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My Love,

There are so many things we could talk about, but whenever I see your face,

everything just seems alright again, with nothing to talk about, as if we're

back in this one eternal magic moment, where nothing matters, where there is

only you and me and these strangely beautiful things happening around us - and I

do think we still are in that moment, even though we managed to attract and

introduce some chaos into it, lately.

On the way to the subway I asked myself what I miss about us, is it the

closeness, the warmth, our hugs and kisses? Is it your company, us acting as a

team, as a couple? Is it knowing we belong together, having such a special

friend, somebody who'll stick around, no matter what? Do I miss the look in your

eyes, reminding me of our bond?

I realize that I don't need you around me every second, day and night. I'm

living my own life, as I always have, but now I feel your presence all the time.

Sometimes it relaxes me, giving me a soft warm glow inside, a glow of loving and

being loved, telling me that everything is alright.

Sometimes then, I miss you.

I asked myself why I miss you this much, why is this feeling so strong? The

magic is extreme whenever we're together, back then and even now. I know you

feel the same way, maybe this makes it so extraordinary.

For a second then I thought, I can't be missing you this much when I'm getting

along just fine, when we are both free and what is a connection of souls

transcending space and time good for when you're stuck onto each other

physically anyways?

The further you are away, the closer to you I feel, the more I feel you.

This is our bond. Knowing that we have to be free to fully experience our

connection, our bond. It is not only longing, craving, missing you, it is love.

I love you with all my mind and heart and soul, in all your freedom, in all my

freedom. I trust you, I believe in you.

No big deal, I thought, it's all good.

But then I was overwhelmed by the intensity of that feeling, of our connection,

of loving you. It is coming over me in waves, starting from my chest, shaking

bursting through my whole body and then out into the world, turning everything

into that vibrant colorful magic dream, this moment of beauty I didn't know

existed before I met you.

I still think of you a lot. I still see all those memories so clearly, they are

so real and present, and I wonder if you sometimes feel the same way.

I still love you very much and always will.

We can't go back in time to what we were. But then it seems the magic never

stopped, so we wouldn't have to go anywhere. Some day soon I hope, we can look

in each others eyes, and with a blink, with a shrug, with a tear and a smile,

shake off all that has come in between us and just continue on this magic ride.

Do you remember how we tried to stop time in some of those wonderful moments?

I think it worked.


Yours,

xxx

Beautiful!