BPDFamily.com

OK never a dull moment we went from tolerating each other to  she wants to end it - she crossed my boundaries several times and i finally left for a while. I came back home to the same tension -  i agreed to end it i am done.

no contact until the next evening. ... .i was gone all day  I come home to a different woman sweet as could be unbelievably in love with me . no apologies just in the moment . finally acknowledges she was driving me nuts with her goofiness so we hug and the tensions disappear momentarily.  So now she opens up says there are things she needs to tell me but shes afraid to. afraid of my reaction and afraid i might tell someone else. ... .she has said this before and never tells me - i don't know if its even true.

Then she gives me a recap of the night we weren't talking . says she was contemplating ending her life. wrote a note to the kids and to her mom and then she said she picked out6 what she wanted to wear and did her hair so she would look good when she was found... .but she couldn't go through with it. she calmed down with the help of her mother the she said god told her to seek out this psychic medium ( who she has seen before evidently ) and she went there and had some 2 hour spiritual cleansing ting done and then it hit her how much she loves me. she said she has a demon following her and had some entity attached to her that was not allowing her to see the good in anything. says its our house and she needs to be away from the house  we need to move because this demon is affecting our whole family and we dont know it... .she sounds perfectly sane when she is telling me this crazy stuff. then she tells me she had made an appointment with the MC to go and talk on her own but shes cancelling it because his room is depressing and there is bad energy in the MC office because everyone there has left their negativity... and  there's more but that's the gist of it. and we are um,,,apparently getting along rather well at the moment... .holy cow! ... .and she still hasn't told me the things she is afraid to tell me!

Wow... .that's a lot to digest. This must be very very difficult for you and scary

She sounds sane when she saying it because she believes it. My brother is paranoid schizophrenic, and he has night terrors, hears and see things that are not there if he's off his meds. At one point he kept seeing patterns in numbers and connecting everything to everything... .like a scratch on the DVD player kind of looked like a 5, and there were 5 pennies in his pocket, and one of the rooms where he worked was room 5, etc.

I'm not exactly sure this is a BPD trait. When you guys were in MC, what did that look like? How do you respond when she says these things?

/hugs I am sorry you are hurting through this.

not quite the same. with her i am not sure how much is real and how much is - how she says - words she uses to describe how she is feeling. i am not sure how credible any of the story is. i am sure some of it is but with her the question is what part of that was exagerrated in order to keep me around. and i will never know  but she knows . and if i figure it out and ask her about it she says she was just trying to describe how she felt. this elation she has for me right now is going to fade always does. then she will be back to assuming i am lying and using her and i cant be trusted. thats my BPD crazy train

It's very frustrating for us when we get stuck in those push/pull tactics. What have you tried to end your part of the cycle?

Oh this happened to me. My gf actually had the demon removed from her. And I was painted with thick white paint. Then the house energy was all wrong and we moved. Guess what... .Six months later she hates the new house and now I'm painted black again.

I honestly do believe the demon part.  No human could have reacted the way she did :)