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Title: I need to review.. . Post by: James509 on November 09, 2016, 08:48:26 PM I am now ready to completely be involved in my own recovery of moving on the and remaining NC. Please help.
Title: Re: I need to review.. . Post by: James509 on November 09, 2016, 08:54:51 PM I have relapased a total of three times realizing now that each time I held dishonest motives in each attempt. Now I have hurt myself to being in fear of being in some form of self deception... . I do not know where I am in the grief or obsession table but I would say that I damaged myself really bad in the negotiation stage? Or different name... .Some kind of bartering... I'm am broken... . Needing not to exspieriance hope in terms of the relationship ever working.
Title: Re: I need to review.. . Post by: bus boy on November 10, 2016, 04:00:55 AM It's tough. Keep writing. The people here know and have felt your pain. NC is very important to your recovery. Slow it down, get a good T and like I said keep writing on this board or pour it out in a journal as well, to empty your brain but, I stress, use this board and the advice you get. You will figure out where you are at in the recovery stage. I hung on to my emotionally abusive NPD/BPD Xw for years after she left. It took a lot of pain and suffering than I was discarded in a cruel and ruthless way but over time I was able to get my emotions and brain back in order, today I feel like a totally different person, I got to where I am by going NC. It is not easy, it is painful, it's a process not an event, it's pain we must go through not around. You will get out of your recovery what you put onto it.
Title: Re: I need to review.. . Post by: I_am_Stacey on November 10, 2016, 04:47:34 AM It's tough. Keep writing. The people here know and have felt your pain. NC is very important to your recovery. Slow it down, get a good T and like I said keep writing on this board or pour it out in a journal as well, to empty your brain but, I stress, use this board and the advice you get. You will figure out where you are at in the recovery stage. You'll get there. I go through the stages of detachment round and round. But is gets better. A journal is a good way to just get things out of your system. In stead of reaching out to your BPDex, just write everything down. It helped me a lot. Everything I wanted to say to mine are in a journal: long long letters. And in time you'll see you're writing less and then a few days without writing. You're not alone in this. We know what you're going through. Let the emotions come and don't push them away. We got you! XOXO |