You'll soon find we're out of time left

To watch it all unwind)

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see you're testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you

To do everything you wanted too

This is the last time

I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart

Even the people who never frown

Eventually break down)

The sacrifice of hiding in a lie

(Everything has to end

You'll soon find we're out of time left

To watch it all unwind)

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see you're testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see you're testing me pushes me away

(We're all out of time

This is how we find how it all unwinds)

The sacrifice of hiding in a lie

(We're all out of time

This is how we find how it all unwinds)

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see you're testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away

Why I played myself this way

Now I see you're testing me pushes me away

Pushes me away

I too love all of the previous posts but here is one you may not have heard of the really speaks to me. 

Sara Barielles (sp)

Breathe Again


Car is parked, bags are packed

But what kind of heart doesn't look back

At the comfortable glow from the porch

The one I will still call yours?

All those words came undone

And now I'm not the only one

Facing the ghosts that decide

If the fire inside still burns

All I have, all I need

He's the air I would kill to breathe

Holds my love in his hands

Still I'm searching for something

Out of breath, I am left hoping someday

I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again

Open up next to you

And my secrets become your truth

And the distance between

That was sheltering me comes in full view

Hang my head, break my heart

Built from all I have torn apart

And my burden to bear

Is a love I can't carry anymore

All I have, all I need

He's the air I would kill to breathe

Holds my love in his hands

Still I'm searching for something

Out of breath, I am left hoping someday

I'll breathe again

It hurts to be here

I only wanted love from you

It hurts to be here

What am I gonna do?

All I have, all I need

He's the air I would kill to breathe

Holds my love in his hands

Still I'm searching

All I have, all I need

He's the air I would kill to breathe

Holds my love in his hands

And still I'm searching for something

Out of breath, I am left hoping someday

I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again

I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again

I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again

my ex loved rihanna's : what now and unfaithful

 :)

Linkin Park - Numb

Evanescence - Made of Stone.

u2 troubles

rihanas   love the way u lie   my exs fav hmm funny im not the liar

Wow - think we've got enough tracks now for 'BPD - the Album'! Maybe we should give borderlines some credit for inspiring such great music!  *)

nope  no credit lol

APC-by down and now


Moving in and out of the shadows

It's no easier mission

Holding onto how I picture you

Showing only bits and pieces

'Till the tide betrays you and your empty allocution

Searching your eyes for a hint or a trace of humility

Searching your eyes for the saint is an act of futility

Searching your eyes for a hint or a trace of it

Searching your eyes for humility

Searching your eyes for a hint or a trace

I'm still searching searching

Showing all the missing pieces

'Till the light betrays you and your empty allocution

Saw the Piper by and down the river

Caught his crippled alchemy

From pounding waves of adoration

Pied Piper float on down the river

Bloated carcass crippled me

The weight of adoration

Moving in and out of the shadows

It's no easy mission

Holding on to how I picture you


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BF4fQyKFyzY

Went and saw the play "Once" and they sang "Say something I'm giving up on you." I wondered why I was starting to cry. It was before the b/u during his periods of silent treatment and rage. I didn't know what was to come but knew that song sang to me.

Thanks for the reminder.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bxme1qC1P0Q

I've watched you change

Into a fly

I looked away

You were on fire

I watched a change

In you

It's like you never

Had wings

Now you feel

So Alive

I've watched you change

I took you home

Set you on the glass

I pulled off your wings

Then I laughed

I watched a change

In you

It's like you never

Had wings

Now you feel

So alive

I've watched you change

It's like you never

Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh

I look at the cross

Then I look away

Give you the gun

Blow me away

I've watched a change

In you

It's like you never

Had wings

Now you feel

So Alive

I've watched you change.

Now you feel Alive

You Feel Alive

I've watched you change

It's like you never

Had wings ahhh ahh ahhh

How about some Queen... .I Want to Break Free

I want to break free

I want to break free

I want to break free from your lies

You're so self satisfied, I don't need you

I've got to break free

God knows, God knows I want to break free

I've fallen in love

I've fallen in love for the first time

And this time I know it's for real

I've fallen in love yea

God knows, God knows I've fallen in love

It's strange but it's true, hey yea

I can't get over the way you love me like you do

But I have to be sure

When I walk out that door

Oh how I want to be free baby

Oh how I want to be free

Oh how I want to break free

But life still goes on

I can't get used to livin' without livin' without

Livin' without you by my side

I don't want to live alone, hey

God knows, got to make it on my own

So baby can't you see

I've got to break free

I've got to break free

I want to break free, yea

I want, I want, I want

I want to break free .

This would be mine .

Cocaine flame in my bloodstream

Sold my coat when I hit Spokane

Bought myself a hard pack of cigarettes in the early morning rain

Lately my hands they don't feel like mine

My eyes been stung with dust, I'm blind

Held you in my arms one time

Lost you just the same

Jolene

I ain't about to go straight

It's too late

I found myself face down in the ditch

Booze on my hair

Blood on my lips

A picture of you, holding a picture of me

in the pocket of my blue jeans

Still don't know what love means

Still don't know what love means

Jolene

Ah, La, La, La, La, La

Jolene

Been so long since I seen your face

or felt a part of this human race

I've been living out of this here suitcase for way too long

A man needs something he can hold onto

A nine pound hammer or a woman like you

Either one of them things will do

Jolene

I ain't about to go straight

It's too late

I found myself face down in the ditch

Booze in my hair

Blood on my lips

A picture of you, holding a picture of me

In the pocket of my blue jeans

Still don't know what love means

Still don't know what love means

Jolene

she dosent love you shes just lonely   ring any bells?

Shut up and Drive by Chely Wright

Shut up and drive, you don't know what you're talking about

He's not the one, you ought to know that by now

You've got one of those hearts, that keeps changing your mind

Your heart has a way of making you stay so shut up and drive

Don't look in the mirror, he might have that look in his eyes

The one that's so strong it strangles your will to survive

He's mastered the art of looking sincere

His eyes have a way of making you stay don't look in the mirror

I'm the voice you never listen to

And I had to break your heart to make you see

That he's the one who will be missing you

And you'll only miss the man

That you wanted him to be

Turn the radio on to drown out the sound of goodbye

Blink back the tears show me you've still got your pride

Just get yourself lost in a sad country song

Those guys that they play know just what to say turn the radio on

I'm the voice you never listen to

And I had to break your heart to make you see

That he's the one who will be missing you

And you'll only miss the man

That you wanted him to be

Shut up and drive

Don't look in the mirror

Turn the radio on

Get out of here

Shut up and drive

Shut up and drive

Shut up and drive



Read more: Chely Wright - Shut Up And Drive Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Picture  kid rock n cheral crow

KORN   alone i break  yup thats the one

KORN   love song 

Shut up and Drive by Chely Wright

Shut up and drive, you don't know what you're talking about

He's not the one, you ought to know that by now

You've got one of those hearts, that keeps changing your mind

Your heart has a way of making you stay so shut up and drive

Don't look in the mirror, he might have that look in his eyes

The one that's so strong it strangles your will to survive

He's mastered the art of looking sincere

His eyes have a way of making you stay don't look in the mirror

I'm the voice you never listen to

And I had to break your heart to make you see

That he's the one who will be missing you

And you'll only miss the man

That you wanted him to be

Turn the radio on to drown out the sound of goodbye

Blink back the tears show me you've still got your pride

Just get yourself lost in a sad country song

Those guys that they play know just what to say turn the radio on

I'm the voice you never listen to

And I had to break your heart to make you see

That he's the one who will be missing you

And you'll only miss the man

That you wanted him to be

Shut up and drive

Don't look in the mirror

Turn the radio on

Get out of here

Shut up and drive

Shut up and drive

Shut up and drive



Read more: Chely Wright - Shut Up And Drive Lyrics | MetroLyrics

"Last Call" by Lee Ann Womack

I recognized your number

It's burned into my brain

Felt my heart beating faster

Every time it rang

Some things never change

That's why I didn't answer

I bet you're in a bar

Listening to a country song

Glass of Johnny Walker Red

With no one to take you home

They're probably closing down

Saying, "No more alcohol"

I bet you're in a bar

'Cause I'm always your last call

I don't need to check that message

I know what it says

"Baby, I still love you"

Don't mean nothing when there's whiskey on your breath

That's the only love I get

So if you're calling

I bet you're in a bar

Listening to a cheatin' song

Glass of Johnny Walker Red

With no one to take you home

They're probably closing down

Saying, "No more alcohol"

I bet you're in bar

'Cause I'm always your last

Call me crazy but

I think maybe

We've had our last call

I bet you're in a bar

It's always the same old song

That Johnny Walker Red

By now it's almost gone

But baby, I won't be there

To catch you when you fall

I bet you're in bar

'Cause I'm always your last call

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFI4JfbgOSY

here she comes again

troubles on her brow

here she comes again

with worries she can't hide

who can stop the rain

pouring down inside

who can keep her sane

and give her piece of mind

here she comes again

covered up in blame

such a pretty face

such a sorrow in her eyes

do you wanna know

what's killing her inside

do you dare to walk

the alleys of her mind

here she comes again

troubles on her brow

here she comes again

with worries she can't hide

will you let it show

will you cross the line

will you take her home

and tell her she'll be fine

Three days grace - I hate everything about you:

Every time we lie awake

After every hit we take

Every feeling that I get

But I haven't missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake

By every sigh and scream we make

All the feelings that I get

But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you?

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you?

Every time we lie awake

After every hit we take

Every feeling that I get

But I haven't missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you?

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you?

Only when I stop to think about you,

I know

Only when you stop to think about me,

do you know?

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you?

You hate everything about me

Why do you love me?

I hate

You hate

I hate

You love me

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you?


Have been listening to this song a lot during my dark moments. It helps me realise the ambiguous feelings that reside inside me, and how my ex-BPD will likely stay onboard my mind for a while to come... .

Script for a Jester's Tear by Marillion is another BPD soundtrack in my opinion. It has been speaking to me a lot over the last week since I split from by BPDbf.

www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/marillion/scriptforajesterstear.html

Isn't music wonderful?

Lifewriter

Paramore - Anklebiters

Halestorm - Mz Hyde

Taylor Swift - Blank Space

Royal Blood - Careless

Megadeth - Trust

"Stupid Girl" by Garbage.  that fits for me. funny, when we met she played "ive got you where i want you" by The Flies... .now i know why... .she had me. my bad lol

I doubt many people listen to hiphop on this board but these songs have really good meaning:

F*** You Lucy - Atmosphere

Leave me never would you, you show could I if [6x]

She said that she still wants a friendship

She can't live her life without me as a friend

I can't figure out why I'd give a damn to what she wants

I don't understand the now before the then

Most of this garbage I write

That these people seem to like

Is about you

And how I let you infect my life

And if they got to know you

I doubt that they would see it

They'd wonder what i showed you

How you could leave it

A friend in Chicago said that I should stay persistent

If I stay around I'm bound to break resistance

F*** you, Lucy, for defining my existence

F*** you and your differences

Ever since I was a young lad

With a part-time dad

It was hard to find happiness inside of what I had

I studied my mother

I digested her pain

And vowed no woman on my path would have to walk the same

Travel like sound across the fate ladder

I travel with spoon to mix this cake batter

And i travel with feels so i can deal with touch

It's like that

Thank you very much

F*** you very much



Yes

Yes it is

And everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Yes

Yes it is

And everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

F*** the what happened

I got stuck

They can peel pieces of me off the grill of her truck

Used to walk with luck

Used to hold her hand

Fell behind and played the role of a slower man

I wanna stand on top of this mountain and yell

I wanna wake up and break up this lake of hell

I feel like a b**** for letting the sheet twist me up

The last star fighter is wounded time to give it up

On a pick it up mission

Kept it bitter

Getting in a million memories just to forget her

The difficulty in keeping emotions controlled

Cookies for the road

Took me by the soul

Hunger for the drama

Hunger for the nurture

Gonna take it further

The hurt feels like murder

Interpret

The eyes

Read the lines on her face

The sunshine is fake

How much time did i waste?

F*** you, Lucy, for leaving me

F*** you, Lucy, for not needin' me

I wanna say f*** you

Because i still love you

No, I'm not OK

And I don't know what to do

Yes

Yes it is

And everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Yes

Yes it is

And everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Do I sound mad?

Well I guess I'm a little pissed

Every action has a point

Five points make a fist

You close 'em

You swing 'em

It hurts when it hits

And the truth can be a b****

But if the boot fits

I got an idea

You should get a tattoo that says "Warning"

That's all, just a warning

So the potential victim

Can take a left and safe breath

And avoid you

Sober and upset in the morning

I wanna scream F*** you Lucy!"

But the problem is I love you, Lucy

So instead

I'm gonna finish my drink and have another

While you think about how you used to be my lover

Yes

Yes it is

And everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Yes

Yes it is

And everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Everyone in his life would mistake it as love

Leave never would you, you show could I if... .

Complications - Atmosphere

Yo this is dedicated to this girl that I dated

Complicated maze, Complicated maze

At first sighting, only a stranger to my eyes, couldn't keep them off me

I'm sure your friend recognized, I didn't care, I had to stare, stood there at attention

Not many words mentioned still I felt the thought connection, wanted the sex then

Got to know you, wanted more, Things got complex when

You had a man and wasn't sure

My thoughts were pure, Is it gonna be him? Or is gonna be me?

Cause that's the way I have to have it

Grasped the idea, Ms scribble head Talia

Wanted you to feature but your man is screwing up the procedure

What is it that you say? I'm on your mind all day

But still say you're content, how the situation lay

Why you play? Why do you stay? There's something better

Know you felt it when you received my first poetic letter

Why you fronting? Tell me something

Is it that you want your cake and stuff it down your face too?

Did I have to chase you?

Why oh why do you cry?

Said afraid of losing me? I think that you're confusing me a lot

No wait a minute, stop, bring that back, I missed a page

Was it that time of the month or were you going through a phase?

Complicated maze. (This phrase fits you perfect)

Come back in later days. (Talk to me when you're certain)

You're always changing. (Never stay the same person)

Come back in later days. (Talk to me when you're certain)

Miss Merriweather, the partial, the martial artist of fake imitation love products

Now facing you is irritation

Know you used to have me placing you on pedestals like a goddess

Personality changes it seemed to be to me you were the oddest

Soon to depart us like red seas by Moses

Our friendship's diseased, unfeasible, hopeless

No reasonable answers to my question of focus, Caused my tension

Nothing made sense when you replied with a tied tongue

Said you feared abusiveness, I never swung

Why all these excuses miss? What have I done?

Figured I had the right kind of lady, yeah maybe it was fun, for you

But not for me, I found it quite unamusing

You were using me as a bridge just to pass what was left behind

Play times for dangerous minds, but why'd it have to be mine?

Why'd it have to be mine?

Now I'm not really trying to come off abrasive

But why you messing with my man's head?

I mean I'm spending time trying to keep his mind on rhymes and beats

And you're a distraction. I mean you got my man just shook

I mean honestly, I guess what I'm trying to say is... .

Virgin torn from sleep, the newborn

Why are you doing this? See you're always playing games

And it was easy to get too deep, the water was lukewarm

Virgin torn from sleep, the newborn

Oh, what now? What? You wanna come back?)

And it was easy to get too deep, the water was lukewarm

Do you know what today is?

It's the third anniversary, you came back to flirt with me

For certain, you must mistake me for a fool

See I know how you are, I see those tricks in you

Tried to make amends, there's something new

Had problems with your friend, so it's me you always run to

Come to and smell the coffee, go drink the pot with extra caffeine

Cause next to acting, you win awards for cloudy vision

Tired of fishing for the what, why and when

Will this repetition end, step away and give me oxygen

Not interested in talking, say nothing, keep walking, go 'bout your away

See the colors of these areas have started turning gray

See you later, goodnight, got no more candles to light

Yo, it's time to move along cause baby something isn't right

Still I'm glad I met you, it's too bad you screwed it up

The only thing I regret is that I didn't get to f-

I was blind and now I see

I was blind and now I see

I was blind and now I see

I was blind and now I see

A Girl Named Hope - Atmosphere

She abandoned me left out in the cold

No suprises I guess that's how it goes

Sits across from me in a booth in this dive

I contemplate how much more I can survive

But- I'm alive so I should be content

Then tell why the hell my whole world is bent

I was send to make and frustrate the population

In between the alcohol and the copulation

What you callin' it

If you build it I will break it

What's wrong, how you doin'

Naa, save it

Gave a fraction of all I had to give

I guess I hold a grudge beacause you still got my rib, with cha

Beautiful eyes, and scrupulous lies

Now watch this circusclown run around in circles and try

Seems like all I get to eat is Hope

Girl if we got along better we'd be dope

Oh walls, they surround me

Lonliness has found me

And for as much as I complain

I'm lovin' it

And I only mention it so that I can rub it in

Wake up to the sunlike, shake off last night

Check what's left and try to get the rest right

Decision, splitting, headache, lifting

Symptoms, matching,

Mama was afraid of it

Knowledge of self ain't as evil as they made it

Call it what you want

If you build it they will break it

The plain, the truth, there's no substitute

But sometimes she wears a disguise- yes you do

A story teller deals with life not Hope

Girl if we got along better we'd be dope

Lifter Puller - Atmosphere

You don't know me

You just love me

You don't know me

You just love me

You don't know me

You just love me

You don't know me

You just love me

And he was a man, or so he thought

Paid attention to the lessons daddy taught

Secondhand-me-down blessing, she was short on patience

Carried mace and hated everyday people, the plight of the pessimist

Habitual living, daily schedule consisted of:

Work, television, and sexual moments

But sometimes it gets so hopeless

When nonsense raises an octave, thoughts blocks all sensual focus

With a firm grasp on the grudge they both clutch in the name of love

Fear of the results had push ever came to shove

Seduced for fun, produce a lot of fight

Two youths on the run, learning some truth about life

And when he stares at the stars, he reflects on the moon

The time, the talks they share walking around Calhoun

And when she watches the look on his face as he sleeps

She recalls every inch as to how it got this deep

Now how am I to know you like the way I laugh?

I can't read the map, no one's ever seen the path

The one you take a bath with is the same one that frees your path

Oh you going out? what time you gon' be back?

Cause they were two perfect kids in a too-perfect world

Today the part of man and woman will be played by boy and girl

Let's all take seats, please quiet during the performance

Lift her, pull her from the orchids

Cause they were two perfect kids in a too-perfect world

Today the part of man and woman will be played by boy and girl

Trying to read the script, keep getting trapped in the margins

Lift them, pull them from the gardens

Now she was smart, she grew up with this complex

That the people that surrounded her seemed to expect the world

And he was tall, over six, no attempt to predict the fall

Thought he'd seen it all until his all became that girl

She said she loves the drugs, but when she comes down

She speaks about finishing, she's convinced it's the last visit

He doesn't know the difference between come and go

Give him just one to grow and watch him collapse inside of a half pint

She dyed her hair black, maybe now she can relax

Maybe now the regulars will stare half as hard

He wears a old face and beer gut

Existence validation printed on the monthly statements

That come from MasterCard

He thinks she sleeps too much

She thinks he spends too much

He thinks her friends are jokes

She thinks he's out of touch

He thinks she drinks too much

She thinks he thinks too much

It's all another phase turning the page in the book of growing up

She has seen a lot of sex

He tried to hide his resentment, but there wasn't nothing thing left for them to label new

But sometimes the obvious ain't simple to see

Cause even the time that they killed

Was something that she wasn't accustomed to

She never comprehended what to make of it (make of it)

He was never quite prepared to study the reaching

Together they shared the sacred practices of breathing

The weather was fair, however the hovering clouds weren't leaving

Discover the little drama demons that hide deep inside the framework

And live in that congested brain

They had old lovers on the side, old flames

That somehow managed to spark regardless of the pouring rains

And each time they mix up the ingredients

They recheck the recipe to see maybe they're reading it incorrectly

Collect me, consume me, release me, snuggle

Two geniuses putting together the pieces to a blank puzzle



Every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world

Every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world

Every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world

And every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world

In the very beginning, he sent me the song "iris" by the Goo-Goo Dolls and I never stopped to really pay attention to the premise for that song but it's now haunting me.  Please listen to this and see if you see can see that he was telling me about being emotionally unavailable.  Maybe I am wrong? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdYWuo9OFAw


Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM

"Jar Of Hearts"

I know I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

And it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

Tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Sorry about the double post earlier. My bad.


   

"Little Miss" by SUGARLAND

Little miss done on love

Little miss, I give up

Little miss, I'll get tough, don't you worry about me anymore

Little miss checkered dress

Little miss, one big mess

Little miss, I'll take less when I always give so much more

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

It'll be alright again

It'll be alright again, I'm okay

It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay)

It'll be alright again, I'm okay

Little miss, do your best

Little miss, never rest

Little miss, be my guest, I'll make more anytime that it runs out

Little miss, you'll go far

Little miss, hide your scars

Little miss, who you are is so much more than you like to talk about

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

It'll be alright again

It'll be alright again, I'm okay

It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay)

It'll be alright again, I'm okay

Hold on

Hold on, you are loved

Are loved... .

Little miss, brand new start

Little miss, do your part

Little miss, big old heart beats wide open and she's ready now for love

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

It'll be alright again

It'll be alright again, I'm okay

It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay, it'll be alright again)

I'm okay! (It'll be alright again)



   

"Every Storm (Runs Out Of Rain)" by GARY ALLAN

Oh so your standing in the middle of the thunder and lightning

I know you're feeling like you just can't win, but you're trying

It's hard to keep on keepin' on, when you're being pushed around

Don't even know which way is up, you just keep spinning down, 'round, down... .

Every storm runs, runs out of rain

Just like every dark night turns into day

Every heartache will fade away

Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

So hold your head up and tell yourself that there's something more

And walk out that door,

Go find a new rose, don't be afraid of the thorns

'Cause we all have thorns

Just put your feet up to the edge, put your face in the wind

And when you fall back down, keep on rememberin'

Every storm runs, runs out of rain

Just like every dark night turns into day

Every heartache will fade away

Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna run out of pain

It's gonna run out of sting

It's gonna leave you alone

It's gonna set you free

Set you free

Every storm runs, runs out of rain

Just like every dark night turns into day

Every heartache will fade away

Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

It's gonna set you free,

It's gonna run out of pain,

And set you free

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w7ULEaIkpLg (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w7ULEaIkpLg)

This one hurts. When we broke up, for the last time, I must have played this song hundreds of times over, and over, and over. It's exactly how I felt/feel. Especially at the 3:07 mark. I haven't listened to this song in awhile, but I cried as soon as the 3:07 mark came on. I still wish her the best.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BoNwJCwdlUA (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BoNwJCwdlUA)

Alanis is one of my favorite artists, ever. She seriously rules.

There's three songs that come to mind, and the lyrics to the first two were written by the same guy (Matty Mullins).  Take a look at the lyrics and if they hit you, I'd suggest taking a listen to the songs.  The first one is a little melancholy yet beautiful in my mind, and the second one is heavier than most (with the screaming and stuff) and just full of angst.  The third is a feel good hip-hop song that I think is just hilarious and makes me feel better automatically when I hear it.  It's by Big Sean, and called I Don't F*#$ With You, and I'm not putting the lyrics for that one because it is pretty much explicit from beginning to end. lol

Matty Mullins

Back To Square One

In a perfect world things would've been different

I wish it could've gone the way I planned

I put my heart into your hands

'Cause I thought I could trust you

I thought I heard you say you'd never leave

I always stood by your side

I thought you'd do the same for me

And all the times I said I loved you

Couldn't you hear my sincerity

I always listened

You were always first to speak

I guess I should've listened when

This is how they said it would be

And when did all my friends become my enemies

And all this time I just wanted to believe

That I found someone who cared enough to see the best in me

But now I'm back to square one

Scared to trust

I never thought I was above you

I'm sorry if I made you feel that way

I'm sorry if I made you think that what we had was just a game

I always tried to do the right thing

I always gave more than I would take

And now I'm staring in the mirror wondering if I'm the one to blame

And this is how they said it would be

And when did all my friends become my enemies

And all this time I just wanted to believe

That I found someone who cared enough to see the best in me

But now I'm back to square one

And this is how they said it would be

(I thought I knew you all along)

And when did all my friends become my enemies

And somewhere deep down I still want to believe

(Somebody tell me where it all went wrong)

That I found someone who cared enough to see the best in me

But now I'm back to square one

Scared to trust in anything

I wish you the best my friend

And I prey success doesn't get the best of you in the end

I hope you know I'll always be here

I'd love you even if you even if you chose to turn your back on me again

No, I guess I should've listened when

This is how they said it would be

And when did all my friends become my enemies

And all this time I just wanted to believe

That I found someone who cared enough to see the best in me

But now I'm back to square one and

This is how they said it would be

We're so busy picking sides

We forget to see the souls behind each other's eyes

If love is patient, love is kind

Then how did we run out of time

I thought I'd found someone

Someone who cared enough

To see the best in me but now I'm back to square one

Scared to trust in anything


Memphis May Fire

Red In Tooth & Claw

It always ends the same

I gave you all my heart just to watch it get thrown away, thrown away!

It takes a toll on my soul

'Cause I'm starting to believe that love's just a game we play. Is it all just a game?

One day I'll heal but I'll be covered in scars

And I'll never forget watching it all fall apart

When you finally came clean about the lies & the games that you played from the start.

It's like every second we spent together is always on repeat in the back of my mind.

What was I thinking when I gave you my life?

You knew it would end.

You knew this would die!

You'll never find another one like me.

I think I'd give you another chance if you deserved one.

I think I'd have room in my heart but I simply reserved none.

I'd let you beg on your knees for forgiveness at last but you're just a mistake.

Please give me my life back.

You made me so insecure & unsure of everything I thought was real.

I just wish I could rewind & go back to a time when I knew what it was like to feel.

I hope someday someone ruins you the way you ruined me!

I just want you to know how it feels.

I want you to see it's like my heart was made to be broken.

Why can't I let go?

Now that it's over I just need you to know

I think I'd give you another chance if you deserved one.

I think I'd have room in my heart but I simply reserved none.

I'd let you beg on your knees for forgiveness at last but you're just a mistake.

Please give me my life!

Give me my life back.

They say it's better to have loved than never at all

But I can't seem to find any good in being thrown at the wall.

I'm not sure if I can stand up from this fall!

I lay tossing & turning & trying to forget.

I thought I'd be over you by now.

With all you put me through I'm full of regret.

I wish I could just forget somehow!

You'll never find another one like me!

I think I'd give you another chance if you deserved one.

I think I'd have room in my heart but I simply reserved none.

I'd let you beg on your knees for forgiveness at last but you're just a mistake.

Please give me my life back.

Given that for the first 6 months of my BPD relationship with my ex we did everything together - and now I actively avoid her - I find this old chestnut strangely apt  :

"Tainted Love"

Sometimes I feel I've got to

Run away I've got to

Get away

From the pain that you drive into the heart of me

The love we share

Seems to go nowhere

I've lost my lights

I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)

Now I'll run from you

This tainted love you've given

I give you all a boy could give you

Take my tears and that's not nearly all

Tainted love

Tainted love

Now I know I've got to

Run away I've got to

Get away

You don't really want any more from me

To make things right

You need someone to hold you tight

You think love is to pray

I'm sorry I don't pray that way

Once I ran to you (I ran)

Now I'll run from you

This tainted love you've given

I give you all a boy could give you

Take my tears and that's not nearly all

Tainted love

Tainted love

Don't touch me please

I cannot stand the way you tease

I love you though you hurt me so

Now I'm going to pack my things and go

Touch me baby, tainted love

Touch me baby, tainted love

Touch me baby, tainted love

Once I ran to you (I ran)

Now I'll run from you

This tainted love you've given

I give you all a boy could give you

Take my tears and that's not nearly all

Tainted love

Tainted love

Tainted love

Halestorm - Conversation Over

I was in the shadows and you were blocking my light

Didn't know for two years that I was living your lie

You covered all your tracks so perfectly clear

You never talked, told me everything I wanted to hear

Oh, I never thought I'd hear myself say:

"Go, get out of my life, outta my bed, you're wasting my time.

Just go! This time for sure, we're so no more!

Conversation over!"

Go! Get out! Go, go!

Get out! Go, go!

You had it all, had everything then you threw it all away

I tried but couldn't get you higher than the cocaine

I'm sick and tired of trying to save your life

Only you can!

Never thought I'd hear myself say:

"Go, get out of my life, outta my bed, you're wasting my time.

Just go! This time for sure, we're so no more!

Conversation over!"

Go! Get out! Go, go!

Get out! Go, go!

Out of my head, out of my life, wasting my time

Out of my bed, get what I said.

I'm out of my head, out of my life, wasting my time.

Out of my head!

I tried to fix you, tried to help you, tried to understand

But we always end up right back here again

I'm out of hope, end of the rope and I'm scared to death how the story ends.

Never thought I'd hear myself say:

"Go, get out of my life, outta my bed, you're wasting my time.

Just go! This time for sure, we're so no more!

Conversation over!"

Conversation over!

Conversation over!

Go! Get out! Go, go!

Get out! Go, go!

Get out! Go, go!

Get out! Go, go!

Halestorm - Mz. Hyde

In the daylight,

I’m your sweetheart,

Your goody-two-shoes prude is a work of art.

But you don’t know me,

And soon you won’t forget,

Bad as can be, yeah you know I’m not so innocent

Better beware I go bump in the night,

Devil-may-care with a lust for life,

And I know you,

Can’t resist this

You know you

Are so addicted.

Boy you better run for your life!

Welcome to the nightmare in my head,

(Oh god!)

Say hello to something scary,

The monster in your bed,

(Oh god!)

Just give in and you won’t be sorry,

Welcome to my other side,

Hello it’s Mz. Hyde!

I can be the b___,

I can play the whore,

Or your fairytale princess who could ask for more.

A touch of wicked,

A pinch of risqué,

Good girl gone bad, my poison is your remedy

Better be scared, better be afraid,

Now that the beast is out of her cage,

And I know you,

Wanna risk it,

You know you

Are so addicted.

Boy, you better run for your life!

Welcome to the nightmare in my head,

(My god!)

Say hello to something scary,

The monster in your bed,

(My god!)

Just give in and you won’t be sorry,

Welcome to my evil side,

Hello it’s Mz. Hyde!

Hello it’s Mz. Hyde!

Hello it’s Mz. Hyde!

I’m the spider crawling down your spine,

Underneath your skin.

I will gently violate your mind,

Before I tuck you in.

Put on the blindfold

There’s no way to be sure,

Which girl you’ll get tonight!

(It’s me, Lzzy, I swear!)

Welcome to the nightmare in my head,

(My god!)

Say hello to something scary,

The monster in your bed,

(My god!)

Just give in and you won’t be sorry,

The nightmare in my head,

(Oh god!)

Say hello to something scary,

The monster in your bed,

(Oh god!)

Just give in and you won’t be sorry,

Welcome to my evil side,

Hello it’s Mz. Hyde!

Hello it’s Mz. Hyde!

Three Days Grace - Last to know

She just walked away

Why didn't she tell me?

And where do I go tonight?

This isn't happening to me

This can't be happening to me

She didn't say a word

Just walked away

You were the first to say

That we were not okay

You were the first to lie

When we were not alright

this was my first love

She was the first to go

And when she left me for you

I was the last to know

Why didn't she tell me

Where to go tonight?

She didn't say word

She just walked away

You were the first to say

That we were not okay

You were the first to lie

When we were not alright

this was my first love

She was the first to go

And when she left me for you

I was the last to know

I'll be the first to say

That now I'm okay

And for the first time

I've opened up my eyes

This was my worst love

You'll be the first to go

And when she leaves you for dead

You'll be the last to know

----

When this came out of my speakers while I was doing some work, I almost broke down in tears. It describes perfectly how I felt (to some extent how I feel). It's a beautiful song, with a tragically important message :/

Royal Blood - Ten Tonne Skeleton

She took my heart, left me for dead

And drank my blood, told me she said

Our secret's worth its weight in gold

But that fire we had, now's turning cold

Cut loose like an animal

Fired out like a cannon ball

But I waited too long

Yeah, I waited too long

Got high from a holy vein

Crashed down in a hurricane

Love has been here and gone

Love has been here and gone

Where did you go? Where did you run?

I can't erase what you've done

Let's burn the past, forget the truth

I'm still more than him, I'm still loving you

Cut loose like an animal

Fired out like a cannon ball

But I waited too long

Yeah, I waited too long

Got high from a holy vein

Crashed down in a hurricane

Love has been here and gone

Love has been here and gone

Cut loose like an animal

Fired out like a cannon ball

But I waited too long

Yeah, I waited too long

Got high from a holy vein

Crashed down in a hurricane

Love has been here and gone

Love has been here and gone

But I waited too long

For you only

Love has been here and gone

To die slowly

Going under again

So don't follow me

Royal Blood - Careless

I'm tired of kidding myself

Another pill, no good for my health

I wish I could make this disappear

So I sit and smoke on my own

Think about you baby, are you feeling alone?

Cause I'd die just thinking that you'd forget

But I guess you won't

I wish I cared less, but I'm afraid I don't

You couldn't care less, so I guess you won't

Change your mind again

I can't stop dreaming of you

It does me no good and it's turning into

A splinter that I can't find under my skin

So I'll make another hole in the wall

Think about the times I didn't love you at all

Cause I just can't make myself again

So I guess I won't

I wish I cared less, but I'm afraid I don't

You couldn't care less, so I guess you won't

Change your mind again

I've tried to right myself

But our love came crashing down

Like a tidal wave, a tidal wave

I'm fighting with my hands

And I hope you know we're digging our own graves

For your mistakes

I wish I cared less, but I'm afraid I don't

You couldn't care less, so I guess you won't

Change your mind again

I've tried to right myself

But our love came crashing down like a tidal wave

I'm fighting with my hands

And I hope you know we're digging our own graves

Ink Spots Ft. Ella Fitzgerald - Into Each Life Some Rain Must Fall

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJ9IaplRrm4

Into each life some rain must fall

But too much is fallin' in mine

Into each heart some tears must fall

But some day the sun will shine

Some folks can lose the blues in their hearts

But when I think of you, another shower starts

Into each life some rain must fall

But too much is fallin' in mine

Into each life some rain must fall

But too much, too much is fallin' in mine

Into each heart some tears must fall

But some day the sun will shine

Some folks can lose the blues in their hearts

But when I think of you, another shower starts

Into each life some rain must fall

But too much is fallin' in mine

Into each and every life some rain has got to fall

But too much of that stuff is fallin' into mine

And into each heart some tears gotta fall

And I know that someday that sun is bound to shine

Some folks can lose the blues in their hearts

But when I think of you, another shower starts

Into each life some rain must fall

But too much is fallin' in mine

The Wind - Atmosphere

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G8Uak0NybDE

"The wind that made the grain

Wave gently yesterday

Blows down the trees tomorrow."

It's nothing, it's only a little wind

A distinct somewhat discrete approach to the maze

Come on, keep up the pace you already won the race

Cute baby hamster let's try to make him run in place

Look at the wounds, it's destined to die soon

And the way I see it, we're obligated to eat it

So treat it, with grins while it's standing on it's last limbs

Feed it to fatten it up for when the feast begins

I drew the blueprints out on the sidewalk with chalk

So when the rain starts they won't be able to read our plans

And I'm compiling a list of demands

So let me get a show of fists and hands to see who's down with the program

Party over here free love, free truth, free care, care free

Bring your whole crew affair

Freedom of speech and thought

Scot free, free your mind

Forgot to pack a spine? Feel free to borrow mine

I'll be the thorn in the side of drama

Comma

It's cool because we died with honor

Comma

Don't worry -honey I ain't goin' hurt you

I'm just trying to strip you of your pride and your gear and your virtue

It's not clear

Proceed with caution

Cause fear, is no longer an option

And maybe, and maybe my issues are not your issues

But everyone has to sleep and everybody carries weight

You can't escape regret, but you might regret escape

If you closed your eyes and held it would you recognize the shape?

Regardless, give my regards

To the inner child that managed to break

Free from the confines of this skull sized cell

The taming of the shrew, the high hopes fell

The shaming of the true made your own private hell

And maybe I'm not here for you to listen to

And I'm not here to steer you just share my vision

Maybe drop a hint or two, maybe a few opinions

Maybe learn from you by watching you and studying your positions

The mission started off as nothing but better living instead of giving truth

Better living was found through keeping secrets

Enlist me as a crunch

Spreading the message of funk

Lettin' the rest of the spunk

Clog their veins with that junk

All limp, swingin' like the willows in the wind

Moving like the mountains when Armageddon begins

Vampires you're all a bunch of demons

When you talk I close my eyes it sounds like your screamin'

It's not clear

Proceed with caution

Cause fear, is no longer an option

I no longer have the patience to deal with most of these patients

Ignore the preferences and relevance to they favorites

I look for love and I identify deceit

Within the facial structure of every human being I meet

I can smell your contempt when you enter the chamber

So I act apprehensive and pretend that there's danger

As I watch from the tower everyone looks like ants

They all scramble to be appears as if as they dance

Well for all of y'all keeping y'all in hell

I'm only tryin' to help peace out to one self

And if I did have a car I would speed down the road

Until I reached my goal or my engine explodes

The glass was half full so I drank it

I got impatient and anxious as I was waiting for the raffle

And when they drew the number it pulled me under

Cause I was sitting on the seven

Which had never made the entrance

It's not clear

Proceed with caution

Cause fear, is no longer an option

"The wind that made the grain

Wave gently yesterday

Blows down the trees tomorrow."

VAST:

":)on't Take Your Love Away"

I am looking for inspiration

And I think I found it in your heart

It's the kind of thing you get when you're not looking

It's the kind of thing you had from the start

Put me on a ship that is sinking

On a voyage to an untamed land

Take away the freedoms I wanted

I understand

Please, don't take your love away from me

Don't take your love away from me

Please, don't take your love away from me

Please, don't take your love from me

Please, don't take your love from me

Put me inside flesh that is dying

A ghost that wanders without rest

Buried by desires and weakness

I understand

Please, don't take your love away from me

Don't take your love away from me

Please, don't take your love from me

Please, don't take your love from me

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM

"Jar Of Hearts"


I know I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

And it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

Tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Drown-Front Porch Step


Well I’m so tired of the rain falling softly on the ground,

Just enough to get my feet wet but not enough to let me drown.

I’ve been laying in my bed wishing I had never woken,

Begging god to rid my head of every word you’ve ever spoken.

Broke my knuckles on the wall because I thought about the call

Where you said you’d always love me, do you not tell the truth at all?

Well if I ever cross your mind, make sure you write down the times

So I will know the moments I was eating you alive.

Now I lay here waiting with the hope that I might find some sleep

I need some sleep tonight,

Cause I’ve been waiting on your call but I know it will never come

but I’m still waiting by the phone.

And don’t you dare, don’t you dare,

Say you ever loved me or even tell me that you cared

Cause you knew what you were doing and you know just what you’ve done

How dare you say you miss me with your spit still on his tongue.

I am broken. I am beaten. I’m mistreated and I’m torn.

I am cold with no direction but I’m lost without your warmth.

I’m trying hard to find some hope that I might get the chance to breathe.

Get off my mind, give back my heart and get the ___ away from me!

I know I couldn’t give you much, but I know I gave my best,

You were always my princess, and now he’s sliding up your dress

And I know I gave the world everything I’ve ever had,

Johnny Cash said love would burn, I never thought it'd hurt this bad.

Well I’m so tired of the rain falling softly on the ground,

Just enough to get my feet wet but not enough to let me drown.

I’ve been laying in my bed wishing I had never woken,

Begging god to rid my head of every word you’ve ever spoken.

Broke my knuckles on the wall because I thought about the call

Where you said you’d always love me, do you not tell the truth at all?

Well if I ever cross your mind make sure you write down the times,

So I will know the moments I was eating you alive.

You are the itch that's on my back.

You are the gum under my shoe.

You are the horrors of my past.

You are the chill that haunts the room.

You are the creaking on my steps.

You are cancer. You are plague.

You are regret. You are disease.

I wish that you would go away.

Been playing this Thin Lizzy track a lot recently and I think it sums things up rather nicely! :)

":)on't Believe A Word"

Don't believe me if I tell you

Not a word of this is true

Don't believe me if I tell you

Especially if I tell you that I'm in love with you

Don't believe me if I tell you

That I wrote this song for you

There might be some other silly pretty girl

I'm singing it to

Don't believe a word

For words are only spoken

Your heart is like a promise

Made to be broken

Don't believe a word

Words can tell lies

And lies are no comfort

When there's tear in your eyes

Don't believe me if I tell you

Not a word of this is true

Don't believe me if I tell you

Especially if I tell you that I'm in love with you

Don't believe a word

I think for me my b/u soundtrack has got to be the pretty stereotypical "somebody i used to know" my gotye. The build up and break down described in that song really fits what happened to me.

This always evokes how I feel about her.

Bright Eyes:Sunrise, Sunset

Sunrise, sunset, sunrise, sunset

Swiftly go the days

Sunrise, sunset, you wake up then you undress

It always is the same

The sunrise and a sun sets

You are lying while you confess

Keep trying to explain

The sunrise and the sun sets

You realize and then you forget

What you have been trying to retain

But everybody knows it's all about the things

That get stuck inside of your head

Like the songs your roommate sings

Or a vision of her body as she stretches out on your bed

you raise her hands in the air

Ask her 'When was the last time you looked in the mirror?

Cause you've changed, yeah, you've changed

The sunrise, the sunset, you're hopeful and then you regret

The circle never breaks

With a sunrise and sunset, there's a change of heart or address

Is there nothing that remains?

For a sunrise or a sunset, you're manic or you're depressed

Will you ever feel ok?

For a sunrise or a sunset, your lover is an actress

Did you really think she'd stay?

For a sunrise or a sunset, you're either coming or you just left

But you're always on the way

Towards a sunrise or a sunset, a scribble or a sonnet

They are really just the same

To the sunrise or the sunset, the master and his servant

Have exactly the same fate

It's a sunrise and a sunset, from a cradle to a casket

There is no way to escape

The sunrise or the sunset, hold your sadness like a puppet

Keep putting on the play

But everything you do is leading to the point

Where you just won't know what to do

And the moment that you're laughing

There is someone there who will be laughing louder than you

So it's true, the trick is complete

You've become everything you said you never would be

You're a fool, you're a fool

Sunrise, sunset, sunrise, sunset

The sunrise and the sun sets

Sunrise, sunset, the sunrise, the sun sets

The sunrise, the sun sets

Sunrise, sunset, go home to your apartment

Put the cassette in the tape deck

And let that fever play.

Sunrise, sunset, where are you, Arienette?

Where are you, Arienette?

Train, "You Already Know"

This bipolar love affair

It just ain't where it's at for me anymore

So don't let the door hit you when you leave

You throw me in the fire just to save my life

A pretty little liar

When I call you out you'd rather put up a fight than just come clean

Get on your way to making someone else feel low

Then higher than they ever thought they could go

You already know

I'm giving you up, you're letting me down

Stop pretending that you're gonna turn yourself around

You already know, know, know

You already know, know, know, know

Don't ask me why you already know

I was the shoulder you leaned on

You made me feel like the next James Bond

Double O seven oh hell, you were heaven to me

But while you were saying what I wanted to hear

You started breaking ground on a new frontier

Always making love but never to me

So get on your way to making someone else feel low

Then higher than they ever thought they could go

You already know

I'm giving you up, you're letting me down

Stop pretending that you're gonna turn yourself around

You already know, know, know

You already know, know, know, know

Don't ask me why you already know

You already know that I'm done waiting

Going crazy hating myself for loving you

At least the one side of you I thought I knew

You already know

You already know, know, know, know

You already know, know, know, know

Don't ask me why

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