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Hi everyone

I have been making threads here and there to try to reach out and to
Find support in each topic iguess...
But i really need to slow things down (in my mind) and really center the big picture.
This isn't easy but in many ways the bottom has been reached so from here the only way is up...

If i dont make sense then it's just me trying to find sense in this
World of nonsense...

As we all are, Bushido! What in particular makes you say just now that the bottom has been reached? Is there something specific that is looking like nonsense today?

let´s just say that i have no idea how i made it thru the finance CRASH she left me in when she just walked out and didn´t pay anything. . . of that should be called " ours".
Even my contact at the bank does not understands how i did this... .

all i can say... .
Every cell in my body makes me do what i have to do... .for my kids!

i may have been left in ruins ... .in as many ways i can think of.
But somehow... .the system upgrades itself and makes me do what needs to be done!

one day at a time...

there is just so much more going on then i have yet put to words...
like the fact that the rest of this year. . . we will share the apartment  . .
as in ... .he who has the kids ... .stays " home "

or as i say... .this is my kids home!
and all she does is try to destroy that!

so yeahh... .i´m still cleaning up the mess she can´t handle and makes herself btw...
and i do it for the time being... .for my kids.

and yes... .social service is involved... .and they know everything!
even if miss BPD doesn´t know that they know...

so one can ask. . . what is real ?
and i play many different roles in this game... .

so here i am . . doing everything i can to keep things as "real" as i can
until the divorce is finished and the apartment is ALL mine!
then miss allithinkaboutismyself!  can do what the f... .she wants and move
to mr.newtoy in farfarawaywille.

and this isn´t the whole story ... it´s just what i can reach in my mind right know.
and like i said . . . there isn´t much space to live a normal life in this waiting game...