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Wanted to share this goodbye poem I wrote for my ex.  I gave it to her when we said goodbye, don't know if she read it.

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As I watch the sunset on this day,

struggling, trying to find some way.

Pain so intense the sun seems dim,

a burning in my heart so deep within.


Finding you was the high point of my life,

one day I had hoped you would be my wife.

The love and dream we shared was so true,

as pure and sweet like the morning dew.

The house on the hill ... .no end in sight,

a family with you ... .everything seemed so right.


To you I gave my heart, my soul, my love,

it sang like the wings of a mourning dove.

We flew together so high and free,

remember on the hill, we can see our tree.


Even when we struggled and fought,

I tried so hard to not get distraught.

I held on so tight to the dream we shared,

even though at times I was really scared.


Never have I experienced a love like this,

losing you ... .I am falling into the abyss.

Why if moving on is so right,

when looking ahead I see no light.


My love for you is so strong and deep,

trying so hard now to not fall down and weep.

Yet the tears again fill my eyes,

as my broken heart slowly writhers and dies.


Trying so hard to push you out of my thoughts,

why are my insides all tied up in knots.

I regret not spending more time this year with you,

I am sorry, I really wanted to pull through.


Memories of times we spent together,

keep swirling in my head like stormy weather.

I can only think of the good times we had,

so much easier it would be, to think only of the bad.

I miss you so much, your love, friendship, presence and smile,

you truly made my life seem so real and worthwhile.


As the last rays of the sun shine bright,

I oh so badly want to hold on and fight.

Reaching out to touch you, my eyes so teary,

but you are already gone, yet I still see you so clearly.

The light is gone, the sun has set,

can't understand why my eyes are still so wet.


Goodbye my love, I will never forget,

you and I, we were a one of a kind duet.

Please on occasion, if you would be so kind,

to remember the beautiful love we shared in your mind.

In  tears. :'( Why is this so hard? I hate this, crying every day. Thank you for the lovely poem, it just brings up all the confusion of these kinds of relationships. I was masterfully painted into a corner by my ex where I was left with no choice but to leave; if I stayed, I'd be a wimp, a Mama's boy, and you know the other word for kitty. So I had to leave. She had to know what she was doing, right? She left me no avenue except complete surrender of my self-esteem and self-worth.

Thanks again for the heartfelt words, I love it.

Beautiful. Truly. You describe the feelings so well.  Thanks for sharing this with us

I feel much the same.  I have had tears in my eyes almost constantly for 6 weeks or more.  Only this week as it lessened somewhat.

I was also painted into a corner ... .I either make a promise to her or she is gone.  Not that what she wanted was unreasonable, but she had been working towards this for a long time and I think this was her way to blame our relationship failing on me in spite of her being the one who had ended it about 6 weeks prior.  She left me a broken man and I am ashamed that I let her do that to me.