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I know this topic has been done before, but I was wondering what song lyrics have stuck out for you, either lyrics that describe your pwBPD, or maybe lyrics about how you feel in your current situation. For me at least, lyrics have seemed to pop out at me more since the breakup.

Here are two my favorites:

First, Brandi Carlile- "The Story"- my wedding song. Beautiful lyrics sung by an extremely talented artist from the Seattle area. I feel that if my wife would be honest about her condition, it would sound something like these lyrics:

"You see the smile that's on my mouth

It's hiding the words that don't come out

And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed

They don't know my head is a mess

No, they don't know who I really am

And they don't know what

I've been through like you do

And I was made for you"

As far as lyrics for me, I am listening to a lot of Leon Russell this week and fell in love with "tightrope" again. Here is a snippet:

"I'm up on the tight wire

One side's ice and one is fire

It's a circus game

With you and me

I'm up on the tight rope

One side's hate and one is hope

But the top hat on my head

Is all you see

And the wire seems to be

The only place for me

A comedy of errors

And I'm falling"

Madness by Muse. My ex moved out and into her new home and came out with her boyfriend that she had a relationship with in our marriage. I was heartbroken, I missed her and couldn't believe that I had lost her. I still listen to the song now but it means something different. It makes me think of what love is not supposed to be about. It shouldn't be dysfunctional.

Muse - Madness

I, I can't get these memories out of my mind

And some kind of madness has started to evolve

I, I tried so hard to let you go

But some kind of madness is swallowing me whole, yeah

I have finally seen the light

And I have finally realized

What you mean

Oh oh oh

And now, I need to know is this real love

Or is it just madness keeping us afloat?

And when I look back at all the crazy fights we had

Like some kind of madness

Was taking control

Yeah

And now I have finally seen the light

And I have finally realized

What you need

Mm

And now I have finally seen the end (Finally seen the end)

And I'm not expecting you to care (Expecting you to care)

But I have finally seen the light (Finally seen the light)

I have finally realized (Realized)

I need to love

I need to love

Come to me,

Trust in your dream

Come on and rescue me

Yes I have known, I can be wrong

Maybe I'm too headstrong

Our love is

Madness

I have a lot of songs lol.

Slaves - My soul is empty and full of white girls

I wanna get out, I wanna get out

I'm sick of giving in to these demons

I wanna get out, I wanna get out

I'm sick of giving in to these demons

Someone who knows they need to get out of their situation

With eyes wide open, all I see is the dark

To me this relates to the FOG.

Another hit, another mark

Either you or the pwBPD hurts the other person.

A small pinch and my whole world starts to spark

You do something you didn't think was so bad, but it turns the relationship upside down.

If I had another chance, I can't say what I'd do

The minds a tricky thing when it comes to the loss of you

Not knowing what you would do if they came back. You know you need to leave, but its not that simple.

Sometimes I hear her cries, silence is the dirtiest trick in life

The obligation and guilt you feel. Thinking they need you, and that you have given up on them

If I'm so empty, then why do I feel alive?

Let's go back for the last time, when you breathe you lie

excessive lying, something we all know about

Pretty thing keep your mouth closed, and those legs tangled close

How they tell lies to your replacements, and how they go through rapid partners

Dear shame, are you forever?

I'll never know what it's like to keep my head from spinning

Ruminations

I'll carry the flame for you, I'll carry the weight for you

Putting more in the relationship than your partner

In that moment I don't need to think twice, the end of a shattered life.

Ending the relationship, realizing how bad it was

I feel her body break under the weight [2x]

My selfish lies, selfish lies, I can't do it any other way

Sometimes I hear her cries, I hear her cries

Under, under, under the weight of my love

How your pwBPD hurts from your actions. Triggering engulfment fears.

I could list at least a couple dozen songs, but I think it is Lana Del Rey - Born to Die (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-IpPtIAnv0) that has spoken to me more than any other. She gets it.

Feet don’t fail me now

Take me to the finish line

Oh my heart it breaks every step that I take

But I’m hoping at the gates,

They’ll tell me that you’re mine

Walking through the city streets

Is it by mistake or design?

I feel so alone on the Friday nights

Can you make it feel like home, if I tell you you’re mine?

It's like I told you honey

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry

Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough

I don’t know why

Keep making me laugh, let’s go get high

The road is long, we carry on

Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side

Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain

You like your girls insane

Choose your last words

This is the last time

Cause you and I, we were born to die

Lost but now I am found

I can see but once I was blind

I was so confused as a little child

Tried to take what I could get

Scared that I couldn't find

All the answers honey

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry

Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough

I don’t know why

Keep making me laugh

Let's go get high

The road is long, we carry on

Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side

Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain

You like your girls insane

Choose your last words,

This is the last time

Cause you and I

We were born to die

Come and and take a walk on the wild side

Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain

You like your girls insane

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry

Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough

I don’t know why

Keep making me laugh

Let's go get high

The road is long, we carry on

Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side

Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain

You like your girls insane... .

Choose your last words,

This is the last time

Cause you and I

We were born to die

I WILL SURVIVE by Stephanie Bently from the soundtrack from HOLES

Done a lot of things that I'm not so proud of.

Took a lot of turns, turned out wrong.

That's a worn out song.

Day by day moment by moment.

Taking my chances, trusting my heart.

It wasn't to smart.

I am a codependent who attracts BPD/needy waifers men

Lonely, as lost as I could be.

No way it's up to me.

I will survive

I will endure

When the going is rough

you can't be sure

i'll tough it out

I won't give in

If i'm knocked down I'll get up again

As long as my dreams alive I will survive

I feel run over after it ends but I know that they are not the key to my happiness - this is my responsibility

Letting go of my bad habits.

Hangin on the hope for better times.

I'll be fine.

Learning to sleep in the bed that I made.

Laying the blanket where it belongs.

I've gotta be strong.

Tear drops no one sees but me.

I won't stop, I'll always believe.

I will survive

I will endure

When the going is rough

You can't be sure

I'll tough it out

I won't give in

If I'm knocked down I'll get up again

As long as my dreams alive

I will survive, yeah!

As long as my dreams alive

I will survive

I will endure

When the going's rough

You can't be sure

I'll tough it out

I won't give in

If I'm knocked down i'll get up again

As long as my dreams alive

I will survive

I will survive

I will survive

I will survive!

Oh yeah!

No I will survive!

Yeah I will survive

I will survive

guess it speaks for itself

WOW I have a million songs.

One of my favorites for where I am at now. Short and sweet:

Never Saw it Coming - Tigers Jaw

"Never Saw It Coming"

I learned a lot about falling in love when I fell out of love

I learned a lot about being a friend when I was alone

I played with fire, I burned it all down

I made more mistakes than you can count

A lot of Pink songs speak to me... .more about the relationship than the healing... .I have kind of wondered if she has BPD... .or relates to it anyway ("Please Don't Leave Me"-- definitely watch the video- holy ****---- or Family Portrait)

Try - Pink

Ever wonder 'bout what he's doing

How it's all turned to lies

Sometimes I think that it's better,

To never ask why

Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns, doesn't mean you're gonna die

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Funny how the heart can be deceiving

More than just a couple times

Why do we fall in love so easy

Even when it's not right

Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns, doesn't mean you're gonna die

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Gotta get up and try, and try, and try

You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Ever worry that it might be ruined

And does it make you wanna cry

When you're out there doing what you're doing

Are you just getting by

Tell me are you just getting by, by, by

Should I stay or... - I am ALWAYS on a Brandi kick! I've seen her seven times in concert, and she always delivers. I saw her this summer, which was the first time I saw her since my wife left. The Eye and The Story were very emotional and I'm not ashamed to say I cried at the concert. If my ex would accept a letter from me, I would want the lyrics of The EYE to be part of it. Brilliant lyrics for our situation. I haven't clicked on the youtube links, but if people are interested in Brandi, search on Youtube for Brandi Carlile and Red Rocks. There are about ten songs recorded live in HD that will be mind blowing. I also think the song "That Wasn't Me" could apply to a pwBPD too.

I also have been listening to a lot of the Decemberists this past year. The song "Beginning Song" is incredible. There is one line in the song that I ask myself daily. "I am waiting, should I be waiting? I am wanting, should I be wanting? I am Hopeful, should I be hopeful?

I also like the song 12/17/12, which is about the Sandy Hook shooting and Colin Meloy's son who has autism (one of the victims had autism). There is a line that describes me:

"And oh my love,

If you only knew I long for you,

How I waste my days wishing you would come around,

Just to have you around."

Maybe the title of the Decemberist's album "What a Terrible World, What a Beautiful World" should be the title of the soundtrack for BPD?

Quote from: abq1980 on December 03, 2015, 11:57:03 AM

Hey abq1980,

I totally agree, I haven't seen her in concert as much as you have but her music was written for all of us on this site, she singing to us! Like the song Pride and Joy linked in my earlier post as well as The Eye; I hope you guys hint those links if you're still yearning for your lost love as I am... .

Interesting tale: Last year around this time I sent my ex's sister an email that contained the link to Pride and Joy, I was reminiscing at that time about her sister leaving me once again several months earlier. The cosmic whirl winds must have been flowing, no lie 3 min later, out of the blue, I received a text from my runaway wanting to speak... .so this song goes deep!

This lyrics of this song hit a deep place with me

Jumper

By Third Eye Blind

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in

And if you do now want to see me again

I would understand, I would understand

The angry boy, a bit too insane

Icing over a secret pain

You know you don't belong

You're the first to fight, you're way to loud

You're the flash of light on a burial shroud

I know something's wrong

Well everyone I know has got a reason to say

Put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

You could cut ties from all the lies that you've been living in

And if you do not want to see me again

I would understand, I would understand

Well he's on the table and he's going to code

And I do not think anyone knows what they are doing here

And your friends have left

And you've been dismissed

I never thought it would come to this

And I, I want you know know

Everyone's got to face down the demons

Maybe today,

We can put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

You could cut ties from all the lies that you've been living in

And if you do not want to see me again

I would understand, I would understand, I would understand

Can you put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

I would understand

You could cut ties from all the lies that you've been living in

And if you do not want to see me again

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

I would understand

Another song that just hits me in the gut

Scars

by Papa Roach

I tear my heart open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care too much

My scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart open

Just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just want to be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

'Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you go fix yourself

Your making me insane

All I can say is

I tear my heart open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care too much

Our scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart

Open just to feel

I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That your drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassion's in my nature

Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care too much

Our scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart

Open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just want to be alone

You shouldn't ever came around

Why don't you just go home?

'Cause your drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

But you didn't understand

You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is that

I care too much

Our scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart

Open just to feel

I tear my heart open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is that

I care too much

Our scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart open

Just to feel

The song I listened few hours before I said I cannot be anymore in that relationship:

Paul Simon - 50 Ways to Leave Your Lover

"The problem is all inside your head", she said to me

The answer is easy if you take it logically

I'd like to help you in your struggle to be free

There must be fifty ways to leave your lover

She said it's really not my habit to intrude

Furthermore, I hope my meaning won't be lost or misconstrued

But I'll repeat myself, at the risk of being crude

There must be fifty ways to leave your lover

Fifty ways to leave your lover

You just slip out the back, Jack

Make a new plan, Stan

You don't need to be coy, Roy

Just get yourself free

Hop on the bus, Gus

You don't need to discuss much

Just drop off the key, Lee

And get yourself free

Ooo slip out the back, Jack

Make a new plan, Stan

You don't need to be coy, Roy

Just listen to me

Hop on the bus, Gus

Don't need to discuss much

Just drop off the key, Lee

Get yourself free

She said it grieves me so to see you in such pain

I wish there was something I could do to make you smile again

I said I appreciate that and would you please explain

About the fifty ways

She said why don't we both just sleep on it tonight

And I believe in the morning you'll begin to see the light

And then she kissed me and I realized she probably was right

There must be fifty ways to leave your lover

Fifty ways to leave your lover

You just slip out the back, Jack

Make a new plan, Stan

You don't need to be coy, Roy

Just get yourself free

Oh you hop on the bus, Gus

You don't need to discuss much

Just drop off the key, Lee

And get yourself free

Slip out the back, Jack

Make a new plan, Stan

You don't need to be coy, Roy

You just listen to me

Hop on the bus, Gus

You don't need to discuss much

Just drop off the key, Lee

And get yourself free

The song that shows me somehow that I made a right decision. It talks through bitter tone about previous relationship. Everything is ironically said. It seems like he is talking to BPD woman - tells her what she wants to hear but you can see that he is more than hurt because of her behavior but doesn't see any point of expressing explicit words out loud because she wouldn't understand anyway. He just wants to move on... .

Don't Think Twice It's All Right - Bob Dylan

It ain’t no use to sit and wonder why, babe

It don’t matter, anyhow

An’ it ain’t no use to sit and wonder why, babe

If you don’t know by now

When your rooster crows at the break of dawn

Look out your window and I’ll be gone

You’re the reason I’m trav’lin’ on

Don’t think twice, it’s all right

It ain’t no use in turnin’ on your light, babe

That light I never knowed

An’ it ain’t no use in turnin’ on your light, babe

I’m on the dark side of the road

Still I wish there was somethin’ you would do or say

To try and make me change my mind and stay

We never did too much talkin’ anyway

So don’t think twice, it’s all right

It ain’t no use in callin’ out my name, gal

Like you never did before

It ain’t no use in callin’ out my name, gal

I can’t hear you anymore

I’m a-thinkin’ and a-wond’rin’ all the way down the road

I once loved a woman, a child I’m told

I give her my heart but she wanted my soul

But don’t think twice, it’s all right

I’m walkin’ down that long, lonesome road, babe

Where I’m bound, I can’t tell

But goodbye’s too good a word, gal

So I’ll just say fare thee well

I ain’t sayin’ you treated me unkind

You could have done better but I don’t mind

You just kinda wasted my precious time

But don’t think twice, it’s all right

A true song about BPD woman. Really, this is true description of my understanding of BPD. She can perform as a woman in many occasions, but at the end she breaks like a little girl, because this is exactly what she is, emotionally underdeveloped woman - still a little girl. And he is saying one big truth here, they cannot be better until they understand that they are just like rest of us, stop thinking about themselves as too emotional, too emphatic, too loving, too intensive... .

Bob Dylan – Just Like A Woman

Nobody feels any pain

Tonight as I stand here in the rain.

Everybody knows that baby's got new clothes,

But lately I see her ribbons and her bows

Have fallen from her curls.

She takes just like a woman.

She makes love just like a woman.

And then she aches just like a woman.

But she breaks just like a little girl.

Queen Mary, she's my friend.

Yes I believe I'll go see her again.

Nobody has to guess that baby can't be blessed

'Till she finally sees that she's like all the rest

With her fog, her amphetamines, and her pearls.

She takes just like a woman.

She makes love just like a woman.

And then she aches just like a woman.

But she breaks just like a little girl.

It was raining from the first, and I was dying there of thirst,

So I came in here.

And your long-time curse hurts, but what's worse

Is this pain in here.

I can't stay in here.

Ain't it clear... .

That I just can't fit.

Yes I believe it's time for us to quit.

But when we met again introduced as friends,

Please don't let on that you knew me when

I was hungry, and it was your world.

You fake just like a woman.

You make love just like a woman.

And then you ache just like a woman.

But you break just like a little girl.

From back in 1965, the Zombies:

Well, no one told me about her

The way she lied

Well, no one told me about her

How many people cried

But it's too late to say you're sorry

How would I know, why should I care?

Please don't bother trying to find her

She's not there

Well, let me tell you 'bout the way she looked

The way she acts and the color of her hair

Her voice was soft and cool, her eyes were clear and bright

But she's not there

Well, no one told me about her

What could I do?

Well, no one told me about her

Though they all knew

But it's too late to say you're sorry

How would I know, why should I care?

Please don't bother trying to find her

She's not there

Well, let me tell you about the way she looked

The way she acts and the color of her hair

Her voice was soft and cool, her eyes were clear and bright

But she's not there

But it's too late to say you're sorry

How would I know, why should I care?

Please don't bother trying to find her

She's not there

Well, let me tell you about the way she looked

The way she acts and the color of her hair

Her voice was soft and cool, her eyes were clear and bright

But she's not there

Sleeping with Sirens

"Scene Two - Roger Rabbit"

Is there a right way for how this goes?

You've got your friends

And you've got your foes

They want a piece of something hot

Forget your name like they forgot

Oh, ain't that something?

Some wanna see you crash and burn

And criticize your every word

I'm trying to keep from going insane

Ain't that the way of this whole damn thing

Oh, trying to be something more

Nobody's gonna love you if

You can't display a way to capture this

Nobody's gonna hold your hand

And guide you through

No it's up for you to understand

Nobody's gonna feel your pain

When all is done

And it's time for you to walk away

So when you have today

You should say all that you have to say

Say all that you have to say

Is there a right way for being strong?

Feels like I'm doing things all wrong

Still I'm here just holding on

Confess my heart and forgive my wrongs.

Oh, just trying to show you something more

Nobody's gonna love you if

You can't display a way to capture this

Nobody's gonna hold your hand

And guide you through

It's up for you to understand

Nobody's gonna feel your pain

When all is done

And it's time for you to walk away

When you have today

You should say all that you have to say

Don't point the blame when you can't find nothing

Look to yourself and you might find something

It's time that we sorted out

All of the things we complain about

So listen close to the sound of your soul

Take back a life we led once before

If it ain't you then who?... .

If it ain't you then who's gonna love you?

Nobody's gonna love you if

You can't display a way to capture this

Nobody's gonna hold your hand

And guide you through

It's up for you to understand

Nobody's gonna feel your pain

When all is done

And it's time for you to walk away

When you have today

You should say all that you have to say

So when you have today

Say all that you have to say

This seems so cliché and obvious, but I feel like it truly sums up the life cycle of my dBPDxGF, my torment tring to love her, and the madness that will haunt me until my dying day because I still truly love her. I can't even listen to it.

Joy Division - She's Lost Control

"She's Lost Control"

Confusion in her eyes that says it all.

She's lost control.

And she's clinging to the nearest passer by,

She's lost control.

And she gave away the secrets of her past,

And said I've lost control again,

And of a voice that told her when and where to act,

She said I've lost control again.

And she turned around and took me by the hand

And said I've lost control again.

And how I'll never know just why or understand

She said I've lost control again.

And she screamed out kicking on her side

And said I've lost control again.

And seized up on the floor, I thought she'd die.

She said I've lost control.

She's lost control again.

She's lost control.

She's lost control again.

She's lost control.

Well I had to phone her friend to state my case,

And say she's lost control again.

And she showed up all the errors and mistakes,

And said I've lost control again.

But she expressed herself in many different ways,

Until she lost control again.

And walked upon the edge of no escape,

And laughed I've lost control.

She's lost control again.

She's lost control.

She's lost control again.

She's lost control.

I could live a little better with the myths and the lies,

When the darkness broke in, I just broke down and cried.

I could live a little in a wider line,

When the change is gone, when the urge is gone,

To lose control. When here we come.

She

May be the face I can't forget

The trace of pleasure or regret

May be my treasure or the price I have to pay

She

May be the song that summer sings

May be the chill that autumn brings

May be a hundred different things

Within the measure of a day

She

May be the beauty or the beast

May be the famine or the feast

May turn each day into a heaven or a hell

She may be the mirror of my dreams

The smile reflected in a stream

She may not be what she may seem

Inside her shell

She

Who always seems so happy in a crowd

Whose eyes can be so private and so proud

No one's allowed to see them when they cry

She

May be the love that cannot hope to last

May come to me from shadows of the past

That I'll remember till the day I die

She

May be the reason I survive

The why and wherefore I'm alive

The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years

Me

I'll take her laughter and her tears

And make them all my souvenirs

For where she goes I've got to be

The meaning of my life is

She

She, oh she

Nils Lofgren - Black Books (if you are Sopranos fan, you know this one :) )

One last time from Freddy's joint

We drove out to lover's point

Shared our last kiss eye to eye

Spoke of tender times long past

Said they weren't meant to last

Too many different dreams to satisfy

She wants

New shoulders to cry on

New backseats to lie on

And she always gets her way

She wants to see other guys

Get lost in other eyes

Baby's in the black books

Yes she's in the black books today

I've yet to find a dreary bar

Where whispers don't drift from afar

About her wild and wicked ways

The hardest truths don't have a why

Often true love will just die

And leave a grief to haunt

The lonely nights and days

She wants

New shoulders to cry on

New backseats to lie on

And she always gets her way

She wants to hurt other guys

Put tears in other eyes

Baby's in the black books

Yes she's in the black books today

She wants to hurt other guys

Put tears in other eyes

Baby's in the black books

Yes she's in the black books today

This about sums it up for my relationship.

TIM MCGRAW LYRICS

"Angry All The Time"

Here we are

What is left of a husband and a wife four good kids

Who have a way of gettin on with their lives

I'm not old but I'm getting a whole lot older every day

It's too late to keep from goin' crazy

I got to get away

The reasons that I can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love

And I understand that lovin a man shouldn't have to be this rough

You ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far behind

I don't know why you gotta be Angry All The Time

Our boys are strong the spittin image of you when you were young

I hope someday they can see past what you have become

I remember every time I said I'd never leave

What I can't live with is memories of the way you used to be

The reasons that I can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love

And I understand that lovin a man shouldn't have to be this rough

You ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far behind

I don't know why you gotta be Angry All The Time

Twenty years have came and went since I walked out of your door

I never quite made it back to the one I was before

And God it hurts me to think of you

For the light in your eyes was gone sometimes

I don't know why this old world can't leave well enough alone

The reasons that I can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love

And I understand that lovin a man shouldn't have to be this rough

You ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far behind

I don't know why you gotta be Angry All The Time

This song fits my relationship perfectly... .

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XPpTgCho5ZA

Maroon 5 - This Love

I was so high I did not recognize

The fire burning in her eyes

The chaos that controlled my mind

Whispered goodbye as she got on a plane

Never to return again

But always in my heart, oh!

This love has taken its toll on me

She said goodbye too many times before

And her heart is breaking in front of me

And I have no choice

Cause I won't say goodbye anymore

Whoa, oh, oh.

Whoa, oh, oh.

Whoa, oh, oh.

I tried my best to feed her appetite

Keep her coming every night

So hard to keep her satisfied, oh!

Kept playing love like it was just a game

Pretending to feel the same

Then turn around and leave again

But oh, ohh.

This love has taken its toll on me

She said goodbye too many times before

And her heart is breaking in front of me

And I have no choice

Cause I won't say goodbye anymore

Whoa, oh, oh.

Whoa, oh, oh.

Whoa, oh, oh.

Bridge:

I'll fix these broken things

Repair your broken wings

And make sure everything's alright

(It's alright, it's alright)

My pressure on your hips

Sinking my fingertips

Into every inch of you

Because I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me

She said goodbye too many times before

Her heart is breaking in front of me

And I have no choice

Cause I won't say goodbye anymore

This love has taken its toll on me

She said goodbye too many times before

And my heart is breaking in front of me

And she said goodbye too many times before

This love has taken its toll on me

She said goodbye too many times before

Her heart is breaking in front of me

And I have no choice

Cause I won't say goodbye anymore

"One Thing Leads To Another" The Fixx.

Just what are you trying to say

You've got a blank face, which irritates

Communicate, pull out your party piece

You see dimensions in two

State your case with black or white

But when one little cross

Leads to shots, grit your teeth

You run for cover so discreet

Why don't they

Do what they say

Say what you mean

One thing leads to another

You told me something wrong

I know I listen too long

But then one thing leads to another

The impression that you sell

Passes in and out like a scent

But the long face that you see

Comes from living close to your fears

If this is up, then I'm up

But you're running out of sight

You've seen your name on the walls

And when one little bump

Leads to shock miss a beat

You run for cover and there's heat

Why don't they

Do what they say

Say what they mean

One thing leads to another

You told me something wrong

I know I listen too long

But then one thing leads to another

One thing leads to another

Then it's easy to believe

Somebody's been lying to me

But when the wrong word

Goes in the right ear

I know you've been lying to me

It's getting rough, off the cuff

I've got to say enough's enough

Bigger the harder, he falls

But when the wrong antidote

Is like a bulge on the throat

You run for cover in the heat

Why don't they

Do what they say

Say what they mean

One thing leads to another

You told me something wrong

I know I listen too long

But then one thing leads to another

One thing leads to another

Def Leppard - Scar

How can I know
How can I see it through your eyes
Now you know
All those promises were lies

You close your eyes
You close your mind
To all you lost
I count the days
I count the ways
I count the cost

All that you are, no conscience
All you believe, no crime
All that you take, no reason
All that you leave, no rhyme
All that you lose, no sorrow
All that you find, no shame
Can't take away the scar you left behind

How do you cry
When you've run right out of tears
You justify
But the pain won't disappear

I count the days
I count the ways
I count the cost

All that you are, no conscience
All you believe, no crime
All that you take, no reason
All that you leave, no rhyme
All that you lose, no sorrow
All that you find, no shame
Can't take away the scar you left

You close your eyes
You close your mind
To all you lost
I count the days
I count the ways
I count the cost

All that you are, no conscience
All you believe, no crime
All that you take, no reason
All that you leave, no rhyme
All that you lose, no sorrow
All that you find, no shame
Can't take away the scar you left behind

i heard this a few years after we broke up and it made me tear up :). title is a little bit melodramatic.

"Beautiful Pain" - eminem

I can feel the heat risin'
Everything is on fire
Today is a painful reminder
Of why it can only get brighter
The further you put it behind ya
But right now I'm on the inside
Lookin' out, ‘cause…

I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light
I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light

Yesterday was the tornado warning
Today's like the morning after; your world is torn in half
You wake in its wake to start the mourning process
And rebuilding, you're still a work in progress
Today's a whole new chapter
It's like an enormous ass
Thunderstorm has passed ya
You weathered it and poked its eye out
With the thorn bush that you used to smell the roses
Stopped to inhale, can't even tell your nose is
Stuffed, so focused on the bright side
Then you floor the gas pedal
And hit the corner fast, more assertive
Never looking back, may hit the curb
But every day is a new learning curve
As you steer through life
Sometimes you might not wanna swerve, but you have to
To avert the disaster; lucky no permanent damage
‘Cause they hurt you so bad
It's like they murdered your ass, and threw dirt on your casket
But you've returned from the ashes
And that hurt that you have, you just converted to gasoline
And while you're burning the past
Standing in the inferno and chant…

I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light
I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light

You're so familiarized
With what having to swallow this pill is like
It happens all the time, they take your heart and steal your life
And it's as though you feel you've died
‘Cause you've been killed inside
But yet you're still alive, which means you will survive
Although today you may weep, ‘cause you're weakened
And everything seems so bleak and
Hopeless, the light that you're seekin'
It begins to seep in; that's the only thing keepin'
You from leapin' off the mothafreakin' deep end
And I'm pullin' for you to push through this feeling
And with a little time that should do the healing
And by tomorrow you may even feel so good
That you're willing to forgive 'em
Even after all the **** you been put through, this feeling
Of resilience is building, and the flames are burning
Quick as fire wood through this building
You're sealed in, but you're fireproof
Flame retardant, you withstood it
And as you climb up to the roof, you're just chillin'
You look down, ‘cause you're so over 'em
You could put the heel of your foot through the ceiling

As time passes, things change every day
But wounds, wounds heal
But scars still remain the same
But tomorrow, today's going down in flames
Throw the match, set the past ablaze

So feel the fire beneath your feet
As you barely even perspire from the heat
Exhale deep and breathe a sigh of relief
And as you say goodbye to the grief
It's like watching the walls melt in your prison cell
But you've extinguished this livin' hell
Still a little piece of you dies as you scream…

I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light
I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light

I feel the burn, watch the smoke as I turn
Rising, a phoenix from the flames
I have learned from fighting fights that weren't mine
Not with fists, but with wings that I will fly

And I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light
I'm standin' in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin' fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light

When i played this "Queen" song my wife started to cry immediatly, i had to turn it of after the first sentence.

Just one year of love, is better than a lifetime alone
One sentimental moment in your arms,
is lika a shooting star right trough my heart.
Its always a rainy day without you.
I'm a prisoner of love inside you,
and i'm falling apart, all around you.
Yeah.

My heart cries out to your heart
I'm lonely but you can save me
My hand reaches out for your hand
I'm cold but you light the fire in me
My lips search for your lips
I'm hungry for your touch and,
there's so much left unspoken
Well baby all I can do is surrender to the moment, just surrender.

And no one ever told me that love would hurt so much
and pain is so close to pleasure
Well baby all I can do is surrender to your love,
just surrender

Just one year of love, is better than a lifetime alone... . And all I can do is surrender to you.

I also have this one by social distortion- i was wrong

Lyrics
When I was young, I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world, I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone, so insecure, I blamed you instead and made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say

I was wrong, self destruction's got me again
I was wrong, I realized now that I was wrong
And I think about my loves, well I've had a few
I'm sorry that I hurt them, did I hurt you too
I took what I wanted, put my heart on the shelf
How can ya love me when you don't love yourself

It was me against the world, I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say

I was wrong, self destruction's got me again
I was wrong, I realized now that I was wrong
And I think about my loves, well I've had a few
I'm sorry that I hurt them, did I hurt you too
I took what I wanted, put my heart on the shelf
How can ya love me when you don't love yourself

I grew up fast, I grew up hard
something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody, I was fighting everything
but the only one that I hurt was me
I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone's bad luck last so long
until I realized that I was wrong

I was wrong, self destruction's got me again
I was wrong, I realized now that I was wrong
And I think about my loves, well I've had a few
I'm sorry that I hurt them, did I hurt you too
I took what I wanted, put my heart on the shelf
How can ya love me when you don't love yourself

Definitely Fake Plastic Trees like others as far as the melancholy side of it. As for the visceral pain, Best of You from Foo Fighters and Dead Inside from Muse.

Revere a million prayers
And draw me into your holiness
But there's nothing there
Light only shines from those who share

Unleash a million drones
And confine me then erase me babe
Do you have no soul
It's like it died long ago

Your lips feel warm to the touch
You can bring me back to life
On the outside you're ablaze and alive
But you're dead inside

You're free to touch the sky
Whilst I am crushed and pulverised
Because you need control
Now I'm the one who's letting go

You like to give an inch
Whilst I am giving infinity
But now I've got nothing left
You have no cares and I'm bereft

Your skin feels warm to caress
I see magic in your eyes
On the outside you're ablaze and alive
But you're dead inside!

Feel me now
Hold me please
I need you to see who I am
Open up to me
Stop hiding from me
It's hurting babe
Only you can stop the pain

Don't leave me out in the cold
Don't leave me out to die
I gave you everything
I can't give you anymore
Now I've become just like you

My lips feel warm to the touch
My words seem so alive
My skin is warm to caress
I'll control and hypnotise

You've taught me to lie
Without a trace
And to kill with no remorse
On the outside I'm the greatest guy
Now I'm dead inside!

X ambassadors-Litost

What have I done
With my heart on the floor
I must be out of my mind
To come back begging for more
But if you stay
If you just stay for the night
Swear that I'm yours
And I'll prove that I'm right
And these flies kept me sleeping
All my fears on their wings
And your grandfather clock is still ticking
But the chime never rings
And how long must I stay
Will I lay by your side
Just to say that I'm yours
And you'll never be mine

With this love like a hole
Swallowed my soul
Dragging me down
And there's blood on the covers
From the curses we uttered
To each other
You played your part in this

Why play hide-and-go-seek
Safe behind your veneer
Does it bury your burden baby
Makes it all dissapear
And those marks on your thighs
Don't they sting when you bleed
It's the way that you are
And the way I'll forever be

With this love like a hole
Swallowed my soul
Dragging me down
And there's blood on the covers
From the curses we uttered
To each other
You played your part
With this love like a hole
Swallowed my soul
Dragging me down
And I swear I'll stay with you
But I just can't forgive you
And I'll never be whole again

Someone mentioned Let her go by Passenger and that's a good one.

Another is a rock song titled Move On by devour the day. I think the singer is singing about leaving his wife with a substance abuse problem.

And I recently heard a creepy song called Stay by the metal band Cradle of Filth, which is a (better) cover of the song done by Shakespeare Sister. If you watch the Shakespeare Sister video, I think one singer is pleading with her lover to not die ("stay" while the other singer is trying to lure the lover to his death (his "own world". You could replace the dying lover with your BPDex who is on the verge of an episode.

"Move On"

I will never reason with myself in your defense
Or try to see your twisted point of view
The jury and the judge already let the gavel fall
Court is out, there’s nothing I can do

And it is not a question of belief on your behalf
I think it is your will that breeds the doubt
And like a wound that never heals, infected from within
I won’t survive if I don’t bleed you out

You wear me out and hold me back
I don’t wanna be tied down
I’m not done fighting yet
I know I gotta move on, move on
No, I’m not done fighting yet

Careful chords and metaphors can make a person care
The intervention I was praying for
Regardless of some clever words I write in my despair
I know that you’re not listening anymore

You wear me out and hold me back
I don’t wanna be tied down
I’m not done fighting yet
I know I gotta move on, move on
No, I’m not done fighting yet

I won’t let myself forget
All the f***ed up things you did

You wear me out and hold me back
I don’t wanna live that way
And I don’t wanna be like that
I know I gotta move on, move on
No, I’m not done fighting yet

No, I’m done fighting
I’m not done fighting yet

"Stay"

If this world is growing thin
And you're thinking of escape
I'll go anywhere with you
Just wrap me up in chains
But if you try to go alone
Don't think I'll understand

Stay with me
In the silence of your room
In the darkness of your dreams
You must only think of me
There can be no in between
When your pride is on the floor
I'll make you beg for more
Oh oh oh

Stay with me
You better hope and pray
That you make it safe back
To your own world
You better hope and pray
That you wake one day
In your own world
Cause when you sleep at night
They don't hear your cries
In your own world
Only time will tell
If you can break the spell back
In your own world

Ah
Stay with me
Stay with me
Stay
Stay with me
Ah
Stay Stay Stay
Stay with me

Brilliant Disguise
Bruce Springsteen
Lyrics
I hold you in my arms
As the band plays
What are those words whispered baby
Just as you turn away
I saw you last night
Out on the edge of town
I want to read your mind
To know just what I've got in this new thing I've found
So tell me what I see
When I look in your eyes
Is that you baby
Or just a brilliant disguise
I heard somebody call your name
From underneath our willow
I saw something tucked in shame
Underneath your pillow
Well I've tried so hard baby
But I just can't see
What a woman like you
Is doing with me
So tell me who I see
When I look in your eyes
Is that you baby
Or just a brilliant disguise
Now look at me baby
Struggling to do everything right
And then it all falls apart
When out go the lights
I'm just a lonely pilgrim
I walk this world in wealth
I want to know if it's you I don't trust
'Cause I damn sure don't trust myself
Now you play the loving woman
I'll play the faithful man
But just don't look too close
Into the palm of my hand
We stood at the alter
The gypsy swore our future was right
But come the wee wee hours
Well maybe baby the gypsy lied
So when you look at me
You better look hard and look twice
Is that me baby
Or just a brilliant disguise
Tonight our bed is cold
Lost in the darkness of our love
God have mercy on the man
Who doubts what he's sure of
Songwriters: Bruce Springsteen

Femme Fatale
The Velvet Underground

Here she comes, you better watch your step
She's going to break your heart in two,
It's true It's not hard to realize
Just look into her false colored eyes
She builds you up to just put you down, what a clown

'Cause everybody knows (She's a femme fatale)
The things she does to please (She's a femme fatale)
She's just a little tease (She's a femme fatale)

See the way she walks
Hear the way she talks

You're put down in her book
You're number thirty seven, have a look
She's going to smile to make you frown, what a clown
Little boy, she's from the street
Before you start, you're already beat
She's gonna play you for a fool, yes it's true

'Cause everybody knows (She's a femme fatale)
The things she does to please (She's a femme fatale)
She's just a little tease (She's a femme fatale)

See the way she walks
Hear the way she talks

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Relationship Partner with BPD (Straight and LGBT+) => Romantic Relationship | Detaching and Learning after a Failed Relationship => Topic started by: abq1980 on December 02, 2015, 02:46:03 PM