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Last night he took a cheap shot at me again, via text. I was ok, it was nowhere near his ‘best’.  I shrugged it off and got on with packing as I’m moving to a new place tomorrow. It represents a new start. I’ve been in such deep depression which gradually overtook me since I met him 2.5 years ago. It’s been loss after loss after loss and my life is quite ruined, as is my sense of self-worth. This morning surrounded by all my life packed up in boxes I’m crying. I’m crying because his text did affect me. He knows I’m leaving and I wanted him to come back not heap more pain on me. I’m sorry if I sound crazy, but I need to get this out. I AM a good person, a loyal, kind, loving person who tried to love someone who tore me to pieces. I take responsibility for sacrificing myself like this, but I just wanted someone to love and to love me. What was wrong with that?

You are a good person. You deserve happiness.

Larmoyant

 

Nothing is wrong with that. It's what we all want... .so sorry for you. I have been there too. You are doing the right thing as painful as it is... .I will just tell you to grieve as much as you need to up front. Don't hide it and don't think you should't be grieving over someone who was so mean to you. You were in love and suffered a loss. I put it off an tried to act strong... .I am just getting around to all the tears. I wish I would have done it sooner... .Go ahead and feel sad. I hope you have some peace in your new place. I know I have. Find your friends and family for support. Take care 

Hugs!  You are a good loving person. Sometimes I feel like your ex and mine have a lot of similarities. You aren't crazy. I miss mine too. I would have been much more likely to recycle and stay longer if it weren't for your sharing. Thank you.