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Yesterday brother tried to get BPD ex husband committed. To my knowledge, the police never picked him up. After the huge scuffle with his brother, he called me and left a message saying he would sign anything I wanted him to today at any time. He called twice more with no message.

This morning he called and I picked up- I was asleep. He wanted to know what time we should meet. I saw the attorney after and realized that I can't afford a separation right now. I've spent all morning figuring out how to keep the house.

I am so mad at myself because all I want to do is call him and talk to him. I want him to be nice and say he is sorry and he loves me. Now isn't that stupid? It isn't going to happen, for starters, but I'm back to mourning the loss of him.

I am sure the niceness is because he slept on a floor or shelter last night, and he wants his property at my house. I just hate it turned out this way and it is over. OVER. I have 6 years in and worse financially than I was before... .and that wasn't good. All it took was his voice and I am back to rejected, abandoned, heartbroken, and devastated. I can't get the images of our time together out of my mind.

And to make matters worse, he isn't mourning me. He's mourning the love he lost with "Patty", who he believes is Prince but actually a woman that he fictionally had a child with. Oh, and Madonna, who he knew as Donna, and met on a military base and fathered all her children. AND I found a draft of an email he sent to the Texas Rangers accusing me and my best friend of abducting my three children... .3 years before the oldest was born.

Somebody, tell me to get over this! Then tell me how!

Radical Acceptance (https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=89910.0)

You simply accept he is who he is ... .all of it.  You cannot change it and you don't need to make sense of it.  He is just being him.