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Just been a strange few days.

Firstly, I've been broken up with my dBPDexgf for almost 7 months, and generally doing really well recently. The first 4 or 5 months honestly were hell, really emotionally painful. But lately, I've been good.

Anyway, I've been dating again, and that started out fun, but I think I need to take a break since I've fallen into some bad habits and mindsets. I've definitely fallen into that game of comparing everything to how it was with my ex. Like so many others, things with my ex got super serious REALLY quickly. After like 2 months we were "in love". Rationally, i know that's not the norm, but it's hard for me not to play the comparison game (especially with sex lol).

Anyway, another weird situation came up... .On my most recent date (it was an online setup), I realized the person I was on a date with was linked to my ex. I live in a little big city lol. Anyway, I had never met this person, but I eventually found out she was best friends and roommates with my ex's best friend (and definitely friends on some level with my ex).

I really enjoyed meeting this person, but once I put this together I obviously decided it wasn't a good idea to ask her out on another date (the good news was I don't think she was particularly into it herself).

Anyway, like a day later... .I narrowly miss running into my ex and her new boyfriend com km out of my favorite neighborhood bar. I was super awkward, so I just pretended to look down at my phone and not notice (so smooth :).

The last time I spoke to my ex was on good terms though, so I decided to text her and say hi later. We caught up a little. It was okay. I mean, don't get me wrong it was weird, but I kind of asked for it.

Anyway, I basically texted her to day I thought maybe I missed her leaving the bar and asked she was doing. She said she was doing "so so good... .Was overall very happy." She mentioned her boyfriend several times. Also, she mentioned how she heard I had went on a date with her friend and she hoped it went well.

I didn't talk long and I didn't really want to talk about the date, so I glossed over it, and wished her well.

So, overall... .I realize I probably contacted her just because I wanted an excuse to. It didn't emotionally wreck me, but it did leave me feeling weird. You know, hearing about her boyfriend, about how good she's doing. It's so weird when you're exes with someone because obviously I'm glad you're happy, but there's also that petty, emotional side of you that can be hurt by it as well.

I don't know... .Like I said, just a weird few days. Can anyone relate to any of this or where I'm coming from? Like I said, hearing from her wasn't that paindful (don't get me wrong, if I heard this same stuff a couple months ago I would have been a mess lol). But just some of the things I said... .Hearing that our exes are doing really well and it stinging, comparing new partners, etc. Any of this resonate with anyone?