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Title: Venting Post by: naguma on June 29, 2016, 05:54:14 AM I think they do... .but in a different way than us... .the real regret comes along with realizing our mistakes... .to them... .regret means trying to get back to drain a previous host as much as they can coz they failed to destroy him/her in the previous encounters This. Haven't been on the forums here in a while. Been moving on with life. However, the ex recently reached out. There is a restraining order she placed, but yeah that means nothing apparently. Venting about that, no real reason for this post other then that. She sent a list of songs and albums, that together basically create a narrative. First, she was stupid.(suppose this is an apology of sorts) - 3 songs with this basic theme Second, why am I doing ok with this when she is in so much pain (Guess if I loved her I would be in more pain, she doesn't see the irony considering how she acted after the break up) - an album which seems to follow this theme, though haven't listened to it Third, she was blinded by the guys money (somehow her leaving me for the promise of financial gain is suppose to make everything better?) - again three songs Fourth, that song "See you Again". (assume that means after the restraining order is up... .) Fifth, she is now ready to marry me (7 years engaged prior to the break up). - 2 songs Interestingly, this all came roughly 2 weeks after I started using social media again(had thought it would be safe now). The only friends I have online are family and childhood friends. Posted a few things to update them on the rebuilding process. Essentially, accomplished a few things that had been put off for the last 12~ years. Anyways, every time she reaches out it hurts. 8 months NC and don't plan to stop, over a year since the break up. Not much point to this post, except misery loves company and a group of people that can relate is always nice. Thanks for letting me take up space for my selfish needs. Feel slightly better now :) Title: Re: Venting Post by: Larmoyant on June 29, 2016, 06:02:43 AM I think they do... .but in a different way than us... .the real regret comes along with realizing our mistakes... .to them... .regret means trying to get back to drain a previous host as much as they can coz they failed to destroy him/her in the previous encounters This. Anyways, every time she reaches out to me it hurts. 8 months NC and don't plan to stop, over a year since the break up. Not much point to this post, except misery loves company and a group of people that can relate is always nice. Thanks for letting me take up space for my selfish needs. Feel slightly better now :) naguma, not selfish needs at all and I'm glad you posted the comment by StillInShock. I'm going to print it out. I feel like venting right now because I feel more angry than I ever have throughout this whole almost 6 month torturous breakup. Where is all the anger been hiding! Keep moving forwards naguma. You sound like you're in a good, good place which gives me hope that one day I will be too. |