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Title: Yay me Post by: atomic popsicles on June 11, 2016, 03:22:07 PM This is silly, I know, but I am so proud of me!
Wednesday my husband destroyed my kids' rooms. 9 holes in walls. I FIXED THEM! EVEN THE CEILING! Luckily, for the past 7 hours I have been angry and not sad. Title: Re: Yay me Post by: C.Stein on June 11, 2016, 03:53:49 PM I hope you didn't patch one of the holes with his head. :)
Title: Re: Yay me Post by: atomic popsicles on June 11, 2016, 05:06:39 PM Ha ha!:-)
Haven't seen him since, go to court Monday for 1 year restraining order. I'm a little sad now. Time of day maybe? Title: Re: Yay me Post by: gotbushels on June 11, 2016, 08:43:11 PM Nice one atomic popsicles:)
Haha angry or sad it will move along and you can enjoy the protection of the restraining order:) Title: Re: Yay me Post by: sflearnignbpd on June 11, 2016, 11:07:59 PM Great job!
I still have a broken window, a few holes, wine on the ceiling, and other things to fix. I need to take care of it tomorrow. :) Title: Re: Yay me Post by: heartandwhole on June 12, 2016, 02:17:10 AM This is silly, I know, but I am so proud of me! Wednesday my husband destroyed my kids' rooms. 9 holes in walls. I FIXED THEM! EVEN THE CEILING! Luckily, for the past 7 hours I have been angry and not sad. I don't think it's silly at all. See how capable you are? Go atomic! |iiii Let this be a symbol of how your healing will go. Title: Re: Yay me Post by: Hopeful83 on June 12, 2016, 07:04:33 AM Great stuff! Well done! Isn't taking power back wonderful? |iiii
Title: Re: Yay me Post by: flourdust on June 12, 2016, 07:33:35 AM That's awesome! I bet the kids are happy about that.
Title: Re: Yay me Post by: atomic popsicles on June 12, 2016, 08:30:32 PM I'm not so yay me now. I saw him. I caved and took some clothes to his mom's and he was there. I cried like a baby and was pathetically glad he was still wearing his ring. HOW CAN I LOVE SOMEONE WHO DID THIS? It's not like I can let him back, and I'm trying to reason with him.
And even more pathetic... .I actually wrote him and told him to get inpatient, get therapy, get clean and we can take it slow and see. What is WRONG with me? I miss the person he was so much, BPD and all. I am not sure how to go on. To top it all off, he freaked and left/had to leave and where is he? Broke and on the streets or in a shelter. I don't want this. I want to turn back time. I have to get it together. Title: Re: Yay me Post by: gotbushels on June 12, 2016, 08:54:59 PM It's okay to feel like wanting to "cave" atomic popsicles. I've been there:)
The acknowledgment step can still occur in stages 3, 4 and 5, so it's OK:) Try to avoid putting yourself in those situations. Something that might help you is set up one or two relaxing alternatives for yourself when you feel this thought or feeling come to you. These actions will help when you if you can't mentally coax them from your body. You can do it. Seek strength:) |