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So we got into a discussion about her mood lately (which she makes seem like it's unusual to be in a mood and there's a good reason for it) and she told me she was really stressed lately because of something she did. And I just looked at her with that look like "what the heck did she do now... .". She starts off with "please don't be mad at me" and then tells me how she gave an adderall to a friend who was "having a hard time". Now apparently her friend is addicted and she is constantly giving her pills to her friend. She even told me that she had her prescription altered so that she could share more without having to have less for herself. Now I don't know how much of that is true but it doesn't surprise me one bit. I told her she needs to stop sharing immediately and she said she can't because then her friend will be in withdrawal. I said "tough sh**". I don't mean to sound insulting but I just can't believe how stupid she is... .

On a side note, dealing with her in this relationship and trying to figure out how to make the breakup happen feels like a bad version of basic training with no reward.

I take adderall.  It is a drug that is in and out of ones system quickly.  There is no half life.  There is no withdrawl.

I can simply stop taking today.

The only affect I will have is that I will not be able to focus and I will be lethargic.

This is not an affect of withdrawl, it is my normal self.

Soo... .now you've got me thinking... .she knows I've never taken adderall in my life (or any drug besides alcohol), so I don't know anything about the withdrawals... .Do you think she's spinning a web to get me distracted or distraught or something? Man, now I am confused... .Maybe she's misinformed about it?

Well, if someone is abusing the med there is the potential to be psychologically addicted.  However, still, there is no physical withdrawal like with alcohol.  There is no safety issue with stopping.

It sounds like she is creating a drama to pull you in. 

You are posting in detaching.  I am not familiar with your story.  Are you trying to break free from this relationship and detach to not feel so entangled in her life and emotions?

It sounds like you are conflicted?

(As mostly all of us are)

Yes, I'm definitely trying to break up. This was just a recent issue that was on my mind. I'm not so much conflicted with the idea of breaking up, just struggling with committing to actually doing it. I feel like I'm abandoning my responsibility and I've been raised to be a very responsible person... .And this was just another issue to bring stress to my plate

What responsibility of yours are you abandoning?