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I'm emotional hurt, alone and feels betrayed. 31 weeks pregnant lives with my partner and our daughter that he absolutely adores but me completely ignored 24/7 never engage with me or show any interest for our unborn baby. When I try and reach out to him he runs or quickly tries to make me mad to stay away. He doesn't care that we don't have anything for baby yet and will never ask me how I feel about it. Instead he up and down in and out of house on his own time doing his own thing. I never know what's going on in his world and it has always been like this. When ever his in a room with friend and familybhis the joker the one who lightens up everyone's night and as soon as I walk in then his all quiet. Makes me always feel that he wants me the idea of me being there but not seen with me or. He never ever took me out on a date never we have been together five years. He does not make plans with me to ever. When ever his girl friends come over he jumps for them and runs for them and have long happy communication with them but as soon as I try to get some of that attention he tell me wait or what do you want now and will insult me in front of them. I will always choose to rather be by myself when they have gatherings to spare myself the emotional embarrassing abuse in front of them. I feel so lonely and I feel that I'm a hard worker a good mom give my children the best I pay for everything and has bought for baby so far. He does nothing with his money to help us instead he would stay for days out of work weekly and not care about what we live on. When ever he have free time from his friends he will only spend it on the net work or Facebook and whenever I take my devices from him history and task bar is always cleared. His a complete closed book and I know nothing about him, his interest or his life. I am the total opposite again and love to talk to him but he would tell me wait man why you wanna talk about now or he would get up from next to me and say I don't have time for this.

I am sorry to hear your circumstance.  I remember my pregnancies and all of the precious time leading up to the birth. It is such a shame you are missing out on the pampering stage before baby.

Do you think your SO would be open to counselling?  You can definitely begin educating yourself with the lessons / tools provided on this site, which may give you a bit of an understanding and help you in communicating with him more effectively. 

I can't believe he's never taken you on a proper date.  Why not ask him out, maybe to a new restaurant for dinner, theater, something and see if you can start building from there.  Life is too short to be lonely and sad - something has to change.