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Title: Found old journal Post by: WhoMe51 on June 19, 2016, 10:39:11 AM I was going through some things and I found a journal. It was dated June 2014. I found today's date and read what I wrote on that day.
"I never know what to do? I never get told that she appreciates anything that I do for her. She just keeps telling me I'm not meeting her needs. I ask her what she wants me to do and its always the things I'm already doing or have done. I don't understand and it's so confusing. She's never happy with anything I do. She wants me to show her passion and romance when all she does is tear me down. She also says that if she has to tell me how to meet her needs then it's not coming from my heart and it's fake." I sure don't miss those days. We were together for almost 6 years. And this became her behavior every other weekend. She would push me away by telling me this every other weekend. And then she would come back around like nothing happened ever happened. And I would be so glad to have her back that I wouldn't say anything about it. It's been two plus months of no contact. It's been tough but reading things like this help me to stay no contact Title: Re: Found old journal Post by: JerryRG on June 19, 2016, 03:04:16 PM Hello WhoMe51
I was deleting old pictures of my exgf on my computer and ran across something I sent in a text early on in our relationship. Basically explaining "I'm not God", "I cannot fix you or your problems with BPD" I knew this from day one, she was in DBT before I met her and stopped the therapy. If I spent 1% of my energy I spent on saving her from her and put that into myself I would be the happiest most successful man I know. Opps, I am happy and content, or as we say in AA... .lol "Happy, joyous and free!" Probably drives her nuts I am happy but that's because I am loving myself the way I need to keep people like her on the other side of my boundery. She's still the same miserable person she was the day we met. Title: Re: Found old journal Post by: Naughty Nibbler on June 19, 2016, 04:24:42 PM HEY WhoMe51:
Quote from: WhoMe51 I was going through some things and I found a journal. It was dated June 2014. I found today's date and read what I wrote on that day. . . . It's been two plus months of no contact. It's been tough but reading things like this help me to stay no contact GOOD JOB! Journaling can be very beneficial. It can be easy to forget and minimize things down the road, so reinforcement is a good strategy. Sometimes, when I go back and read something I wrote to vent my frustration, I have to ask myself, "did I write that?" Sometimes, I write things out in a letter form (never mail via US mail), or email draft (never send & don't enter email address, as don't want to hit "send" in error). Keep up the good work, you got this! |iiii |