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Title: Why I stay Post by: Rockylove on October 28, 2015, 09:06:35 AM I've been giving this so much thought lately. There are so many dynamics in a relationship to consider when deciding whether staying is worth the drama when someone dysregulates.
I seriously thought I could handle it once I figured out that it was a mental illness and I wasn't going crazy. And I did fairly well managing the insanity for a while... .until he had a stroke. I became someone I didn't like very much. I was scared and overwhelmed and exhausted and angry and... .you get the picture. I suppose if I were to be truly honest, I'd have to say that I do not want to leave a relationship, home and life that I've put so much time and energy into. I know that I CAN start over if I have to but I really don't want to HAVE to. I know he doesn't want to either. So it's up to me to deal as effectively as I can and suck up what I don't like about it all. I truly do love this man~~as broken as he is, he's still a brilliant, funny man who is a wonderful companion (most of the time). |