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Hi All, I stayed home from the office to work at home.  In the middle of the day (with my car parked in the garage), someone rang my doorbell incessantly and I jumped up on the ceiling.  After about 20 minutes I walked outside to see if it was the mailman or UPS or FedEx or Jehovah Witness or sales person but there was nothing left on the front door.  I know that this doesn't necessarily mean anything as it could have been a little child selling chocolate for their school.  I guess what it did do is make me realize that I am far more nervous than I realized.  I mean I was so startled, refused to go to the door, my heart was racing, and I was like a little caged animal that just sat there shaking.  I honestly don't think he would ever come to my house (70 miles north of him) as he only came to my 1 time in the entire time that we were "together."  I had thought I felt rather safe as home but I guess I am on red alert.  Has or is anyone else gone through this same thing?

 Hi Olivia,

While I do not know your story, I do relate to this.

I have cPTSD and am triggered at times into a panic by unexpected door knocks/rings and would be especially anxious if the door bell would ring and no one was there.

Yes, like a caged animal, that is how I have felt at times, it is a horrible feeling, sorry you had to go through this!

Do you have any better idea on the cause?  Faulty wiring? A tree branch leaning on it?  Or is it likely a person?

I can relate to this. Especially in the first few months, while I was at home depressed. When the doorbell rang I would panic. When I saw a car stop outside my house that looked a bit like the car of my ex, I would panic as well.

Its much less now. How long has it been for you?

Yes. PTSD startle. It has been 40 days but he did an unexpected smear campaign that I didn't expect. I got upset about that this weekend so I am wound up. I am going to a friend's house for a few days to try and have a change of scenery. I need to get a grip as he's not worth this agony.