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But we can do it! Anyone else white knuckling it through today? Let's do it together!

Yea I'm with you. Been fighting feelings of sadness and loneliness all week but it's a waiting game. Trying to work on being ok with not having someone to talk to constantly and just enjoy all that I have, fakin it til I make it

Yeah, me too, Saturday's we visited antique fairs and shops or bought nice food and watched tv. My longing for this is tangible and sadness huge. But it's another day nearly past, another day closer to healing, ahh cr*p, so it may be but am not even convincing myself right now, sorry guys   xx

You sound like my insides.  But come next week life is going to change for my drastically.  Therapy begins with the bestest therapist in the whoole world. yay! I love her.  She's wonderful. |iiii

Yay, well done you and so so good luck with it. Not that great in uk for therapy stuff but I have got a number to call. Love and huge   xx

Yes, faking it till we make it! Over here it is 1:30 already-- only about 9 more hours to go!

So far I've cleaned the house, taken the kids to the library, written some stuff for my book, and had breakfast. Next up is to go swimming and maybe paddleboarding, and enjoy the sunshine! Thank goodness it is summer and not winter!

Story of my life.  Walk around smiling. Go to the office and go on about my regular day.  Listen to others problems. try to help others, all the while wanting to tell someone how I feel inside.  If i did find someone with whom I was comfortable enough discussing my personal problems with, I probably would sugar coat my feelings to make me sound brave.

"faking it til I make it" STORY OF MY LIFE. 

7pm here so only 5 hours to go, bugger of it is our Sunday's used to be just like our Saturdays.   :) oh well, only 29 hours to go  :) xx

I've been following some of your posts kc,seems we both broke up/got dumped by ours around the same time, it's almost 3 here and I still haven't even gotten dressed for the day lol,I've been working on self esteem but have just been bumming around for most this week as its my vacation time,I want to start excercising and clean up some but I'm battling cutting back on the smokes that ive been doing overtime on as its more so something to do then an addiction,I'm at a wierd place I guess I'm starting to believe she won't try anymore reconciles or charms,not really sure where I'm at in the recovery process.

I can so relate, thank you for this post. Sadder day is right! This is always the hardest day of the week for me too.

Staying busy, going to the gym, going to write and do chores. And shop and such.

   for the Sadder day crowd

Was starting to have a nice weekend, dinner with friends etc... .then when I was at grocery store for some strange reason I went on Facebook and my ex, who I'm still friends with (I thought) had a pic of him and his lady friend (my replacement)in Florence, Italy with the words"what an incredible place, finding such peace and happiness here".

I used to talk about taking him to Italy (lived there when I was younger) and showing him Florence, one of my favorite places on earth. He had never been to Europe. Told him how much he'd love it and he said "If I was with you I would". Never came to fruition of course. I couldn't afford it for both of us, he barely had money for rent.

Back to square one.
I'm crying in the middle of grocery store, feeling idiotic and embarrassed. Leave.

Lying on sofa still crying. A friend called and I told her about it. She can't understand why I'm not "happy that he is happy". So apparently on top of it I'm a selfish person.

You are so not selfish you poor thing, how horrid for you. What a nasty thing to find out. Damn Facebook, I hate it.
Feel sorry for his new partner, she doesn't know what she's got coming to her yet, and she probably paid for the holiday.   xx

Oh man, I'm so so sorry. Facebook is THE worst! It is the next worse thing to contacting them in terms of pain. I've been on it on and off all day and it definitely has made things worse and not better in terms of healing. Can you unfollow him? I'm so sorry that happened-- that would break my heart too. I have a hard enough time when I see my replacement liking all my ex's texts. Oh and her profile pic is of her and my other replacement (there's two in play). Ugh.

Yeah, Facebook can be the devil. The replacement Im sure is on the "what can I do for him so he wont abandon me again" phase of the relationship. I believe his only source of income is being on her payroll part time and she is wealthy.  Perhaps it isnt as romantic as I expect... .doesnt matter anyway.
 So, of course, I ended up "un-blocking" her fb page and on the same day as his post she posted a picture of an Italian church saying something like "missing my dad today (he died a few years ago), he showed me what a good man was like". So of course Im trying to analyze that... .hmmmm.
Deactivated my account for the week.

I agree about the weekend. In summer I'm off on Fridays, too... .it stretches out before me so long. I just try to make it to a reasonable time to go to bed.