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Title: I wrote a poem for BPD children Post by: Lalasalad on December 18, 2015, 06:57:14 PM A poem to BPD mothers from their Children. I hope it helps someone in some way
I used to be your angel, I was your shining star, I knew it for you never let me very far. I thought you loved me deeply, I thought I was your life, I was the only one there for you when you went through so much strife I watch the world be cruel to you, I tried to hold your hand My heart was always aching, I tried to be your man. I wanted someone there for you; for until then I couldn't leave. But the truth was with or without you I felt I couldn't breathe. How could I be my own person when my thoughts were so shut down I was trained to think like you, for free-thinkers surely drown. I walked in the dark, I'd trip on a fuse I created my own downfall, I was told to my bemuse I just wanted to please you, to love and be loved, so i held you as you cried in a half hearted hug. So now I'm alone and you speak ill of me. I hurt less now, because you leave me be. No mother around, just broken memories, but now I know that it's typical of all BPD's. Title: Re: I wrote a poem for BPD children Post by: Eyeamme on December 18, 2015, 09:57:31 PM I can totally relate. Thank you.
Title: Re: I wrote a poem for BPD children Post by: Kwamina on December 19, 2015, 01:51:36 PM Hi Lalasalad,
Thanks for sharing this heartfelt poem with us. I can relate to many aspects of what you've written here. I hope that in your solitude you will be able to be your own shining star. Just like you are shining a light for other children of BPD parents with this poem. Be your own angel Title: Re: I wrote a poem for BPD children Post by: Sunfl0wer on December 19, 2015, 01:59:47 PM Thank you for sharing and expressing what many of us feel!
I relate greatly to the pain of simply wanting to be loved, yet offering myself for support and love, to not feel it returned. Title: Re: I wrote a poem for BPD children Post by: chayka on December 19, 2015, 04:06:22 PM I totally get this! Thanks for sharing it with us.
It's all so painful, but I've found it has become easier to deal with now that I know about BPD. Once I realized I couldn't fix my mum, I was able to start fixing myself. I hope your future will be so much better than your past! Chayka Title: Re: I wrote a poem for BPD children Post by: Ziggiddy on December 19, 2015, 11:12:16 PM Hand on heat, Lalasalad. That moved me. Completely relatable
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