Title: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 20, 2025, 12:06:19 PM I have just joined here so still learning. I am looking for your advice on this current situation i'm in. So i am with this guy (uBPD) for 18yrs now and married for 4yrs. In relationship phase we didn't live together but after marriage, ie the last 4yrs, since we have started to live together things have become worse. Last year things were worst, and over several months he accused me and my family of several things, most of which are extremely inaccurate. His family doesn't know (and doesn't really care) about his BPD and they aided his behavior in all this. I have been struggling with my mental health for last fews years and at this point it has set very badly. I am into higher academia and the pressure of PhD has also left me drained.
Currently, i have joined postdoc and since it is in a different city, i talked and discussed with him before taking up the position and when he agreed, i took a rented apartment and furnished it with everything that costed me all my PhD savings. I arranged this just so that he and me can live together because after this postdoc, i may have to go abroad for the 2nd postdoc so for next 1 or 2yrs we may have to be long distance. I have discussed all these with him. He is not at all good with long distances. But to make our relationship work i compromised my Phd stream, postdoc, everything to stay near him. This current postdoc is in another city for not very far from our home or his workplace. For last about 3weeks we went to our respective houses to take care of some family needs. One day in between we met up and i was late. This enraged him and he started to threaten that he wont stay in our rented apartment anymore. There's literally no connection between the two. So that day i cried for 2.5 hrs over the phone, tried to cool him down, requested him not to move out of our apartment (i felt so bad because i am the one who has rented it and bought everything to furnish it).. he then cooled down and said he'd rethink. Then everything was fine he was in good and 'normal' mood. Yesterday I told him i'd return this Monday and asked him when he'd come back. He again started to say he won't go back. Apparently he's in good mood but just trying to frustrate me and 'getting back at me' for no apparent reason. He has always made me 'beg' for him to stay here, as if my getting a postdoc in a different (but still nearby) city was a crime. My friends from Phd went abroad for postdoc or atleast in other states in good institutions for their career. I have chosen among the only 3 or 4 institutes which were around our city. Even getting into one of these 3-4 institute of very hard, but somehow i managed. Recently, i am starting to take more responsibility for my mental health. I can't really describe just how extremely bad my mental health is. I am highly sensitive person, also have ADHD,very low self esteem. Chronic stress has manifested into numerous physical symptoms like bad indigestion issues, very frequent allergies, miscellaneous nd severe body pains everyday, migraines everyday. There is no therapist here in my country who understands these kind of issues. I am trying my best to regain my health. Trying to read relevant books on these issues, trying meditation and art therapies for my mental health. At this point I feel like i should take a stand for his behaviors. The series of accusation of last year have left me very damaged on the inside. All i have done is accept everything and say sorry because I can't deal with conflict at all, it impacts me very badly maybe because i am highly sensitive. So this time i decided that if he doesn't return to the apartment i will say 'we are done'...i don't think he will be expecting this, all he will expect is more pleading and crying on my part. I am trying to mentally accept the fact too that if he continues like this, we should really be done. And if we are to stay, he needs to take up atleast some bit of responsibility towards his behavior and towards this marriage. I shouldn't be the only one trying to keep everything together. Just to clarify, i am not really ready to move on. We have been together for 18yrs and am still very severely codependent on him. But just want to put my foot down. What are your views on this? I am afraid that if things escalated and we really break up. But honestly I don't know how else to bring a change in this relationship. If i approach by 'normal' conversation he will not even hear. Whenever i try to say something serious he avoids badly, he doesn't like any serious conversation. Previously, as i recall, i have given him ultimatum twice in two occasions long back and as i remember, it had worked both the times. What are your views on this? Is there any alternative? what are your experiences regarding this, esp regarding major changes that you could bring about in the relationship? how did you make it happen? Thank you for reading. Any support would mean a lot. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on April 21, 2025, 12:42:19 AM What are your views on this? I am afraid that if things escalated and we really break up. But honestly I don't know how else to bring a change in this relationship. Hello and welcome to the forums, thanks for posting and sharing. Many of us have been in this exact circumstance and it is extremely volatile. A fear of abandonment is a prevailing trait of BPD. I understand that your post-graduate work can only happen in certain places, and I understand that it makes sense for you to finish your education. I am looking at this logically though; you've been in school for 7+ years already...it makes total sense to do the last year or two. Your husband, however, is seeing this emotionally. He FEELS (an emotion) that if you actually cared about him, you'd never leave him. Yet that's exactly what you're planning...you've already pulled him out of his comfort zone in the nearby city. This makes him FEEL like you're not committed to the relationship, like your career is more important than him, and maybe you'll meet someone else overseas and fall in love. Is that logical? Not at all. But when we're talking about feelings and how BPD's process emotion, it shows how he can dig deeper and deeper into a destructive narrative. Why is this happening? Well, you're apart. He's not waking up each day and drinking coffee with you, you guys aren't watching your favorite shows together, going to your favorite restaurants, etc. So he's feeling the abandonment and spiraling. Everything is emotional right now, logic doesn't matter, and he's going to say what he FEELS in the moment, even if it's not what he truly believes. You're talking about implementing boundaries, which is a good thing. He shouldn't speak to you that way, or threaten to leave the relationship just to get under your skin. But once you "call his bluff", things will get worse as he doubles down on his FEELINGS in the moment and faces his worst fears of being abandoned. Now, for the actual advice part. Making boundaries are a good thing, even though it will make things work and threaten the relationship. Let's cut to the root of the problem though, his unstable FEELINGS that you're abandoning him. He FEELS in the right for punishing you for making him FEEL this way...notice how I keep putting FEELINGS in caps? That's because it's how he's hard-wired and it's not tied to logic. When he becomes overly-emotional, the logic part of his brain shuts down and the FEELINGS take over completely. Boundaries are good...but not in a "I'm punishing you for being a lousy spouse" type of way. The boundaries are simply for saying, "this is hurting me, so I'm taking a step back." You absolutely have to do that with love and compassion though while remembering what's driving all this from him, and you have to stress that you're not going anywhere (even though you literally are eventually for school). If I were in your position, I would talk to him about why he's feeling the way he is and where it stems from. We can already guess, it's the long-distance stuff happening right now and again in the future, so you need to get to the root of the problem. Ask him if he'd prefer for you to postpone the second part of post-doc training....not because you want to do that...but because you're allowing him to be a part of the process he fears the most. I hope that helps. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 21, 2025, 01:38:20 AM Hi pook,
Thank you soo much for your reply and support. It was really so empathetic and relatable. You are so right in your explanation and I completely agree. Sometimes when one is frustrated, it's really difficult to keep things in perspective and just believe that 'he is doing it just to harass me'... you are totally right. I can literally feel his underlying issue at this point. He feel something like : "what's the point of staying together, ultimately she's gonna go to another country and leave me.. so it's better to start staying away from now, in that way i won't be hurt later and also she won't have to waste the money now as rent" .. I understand, eventually if i have to go abroad that will be a big step and honestly i already have in mind that i have to make a lot of accommodations regarding it.. and honestly, if possible, i won't even go.. that is, if i manage to get a job right after this postdoc itself, then obviously i won't go. Also, i am here for 1.5-2 more years while i am completing this postdoc. But as for the current situation, i am afraid that he may not come back here and i don't know how else to convince him. Rational talking is not at all his thing - this is something we need to start practicing in the relationship in the near future. However, in current equation in the relationship, he will simply say 'no, i wont come, its my wish'.. I will again have to cry and plead and after that even if he agrees to come, he will have unreasonable 'conditions', like, i won't do this, i won't bear that and so on --like it's a crime i am making him commit. Instead of saying 'we are done', maybe i can modify and say 'its ok, if u dont want to be with me, dont come, after all staying together is a choice which both of us has to agree to and a decision both has to make.. if u r unwilling, no probs, i will stay alone here'...something like this.. but honestly, he having some kind of discussion about his 'feelings' is not in the books at this point. He doesn't even believe that there are something called 'feelings'.. it's the societal narrative, that boys doesn't have feelings. In more developed countries, the awareness is increasing, but it's still poor here in my country. After marriage it took me a year to convince him to say 'my mood is not good' instead of just saying 'my body health is not good' when he was sad.. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on April 21, 2025, 07:16:07 AM Let's say you and I are hanging out one day, and as we enter a building I accidentally get my hand slammed in the door. You don't see it happen, but as you turn you can tell from my reactions exactly what happened- I'm yelling, I'm holding my hand, I'm physically shaken as the pain comes in those initial waves.
My question is, what am I feeling in that moment? The answer is, well, it's complicated. Anger, sadness, confusion, fear...maybe even rage...who knows. It's all happening so fast that it's hard to find a solid definition. Since you're my friend though, you react without trying to identify the actual feelings. Maybe you say, "Oh my gosh Pook, are you okay? Let me see it." Then maybe you rush to get some ice, or rush me to the car if it's bad enough for a hospital visit. Your initial actions, they do absolutely nothing to help the physical pain. But because you're being present and showing me compassion, because you're taking over in getting me first aid, it helps me get through the moment and eases so many burdens in the moment. With your husband, you don't need him to talk about his feelings...we know how he feels and why he feels that way. And just like slamming a hand in the door, they might be all over the place- rage one second, sadness the very next. So you do the same for him as I hoped you'd do for me, you comfort him in the moment and help him get past that initial pain. I have a BPD ex wife and a BPD daughter, so I'm speaking from experience. I can't tell you how many times my kid was suicidal from spiraling emotions one minute, but calm and thinking rationally a few minutes later. The result all came down to how I reacted when she was at her worst. Before I said it's all about FEELINGS, which is true when they're thinking in a disordered way. But once they get past that and their emotions balance out, then logic turns back on and you can have real conversations. If you try while they're freaking out though, it's a lose/lose situation that's going to spiral every single time. Just talk to your husband, tell him you love him, and let him know that you're thinking about not doing overseas study...not if it upsets him. Then let him respond and listen. He may become emotional and that's where the 'hand in the door' scenario kicks in, show compassion and do your best to help him understand that he's first and foremost in your life, that you're not going anywhere if it's going to hurt the marriage. Maybe he yells, maybe he cries, but that's where you start. Even if it gets to the point where you need to put in a boundary and have to step back, you do it with love and compassion. He's hurting worse than someone having their hand slammed in a door, just keep that perspective. The main thing is him understanding that you're not walking away, you're not giving up, and you want to find a way to make this work for everyone. Figure out how to say that in a loving, compassionate way and you'll be past the worst of this. Good luck- and keep asking tough questions! Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 26, 2025, 12:04:54 PM Hi, thank you so much pook for your replies. It means a lot.. reading your suggestions last day, i took two days to figure out how to approach this. The day after i brought this up. I tried to be compassionate and acknowledge that he is hurt. I tried to assure him that i'll be there by him and won't take any discussion that is gonna make him feel abandoned. I also tired to talk to him as to what family needs i had to take care of during this time (he went to his home because his mom had a major surgery and was recovering, i have also paid visit to her) so that he does not misunderstand this thinking i purposely abandoned him. He seemed all okay and talked nicely and seemed to be supportive and understanding of everything. In general also, he was in very good mood and replying lovingly over the msgs and over phn, no issues whatsoever.
Then yesterday, he again said that tmw i am going to come and pack my things and move out, like out of nowhere. I have already moved back in and was expecting him to move back too over the weekend but instead he said this. So I tried a lot to make sense as to why he is still saying this, tried to ask if he is having any challenges here, tried to assure that if he is having any problem i am ready to help him, support him etc etc.. said, i love you so many times and requested not to move out, requested to discuss. But he simply kept accusing me like he does when he is angry. When he is angry he will bring up every little detailed flaws in me and accuse me. He said, don't stop me i don't want any more discussion. Today morning he packed his stuffs and moved out. He texted me once, but it's too much for me now. Like I was saying, for last 1.5yrs,the accusations have become extreme. Like, i take medicine for my depression so i am drug addict-always calling me drug addict (even tho i only take medicine via regular doctor visits and check ups), why i use car and not public transport (even though i myself pay for it and he knows that my physical health is not good), i am brainwashed by my mother (even tho i hardly talk to her, obviously not regularly,tho i do love her ), that i am destroying his mental peace (i am very quiet and introverted person, also Highly Sensitive) etc etc several more. I even tried to accommodate these, stopped taking medication after tapering off, using car only one way, hardly calling my mother etc etc. So after he moved out and reached his place and texted, I told him "I dont wanna be the one who destroy your mental peace, i don't think we should talk anymore.. take care " Now he is desperately msging me and calling me. The msgs all contains same abusive language, like how I am creating trouble and escaping, how i am unwilling to accept my faults, i have these these long list of faults, i always do these etc etc I didn't receive any call and didn't reply. It's too much for me. I want to bring about changes in the relationship dynamics, the present one has become very dysfunctional. I am trying to read all the coping strategies here, as well as re-read the books, but any advice particularly to my situation would be highly appreciated. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 26, 2025, 01:51:46 PM Here another update.
After calling 20times and sending about 25 abusive messages all through the evening now (it's about 12am) I see he has deleted all the msgs he sent thru the evening and wrote the following: i am sorry whatever i wrote was in anger and sadness now i have no strength left take care how do i proceed? i was reading the 'success stories' tread some have written that after enabling for long, they decided firmly to move out/told the BPD to move out and asked the BPD seek therapy. they seeked therapy themselves too. please tell me how i proceed? should i reply just yet, or wait one or two days and then say something like that from the success story? What are your opinions? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: stevemcduck on April 26, 2025, 04:48:42 PM hi, you are more experienced than me so I don't want to say anything that might be wrong. I just wanted to say sorry for what you are going through. at least he is contacting you. would it not be wise to at least acknowledge the text so he doesn't feel abandoned and say to talk tomorrow?
Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 26, 2025, 10:49:14 PM Hi steve, thanks so much for replying.
i am also a bit confused. Thing is that, since i have said 'we wont talk', sometimes it's better to stick to the words, otherwise it gives them the msg that i was just bluffing. On the other hand, your view is also important. I slept off yesterday, didn't say anything, it's morning now i'm still thinking what to do. I am really hurt and honestly don't want to do anything with him unless he on really calm and shows some willingness to bring change to our relationship. ( to be fair, i am also trying my best this time to bring about change in me, it's not just him) Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on April 26, 2025, 10:50:06 PM please tell me how i proceed? should i reply just yet, or wait one or two days and then say something like that from the success story? What are your opinions? I'm so sorry for all of this, and you are certainly at a crossroads right now. I think about you, younger woman, knocked out school and on a strong career path, yet you're surrounded by this storm. You love him, yet he's sick and responding badly. He's hurt and he doesn't know why...even though you know what's really going on. It's heartbreaking because it is all of our stories and we have no idea how to proceed in those moments. Okay, first off, let's go back to him deciding to leave. Understand that he didn't want to leave, he didn't want to break up, and he didn't mean to create all of this chaos. Yet in his mind, he was scared like a young child thinking there's a boogeyman in his closet at night. He just couldn't shake that feeling, his own doubts and insecurities, so he lashed out at you and decided to flee. Here's the thing though, this is part of that push/pull relationship. He fled so you'd fight harder for him, to show that you genuinely care. And I understand, that's not what he said at all. But he was speaking from pure emotion and spiraling out of control. Honestly, my heart breaks for him because I've watched my daughter go through this hundreds of times. It shatters her, tears her apart. My ex wife left in the exact same way your man did. She expected me to fight, to beg, and when I didn't instantly do that, it shattered her. Yet she had no idea how much she had hurt me leading up to those moments. You're online so I'm posting this now, and going straight into another message. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on April 26, 2025, 11:01:01 PM Now for the hard part- what to do. Three options.
1) Reach out and talk to him. He might rage, but more likely he's express his love and beg for another chance. That's the BPD cycle and if you choose to reconcile today, he'll make grand promises and try to be on his best behavior. It might even feel like the old days again. You mentioned recommending therapy at this time. That's a tricky subject that he might take the wrong way. Family therapy might be the best choice since it involves both of you...meaning the problem is not just him (I know it's mostly him, but still). This may stabilize your relationship, it might not, but this probably won't be the last time you face these insecurities on his end. Again, these are cycles based off his worst fears...they'll repeat until he wants it to change. 2) You could also take a neutral route, saying you love him but you need some space, that you've been hurt recently and some time apart might help the relationship. Then follow through with the same plan, suggesting therapy and counseling to see how it goes. This path could go either way as well- maybe it's great, maybe it implodes. But you'd at least know that for the time being, you're living alone and you can focus on your own mental health and career. Option 2 is a great option, to be honest, but it could lead to the end of the relationship entirely. That's true with any of these option though. 3) The third path is to keep your distance, not respond, and allow him to do whatever he's going to do. In my BPD kid's journey, that's what actually got her to take therapy seriously after having a complete breakdown a few years ago. She dug in and wanted to get better so badly, that she decided to put in the work and change her life. Here's the thing though, my kid's story is more the exception than what normally happens. Option three allows you to focus on yourself and your career though, and allows him to process where he went wrong in the relationship. And hey, even if you're saying it's over today...that doesn't mean forever. It only means you're putting yourself first for a little bit. Nobody here can tell you which path to take since all are going to be a challenge. You have to do what's best for you though and you can't be so hyper-focused on what's best for him. He's sick and making bad choices, and those will continue until he takes therapy seriously. He has to want it so bad and see that he's the problem, he's the one that wrecks all these relationships. That part has nothing at all to do with you. I'll hang out online for a bit and see if I can answer any questions for you in this thread. I'm so sorry you're in this position and i really feel for you. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 27, 2025, 12:37:19 AM Hi pook,
Thanks so so much for your detailed replies, it's really feels so good to be supported and is really very helpful. I do understand what you're saying, that he didn't really wanted to move out but was so hurt on the inside that he did. You are right and even i feel so too.. we were very happily living here,his decision was surely motivated by deep hurt. Just that he coats his hurt in anger and abusive blames and even tho i understand this logically, i get hurt because, to be honest, my self esteem is also not so good, something that i'm also trying to work on. Thank you for highlighting it though, it gives me support and helps me hold the perspective that this place that i have worked so hard to arrange and furnish is nothing wrong in itself. I was reallyy feeling hurt at this. You've made a lot of sense in the three options that you've put down. I am so emotionally down that i was struggling to come up with the pros and cons which you have highlighted so nicely. It's really big help. Let me take some time and give all the options some serious thoughts. I'll post here and update. Cant thank you enough for everything. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on April 27, 2025, 05:35:46 AM You've made a lot of sense in the three options that you've put down. I am so emotionally down that i was struggling to come up with the pros and cons which you have highlighted so nicely. It's really big help. Let me take some time and give all the options some serious thoughts. I'll post here and update. Cant thank you enough for everything. No problem at all, take all the time you need. Rant if necessary, or ask more questions. Do it all your your timelines though as it feels right for you. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 29, 2025, 06:27:03 AM Hi pook,
So I took some time and gave some serious thoughts to consider the options. He hasn't sent anything else anymore after those last 4 msgs. I haven't either. 1) Reach out and talk to him. He might rage, but more likely he's express his love and beg for another chance. That's the BPD cycle and if you choose to reconcile today, he'll make grand promises and try to be on his best behavior. It might even feel like the old days again. To be honest, if i do this, if I reply now, I am sure things will be "fixed" immediately and we will simply continue the "sweet talk" like we always do. He will however not move back in, I'm sure. Honestly, this option is what he is expecting. In each and every situation, I do this, he knows I can't stay angry at him, and that I will simply try to amend everything within two-three days. He knows I hate conflicts. He also knows, that while amending, I am the one who will do all the compromises, even say sorry repeatedly. I always do this. He won't own any responsibility whatsoever. Things will be "fine" until next time i "falter" and again the same blames and accusations will repeat. 2) You could also take a neutral route, saying you love him but you need some space, that you've been hurt recently and some time apart might help the relationship. Then follow through with the same plan, suggesting therapy and counseling to see how it goes. This path could go either way as well- maybe it's great, maybe it implodes. But you'd at least know that for the time being, you're living alone and you can focus on your own mental health and career. In this option, if I say this 1st, he will take this totally against me. He will think I am simply trying to keep him away. If I say this After he text me 1st, then maybe it could lead to somewhere, but still it will reinforce his idea that allll the problem is in me -- "I am the one who is depressed, i take drugs, so he has to suffer because of that"--something in this line. Like i was saying, for about last two years, the blame and accusations on his part has intensified so badly, and is aided by his family. 3) The third path is to keep your distance, not respond, and allow him to do whatever he's going to do. In my BPD kid's journey, that's what actually got her to take therapy seriously after having a complete breakdown a few years ago. She dug in and wanted to get better so badly, that she decided to put in the work and change her life. Here's the thing though, my kid's story is more the exception than what normally happens. Option three allows you to focus on yourself and your career though, and allows him to process where he went wrong in the relationship. And hey, even if you're saying it's over today...that doesn't mean forever. It only means you're putting yourself first for a little bit. Somehow, this is the option my mind is agreeing the most to. I feel that my "fixing" everything each time there is a conflict is somehow enabling him. It is reinforcing the ideas that whatever "blames" he is putting on me is right and that I am indeed very flawed. Honestly, i really do accept and say sorry to each of the blames and even try very hard to improve on those. It's simply because i am so sensitive and just cant deal with conflicts. But I am noticing that no amount of improvement is sufficient for him and he doesn't even acknowledge that i am trying to improve, that i am trying to accommodate all his wishes. This time i want him to atleast retrospect what he is saying and doing. Change can only happen if both the people try, isn't it? I don't even expect 50-50%. Atleast he should try 10%. He is completely missing his part and I am also allowing that. I know this option is very risky. Still going for it. Felling very sad and tensed though Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 29, 2025, 11:09:04 AM There is actually another aspect to this whole situation which i feel like i should put down. Might be kinda rant. But it'd be really really helpful if you could provide your opinions.
I just feel, there is a lot of intrusion from the in-laws too and even apart from this current situation, i am getting more and more worried regarding this in general. The 14yrs together before marriage, this aspect was not there. Just a sister in law, but she has always supported me and the relationship. But after marriage, things are different. It is very common in my country for parents to be overly involved in older children's life. Sometimes they live together also, though we don't, but we frequently visit. I get a feeling that the mother-in-law doesn't really have the best at heart. I also wonder whether she may have BDP or some other personality issues too, since BPD is often inherited? Father in law seems to be a good person, but too afraid to speak up against his wife or son. Just at time i got married, i got to hear how my husband has shouted and argued and extremely misbehaved with an uncle and got him to hand down a property. Later i realised, the entire benefit of that went to the mother. Just after i got married, every single day i woke up to telephonic arguments between my husband and his mother regarding the division of their houses and properties between my husband and his sister. I hate conflicts, i repeatedly requested them to discuss in peace but that didn happen. Sometimes she additionally enraged him 'just for fun' (she once joked to me and said "wanna see how i enrage him?"). She would sometimes just start a debate with him about absolutely useless matters. The property settlement mostly favoured my husband and the mother such that all of it will belong to the mother now and when she passes away it will pass on to the son mostly and some to the sister. I just feel, this property debate too was ignited by the mother to ensure she owns them till she is alive in case her husband passes away before her. After this, the sister was enraged and the mother conveniently passed on the entire blame onto my husband and then later on, made me settle both of them, calm them down and restore the relationship between them to normal. I did that. I felt very used. As soon as this settled, almost within a week, a flood of accusations were put on me and my family. So previously my husband's rages were directed against the sister and that uncle, now it turned towards me and my family. Mind you, on the outside, she pretends like she has no control over my husband's rages. But this time i wasn't fooled because at one incident she directly said bad things to me about my mother over the phone - - which later my husband echoed. Before this, he was really loving towards my family. These accusations are what i was mentioned in my posts too. This has left me very hurt and drained. Thing is that, I can still possibly manage if it's just my husband and his BPD, like i have done for last 18yrs but it would be impossible if this is incinerated even more by external people. I know his BPD is not their responsibility, it's not even in their control, it's under nobody's control but can they be pouring fuel to it? What can i do about it? I can't confront directly because they won't believe that the son can have some mental health condition. I have repeatedly tried before to tell her not to get into silly arguments with him but honestly i feel that since i told her, she has increased them. We were living here in this apartment (from which he moved out last day) pretty happily for 8 months, no issues at all, he never even complained anything, she visited here 1st time just before her operation "to see how the apartment was" , and now he moved out. Can't be a co-incident every time. Have you had any experience, may not be in-laws but maybe best friends, or say, bother/sister? Even if not, can you suggest anything regarding this situation? I can actually elaborate a lot more, give many more example but the post will become too big. i am sorry, i feel very guilty even as i write this, i am always very respectful about elders, and from the beginning I took them as my own mom and dad, they had two major operations before, I totally took care of them, admitting them to hospital and everything, keeping her in our house back then, caring for her and everything. But I am having to reconsider and think of the worst now having gone through and observing various things because this is affecting my marriage. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on April 29, 2025, 06:40:19 PM Somehow, this is the option my mind is agreeing the most to. I feel that my "fixing" everything each time there is a conflict is somehow enabling him. It is reinforcing the ideas that whatever "blames" he is putting on me is right and that I am indeed very flawed. Honestly, i really do accept and say sorry to each of the blames and even try very hard to improve on those. It's simply because i am so sensitive and just cant deal with conflicts. But I am noticing that no amount of improvement is sufficient for him and he doesn't even acknowledge that i am trying to improve, that i am trying to accommodate all his wishes. This time i want him to atleast retrospect what he is saying and doing. Change can only happen if both the people try, isn't it? I don't even expect 50-50%. Atleast he should try 10%. He is completely missing his part and I am also allowing that. I know this option is very risky. Still going for it. Felling very sad and tensed though If that's what you feel, then this is the right path. And I completely agree with everything you said in your reasoning. A big part of BPD is blaming others while they're struggling. If you always apologize to avoid conflict (which is what I always did, and everyone else here) then that's reinforcing in his mind that you're the bad person that always brings him down. He might sense that there's something wrong with that line of thinking, but it's not dominant. Over time he becomes convinced that you're the entire problem. When that kicks in, then the fear of abandonment isn't too far behind...and you get the scenario where you're at now. He wants you to beg him to come back, he wants you to fight like mad and take all the blame for him being in the wrong. It's so tough and unfair, but you have to follow your heart regardless. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on April 29, 2025, 07:00:02 PM Have you had any experience, may not be in-laws but maybe best friends, or say, bother/sister? Even if not, can you suggest anything regarding this situation? I can actually elaborate a lot more, give many more example but the post will become too big. I have a very similar story with my mother-in-law. We had our first daughter almost 9 months after we were married and in the months following that, my wife barely got out of bed. My mom would come over and get the baby before I left for work, and my wife would eventually get up and go to my mom's house late-morning. But she'd sleep on the couch until 2-3 PM and then take the baby to her mom's house, where she'd nap on the couch again as her mom watched the baby. When my mother-in-law inquired why my wife was always so tired, she said that it was because she had zero help at home from me. I was working 12-15 hour days back then, and I'd come home from work, clean the entire house, cook a meal, etc. My wife would still be at her mom's house or already asleep. I was frustrated and concerned, so I finally called her mom and explained how tired and down my wife had been. Only, my mother-in-law snapped on me, and told me that I was a horrible man that was beneath her daughter. I didn't do anything but drink and chase women, and that my wife should divorce me. And I thought....where the heck did that come from? I'm working 80 hours a week and doing all the cooking, cleaning etc. What I realize now is that my wife wanted sympathy from me, sympathy from my mom, and sympathy from her mom. So she'd say whatever got her the most attention and painted her as the victim in all of this. I would occasionally drink a beer or two from time to time with friends after work, so I want to be transparent here, there was a shred of truth to the accusations. But they were completely false and baseless as well- I was not looking at other women or getting drunk. When I tried to talk to my wife about it, she denied everything and this was the first time we broke up. The bigger problem, however, was the wedge that was driven in our marriage by her continually bad-mouthing me to my mom (which clearly saw what was happening) and her mom (which believed her daughter 100%). I didn't get on good terms with her mom for probably a decade into our marriage, just because so much of that drama painted me a certain way. In your situation, it's probably the same thing- the sister makes a comment about you, your husband sees that it paints him as the victim, so he repeats it for sympathy. Then his mom picks it up and uses it to stir the pot, adds some to the story and now everyone's saying a new thing against you. And maybe it's not horrible, but those little things add up over time and make people form unfair opinions about you. For BPD on my wife's side, there's my daughter, my wife, and at least one or both of her brothers. I'd be shocked if her mom wasn't BPD as well, and my wife's aunt was diagnosed bipolar. My wife's grandfather was diagnosed with depression but it seemed to be something more. I don't know it for a fact, but I saw it across four generations. I see the same cycles in my BPD daughter, how her inner circle is always hating or idolizing someone in their group. Someone is always terrible, completely wrong...and then the next month that person is my kid's best friend as they hate on someone else. People with mental illness prefer others with mental illness because they can feed of each other's pain and rescue one another over and over and over again...even though they're being rescued from each other. I hope that helps! Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on April 30, 2025, 01:15:54 PM Gosh, whatever you said is soo sooo relatable. It's exactly the case here too. He will convincingly tell his mom and dad who always believes him and then he plays the victim role.
I would occasionally drink a beer or two from time to time with friends after work, so I want to be transparent here, there was a shred of truth to the accusations. But they were completely false and baseless as well- I was not looking at other women or getting drunk. This part is soo very true. In my case also, they always start off with some bits of truth and completely take it in another direction. For instance, i started medicines for mental health 10yrs back for the 1st time after a big incident with him, he broke up, cheated with another girl etc. Before this, i was never on any medication. Then again, Towards the mid PhD, things were extremely bad in my lab plus i got married and riding his roller coaster ride. I was very down and always felt like staying on bed. So i again seeked medical help to help me get out of bed and get everything done. I did manage to get it done, managed the marriage, managed my Phd with two good publications fighting against the entire lab and my guide. He distorted this to tell his parents "she takes drugs and sleep late in morning".. i was waking up late(a bit) because i was staying awake all night writing my thesis after working all day in the lab, not because of medicines - - medicines were helping me to leave the bed and get things done. But no, he tagged me as "drug addict /druggie"... i visited the doctor every month, got regular blood works done and was strictly taking medications prescribed by psychiatrist. The problem with this is that, since there is a bit of truth, it's very easy to accept and internalise these blames. I am realising now, i have been internalising all these after marriage. There's another question, maybe a bit personal. How did you ultimately handle these external intrusions? Or, even now, u have a daughter with BPD. are there chances that she might be wrongly influenced by your in laws, or her mother?? how do u work around this? do you have some boundaries around this? i am trying to figure out how i can minimise this in my case. Also, as an update: Today he has again started sending the cute stickers that we always send each other. In between there was no talk after his last msgs which i didn't reply. Today's stickers, I reacted with a heart to the 1st one, and just ignored the 2nd. He simply wants us to go back to the "sweet talk mode" that we are always into. This is the most common pattern, happens every time. He feels like we will again revert back to 'normal' after anything and everything he does and we always do, because like i said, i hate conflicts, so i always give in and accept and 'normalise'. I don't want the same thing this time. Want to say something assertively. But don't know what. His intention is that he will stay away at his old place while i stay in this apartment alone and we are long distance. I don't want this at all. I have taken this apartment so that we can stay together and it's more near to his workplace too. But even apart from that, staying long distance with him being BPD is not a good idea - - which was the main reason for me to seek the postdoc nearby our home and his workplace, so that we can still live together. So if he is looking to stay separately, i won't agree to that at all, it will damage the relationship. 2ndly, i did mention about suggesting therapy for him but honestly that is not a good idea too. There is not a single good therapist here in my place who is informed about BPD and a wrong therapist will do more harm than good. I just want him to willingly explore some changes that he can bring about to himself about his rages and his responsibilities towards the relationship - - doesn't have to much even 5% would be great. But can't force him or threaten him and say 'you change yourself', obviously that wont work if it is forced. That's why i was just keeping silent so that he can retrospect and give it a bit of thought as to what can be different. But i am feeling very confused. Should i send an assertive text regarding this? Any suggestions will mean a lot. Thank you soo much for your continued support, can't really express what this means to me. I am so grateful. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 02, 2025, 07:32:30 AM The problem with this is that, since there is a bit of truth, it's very easy to accept and internalise these blames. I am realising now, i have been internalising all these after marriage. I did the same thing, I think everyone here does, and it leads to us having mental health challenges as our reality is warped. Seriously, probably 80% of new members here are clinically depressed or worse. It's so debilitating in so many different ways. That's why focusing on your mental health right now is so critically important, so you can view this objectively and decide what you will or won't accept moving forward. It will also help you deal with more of his toxic behavior in a healrthier manner. There's another question, maybe a bit personal. How did you ultimately handle these external intrusions? Or, even now, u have a daughter with BPD. are there chances that she might be wrongly influenced by your in laws, or her mother?? how do u work around this? do you have some boundaries around this? i am trying to figure out how i can minimise this in my case. Truthfully, I used to handle them badly and I tried so hard to show that I wasn't a complete jerk. But in time I realized that all of that was outside of my control and it wasn't worth my focus...all it did was hurt me and make me lose sleep. Those who I care about understand who I am, and those that don't know me well...I just let it go. It's a shame in some regards because it makes these relationships so much harder, but in time those people who matter will see you for you (or they'll see the same patterns through your husband and question his viewpoints). His mom can believe whatever she wants, and play whatever games she wants. It's up to you whether to respond or not. As the old adage goes, actions speak louder than words...so focus on your actions and let that tell the story. I don't want the same thing this time. Want to say something assertively. But don't know what. His intention is that he will stay away at his old place while i stay in this apartment alone and we are long distance. I don't want this at all. If it doesn't work for you, then it doesn't work for you. With BPD, it's dangerous to talk about their actions or mistakes...but talking about what you feel or what you want is received much better. So let him know; if he wants to run and pull way back, you're not interested in that because of how it makes you feel...the extra challenges in the relationship, etc. At the same time though, expect for him to answer badly and it won't necessarily be "his truth." This would be better as an in-person conversation so you can see the emotions and body language behind it. Maybe at a favorite restaurant or something like that? 2ndly, i did mention about suggesting therapy for him but honestly that is not a good idea too. Should i send an assertive text regarding this? Any suggestions will mean a lot. Normally I'd say not to bring this up at all, but if you're at a crossroads then now is as good of a time as any. Maybe it backfires, but things are backfiring anyway and making therapy a condition of working towards fixing the marriage isn't a bad sticking point. Truthfully, you guys need it and getting him to attend would be a huge step. I hope that helps! Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 07, 2025, 02:34:27 AM Hi pook, thanks so much for sharing your experiences with me, it really helps. I have managed to start a conversation with him yesterday where i managed to bring about a discussion about my needs, which is 1st time in ever, because moving beyond his blame games is a near- to- impossible job. I still have to communicate a lot, it's just the beginning though, don't know how far i can manage.
That's why focusing on your mental health right now is so critically important, so you can view this objectively and decide what you will or won't accept moving forward. It will also help you deal with more of his toxic behavior in a healrthier manner. Truthfully, I used to handle them badly and I tried so hard to show that I wasn't a complete jerk. But in time I realized that all of that was outside of my control and it wasn't worth my focus...all it did was hurt me and make me lose sleep. Those who I care about understand who I am, and those that don't know me well...I just let it go. It's a shame in some regards because it makes these relationships so much harder, but in time those people who matter will see you for you (or they'll see the same patterns through your husband and question his viewpoints). Would you be comfortable sharing about the current dynamics you have with them?? Are there can chances that your BPD daughter might be influenced against you by them?? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 07, 2025, 08:17:39 AM Would you be comfortable sharing about the current dynamics you have with them?? Are there can chances that your BPD daughter might be influenced against you by them?? Sure, my BPD ex wife and I are on good terms and talk when we need to (usually about the kids or something from our past. For example, I reached out yesterday because our primary doctor retired). It took awhile to get here but I decided that I wasn't going to argue over the past any longer and I'd only make general comments to move conversations along (for example, if she brings something up from 10 years ago, I'll say something like, "I'm sorry that still bothers you, both of us made a lot of mistakes and I wish we could go back and change them.") Somewhere in the process, I stopped being an enemy and I gained her trust again. But at the same time, I saw the patterns we were stuck in and realized that without treatment, I didn't want to push for reconciliation. I feel sorry for her and I hope her life turns out the way she's hoping. With my BPD daughter, we had a moment of clarity a few years back where we both apologized and sort of started over again. It was a little bumpy at first, but we quickly became close and things are really good. There's still moments she struggles, but she has completed DBT therapy and really made some huge strides with her mental illness. There are some relationships that were ruined- primarily with all my in-laws. Her dad still doesn't like me because my ex said that I mentally abused her, but almost everyone else has seen past that and realized who I was as a person. I didn't try to fight those narratives though and just let things play out naturally. And it still happens at times where my name is brought up in an unfair light, but I let it go and don't bother getting caught up in the drama. Life's just too short to worry about things we can't control. I hope that helps! Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 11, 2025, 04:28:39 AM Thanks so much pooks for sharing I really appreciate it. Things kind of escalated, i am feeling so damaged and lost and afraid that my relationship of 18yrs will now break down
Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 11, 2025, 11:47:52 AM I just feel so lost and confused. Don't know what i should do. He is constantly trying to start talking again over text by the sweet talks and sweet emojis that we always send when things are 'normal'. His intention is clear.. that i should be completely okay with his moving out and even other thing he has been doing and simply continue the sweet talk and our emotional connections.. our usual talking just consist of sweet talks and NEVER anything serious, at least not of the relationship. Usually i am ok with that. He emailed me with emojis but i managed to turn it this time into serious talk and for 1st time every he said "if i have caused any problem tell me, i dont know".. yesterday I wrote him a big reply email speaking my heart out as to the problems i am facing especially regarding his splitting and his distress intolerance and somethings more. However he didn't take this well at all, even though i used "I statements" and repeated said that "this is not any accusation or blame, i just want to share my issues so that we can work together etc" .. he again raged over several email and repeatedly blamed me saying I have caused all problem, only i am responsible etc etc. I tried to stay calm and repeatedly asked him, "what can you do on your part? i am ready to take more steps to adjust or improve my part but what about you? " He totally ignored and raged and blamed me, saying he is perfect and everything is my fault. I even went to the extent of suggesting therapy and in one context also said "i agree i struggle with time management because you know i have ADHD and i will take more steps to bring more change, seek therapy, you have symptoms associated with borderline personality are you willing to work on that too, maybe just looking up online about it?" It totally enraged him and totally said his issues are nothing and only stemming because of me. We have however previously joked and in good mood he has himself said in casual tone that he has something like split personality.
I ultimately discontinued the talk saying we will continue when you are calmer. I cried all night yesternight after this, cried thru the day too. Now in the evening, he is again replying to the same email thread with cute emojis, as if absolutely nothing has happened. I don't know what to do. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 12, 2025, 12:12:38 PM I just feel so lost and confused. Don't know what i should do. He is constantly trying to start talking again over text by the sweet talks and sweet emojis that we always send when things are 'normal'. His intention is clear.. that i should be completely okay with his moving out and even other thing he has been doing and simply continue the sweet talk and our emotional connections.. our usual talking just consist of sweet talks and NEVER anything serious, at least not of the relationship. Usually i am ok with that. He emailed me with emojis but i managed to turn it this time into serious talk and for 1st time every he said "if i have caused any problem tell me, i dont know".. yesterday I wrote him a big reply email speaking my heart out as to the problems i am facing especially regarding his splitting and his distress intolerance and somethings more. However he didn't take this well at all, even though i used "I statements" and repeated said that "this is not any accusation or blame, i just want to share my issues so that we can work together etc" .. he again raged over several email and repeatedly blamed me saying I have caused all problem, only i am responsible etc etc. I tried to stay calm and repeatedly asked him, "what can you do on your part? i am ready to take more steps to adjust or improve my part but what about you? " He totally ignored and raged and blamed me, saying he is perfect and everything is my fault. I even went to the extent of suggesting therapy and in one context also said "i agree i struggle with time management because you know i have ADHD and i will take more steps to bring more change, seek therapy, you have symptoms associated with borderline personality are you willing to work on that too, maybe just looking up online about it?" It totally enraged him and totally said his issues are nothing and only stemming because of me. We have however previously joked and in good mood he has himself said in casual tone that he has something like split personality. I ultimately discontinued the talk saying we will continue when you are calmer. I cried all night yesternight after this, cried thru the day too. Now in the evening, he is again replying to the same email thread with cute emojis, as if absolutely nothing has happened. I don't know what to do. I'm so sorry that the conversations were not what you were hoping for. It's heartbreaking. That's his truth though, that he's not ready to take personal accountability. A lot of people struggle there, it's not exclusively a BPD or mental health thing. The blame-shifting is absolutely a BPD thing though and it's very tough to deal with. I'm sure he cares for you and wants things to work, but at the same time that also makes you his scapegoat when things are tough. He chooses to ignore his own issues and cast blame outward. Once he's over that, he's back to being loving and caring...because he feels like the good guy being the bigger person. He simply can't see that the chaos comes from him. This is the sad reality of a BPD relationship...it's mega-tough at times and you're placed in positions where his emotional needs are in direct contrast to yours. It's not fair at all and we all have to choose if that's the life we want to actively pursue. That choice is yours though, and it will always be yours. Earlier we talked about your mental health, and how it should always come first. How are you handling situations like these to keep yourself in a better head-space? What's your support network look like? I know you're busy with work and school; are you taking time for yourself and pursuing any hobbies or other interests? Talk that out a little bit, what your "me-time" looks like. I'm asking because you can't fix him, but you can focus on your own mental/physical needs and still improve the relationship if that's the path you decide. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 14, 2025, 01:17:45 AM He chooses to ignore his own issues and cast blame outward. Once he's over that, he's back to being loving and caring...because he feels like the good guy being the bigger person. He simply can't see that the chaos comes from him. You are so right when you say this. I am so glad that you get me. In his mind he indeed feels like i am the most imperfect being and he is such big hearted that he accepts me even with my imperfections. It just breaks my heart so badly. I have always been a people pleaser. I have made so many changes within me for him, those that he demanded. But it's heartbreaking to see that he dismissed all of it now, saying those things doesn't matter, now I am required to make so and so changes. He didn't even acknowledge any of the previous ones which he had imposed so strictly back then. It also hurts me when he accuses my parents for absolutely no reason whatsoever. My parents are more-or-less good people and has best interests at heart. They have worked hard in their childhood to reach a stable position financially and gave me a good life. Mom also faced lots of trauma in childhood, but somehow, as young adult, she came across some form of spirituality via which she processed her grief and mostly turned out as a very balanced and wise person. I try my best not to hurt them (or anyone else for that matter)... and seeing him blame them literally for no reason is simply too big for me to handle. This actually is a big manipulative game i believe. Initially when i got married, i saw his mother (my mother in law) always fought with him, accused him for no reason (she might have some issues herself). She directly even accused him being a 'bad guy' right in front of me. These made me sad. I also got the sense that even in childhood, he might not have received so much love from her. So i had tried to introduce him towards my side. My parents as well as two-three of my relatives and very loving in general. They really poured a lot of love towards him. I felt very happy that my guy felt loved and respected. He liked coming to my house time to time. His mother on the other hand told me outright 'dont come to our house'.. So i visited them less. However, gradually his mom sensed that her boy was getting more attached towards my side. So she accused me and my family directly that my mother is "dominating", trying to control us. The love that they showered became interpreted as "trying to control". She went to the extent and said that she never asked me not to come but it was my mother who prevented me from going to my in laws house. And my guy also became convinced. Now every moment he is repeating the same dialog of his mom. i am very hurt at all these. I am mostly a very honest person. Being called lier is too much. I am also mostly an academic type of person, i have never been into family politics like these. From childhood i was encouraged to scientific thinking and habits like reading books, seeing good films and so on. I am so hurt. I have always loved him so much and thought that, since I have figured out the scientific reasoning behind his behaviour, i would be able to help him. But never thought about all these complexity. I knew that his behavior will always affect me and was ready to accept that part but never thought it will spill over to my parents. I feel so naive and incompetent. Earlier we talked about your mental health, and how it should always come first. How are you handling situations like these to keep yourself in a better head-space? What's your support network look like? I know you're busy with work and school; are you taking time for yourself and pursuing any hobbies or other interests? Talk that out a little bit, what your "me-time" looks like. I'm asking because you can't fix him, but you can focus on your own mental/physical needs and still improve the relationship if that's the path you decide. My mental health is in an extremely bad situation. It's such an irony you know. In previous post, I told that we went to our respective houses to take care of family needs. I had few days holiday from work too. So amidst that, i took out some 5 days to simply take care of my mental health, to include some hobbies and so on because all of it was lost. To be honest, i am also struggling with work, not very happy with it either and was having hard time going to work everyday, so purposely i took out those 5 days to try some new hobbies and work on my mental health. My husband always complains that i stay in bed too much in the morning of Sundays, so i thought these hobbies will be good in every way. I felt quite happy and relaxed too after i did that, those days. Right after that when we were supposed to come back, he said he won't, and took his things and moved out. Just makes me feel like choosing my mental health ws also a crime. I just feel so sad and messed up. I am trying to look up for an online therapist preferably from a more developed country but i feel very lost. I was into therapy before but i didn't feel it suited because therapy in my country is still not as advanced, we still don't have specialist. I am confused as to whether i should look for a BPD specialist or should i look for ADHD specialist since i have ADHD or should i look for high sensitivity specialist. I would be so glad if you could share your insights. I really appreciate all your help till now, really means a lot to me. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 15, 2025, 06:13:26 PM So she accused me and my family directly that my mother is "dominating", trying to control us. The love that they showered became interpreted as "trying to control". She went to the extent and said that she never asked me not to come but it was my mother who prevented me from going to my in laws house. And my guy also became convinced. Now every moment he is repeating the same dialog of his mom. I had to say this, but what you're describing sounds a lot like BPD. She felt threatened with your relationship with your mom, hated that her son liked it, so everyone was painted as a villain. There's nothing you can do about that, of course, but it might help to have that perspective. His mom has sabotaged things, and led to your husband thinking in a disordered way. i am very hurt at all these. I am mostly a very honest person. Being called lier is too much. I am also mostly an academic type of person, i have never been into family politics like these. From childhood i was encouraged to scientific thinking and habits like reading books, seeing good films and so on. I am so hurt. I have always loved him so much and thought that, since I have figured out the scientific reasoning behind his behaviour, i would be able to help him. But never thought about all these complexity. I knew that his behavior will always affect me and was ready to accept that part but never thought it will spill over to my parents. I feel so naive and incompetent. I felt exactly the same way, and looking back I also saw red flags before marrying my ex. They were little things I couldn't put my finger on at the time, but I knew there were some extra challenges there and they didn't deter me. Why? Because I loved her and I don't regret loving her, even if so much of it was taken for granted. I did my best. My mental health is in an extremely bad situation. It's such an irony you know. In previous post, I told that we went to our respective houses to take care of family needs. I had few days holiday from work too. So amidst that, i took out some 5 days to simply take care of my mental health, to include some hobbies and so on because all of it was lost. To be honest, i am also struggling with work, not very happy with it either and was having hard time going to work everyday, so purposely i took out those 5 days to try some new hobbies and work on my mental health. My husband always complains that i stay in bed too much in the morning of Sundays, so i thought these hobbies will be good in every way. I felt quite happy and relaxed too after i did that, those days. Right after that when we were supposed to come back, he said he won't, and took his things and moved out. Just makes me feel like choosing my mental health ws also a crime. This could have been a triggering event for him that made him feel abandoned...it's hard to say. But here's the thing- if you prioritizing yourself for a few days was "the problem", then it was going to happen sooner or later regardless. You can't look at this as a mess-up because you made the healthy choice. The problem here is his reaction to that. Whatever you did for those five days, try to get back to that locally. I just feel so sad and messed up. I am trying to look up for an online therapist preferably from a more developed country but i feel very lost. I was into therapy before but i didn't feel it suited because therapy in my country is still not as advanced, we still don't have specialist. I am confused as to whether i should look for a BPD specialist or should i look for ADHD specialist since i have ADHD or should i look for high sensitivity specialist. I would be so glad if you could share your insights. I really appreciate all your help till now, really means a lot to me. It would be great if you could find a BPD specialist, but for right now your focus needs to be on yourself and healing from the past few weeks/months. So I'd search for a therapist with experience with ADHD, and it doesn't necessarily need to be a specialist if that's not available in your country. The important part is talking this stuff out and realizing what's normal, what's acceptable, etc. The relationship comes second- you and your mental health always comes first. But by investing in yourself and getting to a healthier place, it also gives the relationship the best possible chance of succeeding as well. Make sense? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 19, 2025, 12:53:06 PM Thank you for your insights. Yes you are right, even i feel that there maybe BPD like trait in her too. But this fills me with even more dread. I feel so unsure as to how to handle all these. I am practicing emotional detachment during this time, which has been very challenging for me always. However, this time I have succeeded quite a bit. I am also actively looking for therapists, and after giving some thoughts I felt I'll try someone who knows about BPD and practices DBT.
As an update, he has gone on a trip to another country where his elder sister is also living. He isn't texting anymore, probably busy with the trip and family visit. I feel he will reach out when he is back, on 26th May. Could you help me with the kind of response on my part? The last conversation totally ended in an impasse. To whatsoever I said, all he said was "everything is your fault". Even when i said, i am ready to change and accommodate even more, are you willing to do the same? He still said he has nothing to do, i am the only one at fault. To be honest, i am extremely tempted to mention separation and ultimate divorce. This might just feel like impulsively or an attempt to threaten. But to be honest, the things that have been happening for last 1.5yrs has now become too much for me to handle. Honestly, last year itself I repeatedly thought that if these goes on I will have to think of separation. Could you suggest me a non reactive way of stating this? like, it should not sound like threatening, but just that this is now too much for me to handle, so we should think of separation. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 19, 2025, 09:09:06 PM Thank you for your insights. Yes you are right, even i feel that there maybe BPD like trait in her too. But this fills me with even more dread. I feel so unsure as to how to handle all these. I am practicing emotional detachment during this time, which has been very challenging for me always. However, this time I have succeeded quite a bit. I am also actively looking for therapists, and after giving some thoughts I felt I'll try someone who knows about BPD and practices DBT. As an update, he has gone on a trip to another country where his elder sister is also living. He isn't texting anymore, probably busy with the trip and family visit. I feel he will reach out when he is back, on 26th May. Could you help me with the kind of response on my part? The last conversation totally ended in an impasse. To whatsoever I said, all he said was "everything is your fault". Even when i said, i am ready to change and accommodate even more, are you willing to do the same? He still said he has nothing to do, i am the only one at fault. To be honest, i am extremely tempted to mention separation and ultimate divorce. This might just feel like impulsively or an attempt to threaten. But to be honest, the things that have been happening for last 1.5yrs has now become too much for me to handle. Honestly, last year itself I repeatedly thought that if these goes on I will have to think of separation. Could you suggest me a non reactive way of stating this? like, it should not sound like threatening, but just that this is now too much for me to handle, so we should think of separation. Sure, let's start working on that now. First, there's an acronym you might be familiar with in mental health- we don't want to JADE (justify, argue, defend, explain). He says it's all your fault. He's saying that because he believes it's true, and he refuses to put any additional effort into the marriage. That really stinks, but we don't want to JADE even something like this. Because if you try, his BPD mind will only hear exactly what he said to you "She's saying it's all my fault!" So a response has to follow a few rules, so to speak. 1) Everything said is about your feelings, your emotions, your needs 2) Don't JADE or even try to respond to something he said while splitting 3) Make it clear he's making all the decisions, you're only reacting to them For example, "I am really struggling with being apart from you and I hope we could work through this together." This is a statement that shows how you feel, while also giving a course of action- let's talk and work through this. It's a "safe" statement, so to speak. "I don't know what you expect me to do when you won't come home and you won't have an adult conversation about our marriage." That's the exact same sentence but it's dripping with judgement and blame. This is a very dangerous statement and his mind will key on that one line...he won't even register anything else on the page. It's why we can't JADE no matter what. While this is all his fault, saying that is counter-productive and only pushes him even further away. So get us started; we can go back and forth until we both feel like we have the right message. One other thing I'd point out here is to think out what you'll do if he doesn't react to this message. We don't want to say, "Come home or I'm filing for divorce"...that's too blunt. But we could say, "If you're not ready to come home, then I will try to get out of the apartment lease and move back to <wherever...I think you have another place already>". Can you see how that's putting the power in his hands? He comes home, you stay and work on the marriage. He doesn't come home, you're moving. And we can say that you'd prefer to work on the marriage, but it's ultimately up to him. Just let me know what you need! Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 20, 2025, 05:49:55 AM Thank you so much, these are really helpful for me. I have always struggled with these, but you have explained very nicely. It would be great if we could practise.
For example, "I am really struggling with being apart from you and I hope we could work through this together." This is a very good response. It puts the ball in his side totally. Two concerns arrises. One is of course like you mentioned, if he refuses But we could say, "If you're not ready to come home, then I will try to get out of the apartment lease and move back to <wherever...I think you have another place already>". He will be very happy if i say this, basically this is what he wants too. I have my parents home nearby, and he simply wants me to stay there and give up all these arrangements. This is his 'ego response'. Like a punishment. Like, "why did you choose this job in another city, i won't stay with you".. what he expects is for me to travel daily from out previous home which is 72kms from my workplace and requires multiple public transports, which are extremely crowded in my country. It's a near impossible task because I have long hours at the lab. I had alternatively suggested that we can both live in his parents home which is also nearby but he had refused to do that. And obviously he won't stay with my parents. What other alternative consequence can i put forward? All that's coming to my mind are sounding like threats. One is to take my things and move out from our previous place. Second is to propose separation. I feel these are the only things that are gonna shake him, otherwise he takes everything for granted so easily. Obviously that's my fault, for last 18yrs, i have always accepted everything and enabled him and never ever held him accountable for anything, never even stated my needs to him ever. 3rd option is simply to stop replying to anything. But for how long? There's a 2nd concern. Besides him coming back to this apartment, i also want him to stop insulting my parents all the time. These things are going on for last 1.5yrs..i simply cannot digest it anymore. He totally wanna stop coming to my parents house. However, there hasn't been any confrontation or arguments with my parents. They have seen me going thru hell with him, even then they are supportive and still loves him. They haven't even told him anything rude, doesn't even bring up any discussion about any problem. He's just afraid because he feels that he is now hated because of everything he has done to me (this is a distorted perception he has). But it is very difficult because we have some customs in our tradition where he is to be invited and it's very awkward for me to cut off all of it, i obviously have decreased all of it to just one or two days in whole year, but cutting it off totally is very embarrassing for me towards my parents. One of such tradition is very near too, 1st June, nd I don't know what to do. He and me we aren't talking, my mom really wants to invite him but I rudely forbade her to do so. She is really sad but has agreed. If i can include a response that can include this part too? Or maybe something like "you come back 1st, then we also need to discuss one or two aspects"... last msg where I mentioned discussion he simply said something like "there's nothing left to discuss, unless u work hard and change yourself, nothing is gonna change".. On giving this a second thought, the message I really wanna send across is that as a husband, he also needs to take up at least 2 to 3 responsibilities towards this relationship. I don't expect many, but say something. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 20, 2025, 05:55:02 AM *edit - i don't expect many, but atleast something.
Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 20, 2025, 11:34:12 AM Okay, we're already moving the needle some. The three main takeaways I'm getting here are:
1) Be nicer to my parents, and you must try harder to understand our cultural traditions 2) If we can't work through this, I'll move back to my parents home 3) I need a husband that's more present, more willing to work through things 4) We need to talk like adults or I'm going to file for separation. Now we need to flip these to "me statements" so they come off less judgmental. 1) My cultural upbringing means a lot to me. I want to honor those traditions w/ my family. 2) If you're sure you no longer want to live together, I'll make other housing arrangements. 3) I love you and want to work through this with you, without arguing or blaming each other. 4) I really hope we can talk this out soon. I don't want to start the separation process, but that's ultimately up to you to decide. How does that sound? Are we closer? Further off? And is there anything we missed? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 20, 2025, 07:18:19 PM hi losthope,
the two of you sound locked in a power struggle. i know that might sound, and feel, like an over-simplification. youre at your wits end, and you arent sure what to do, and nothing seems to help. trying to put all of these possibilities, and all of these issues, in a note that he can either take or leave, is going to have the same result youve gotten. its an attempt to be heard, when communication has already broken down. theres a lot to be resolved, if it is resolvable, when it comes to communication and conflict. but these things didnt start over night, and they wont end, or necessarily even make much progress, in one conversation, one note, one plea. Excerpt I feel he will reach out when he is back, on 26th May. Could you help me with the kind of response on my part? The last conversation totally ended in an impasse. To whatsoever I said, all he said was "everything is your fault". Even when i said, i am ready to change and accommodate even more, are you willing to do the same? He still said he has nothing to do, i am the only one at fault. To be honest, i am extremely tempted to mention separation and ultimate divorce. This might just feel like impulsively or an attempt to threaten. But to be honest, the things that have been happening for last 1.5yrs has now become too much for me to handle. Honestly, last year itself I repeatedly thought that if these goes on I will have to think of separation. Could you suggest me a non reactive way of stating this? like, it should not sound like threatening, but just that this is now too much for me to handle, so we should think of separation. if youre expecting him to reach out when hes back from his trip, is there anything that urgently needs to be said here and now? separation is an option, as is divorce. but what i would suggest is spending that time to help determine whether thats what you want to do, and, what you want to do in general. dont put it up for a vote; all anyone would hear is "i am so fed up with you, do you think we should separate?". if that is what you want to say, it would be far cleaner to say "i cant go back to the relationship as it is." to actually separate, and to mean it. otherwise, youd just be acting on an empty threat. if what you ultimately want to do is to repair the relationship, then know that it will require a lot of work; a lot of learning, practice, and a lot of unlearning as well. he does sound like a particularly difficult person, but the relationship itself is in a difficult place, in terms of how the two of you are communicating with each other. in other words, there is room for improvement here, but it wont be fast, it wont be easy, and it also wont be a guarantee. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 21, 2025, 01:32:17 PM @pook and @once removed,
thanks so so much for your insights. i can't explain how useful these are to me. @pook...your example responses and just amazing.. woww.. i really struggle with these kind of responses.. i have read the examples in the two books but i am still far from being able to frame these.. is there any way where i can learn these? any thread here, any article, any book? (i have read stop walking on eggshells and i hate you dont leave me) Your suggestion about the separation line is just on spot. After carefully thinking this thru, i figured that this is what i should say at the moment - - ie, communicate that i am thinking of separating in case we are unable to solve certain issues. This is much better than simply say 'i want separation' @once removed - you have very wisely put it. I really gave this deep thought. One part of me is desperately saying separation while other part still wants to work on things. Honestly, if the in-laws part of not there, i would confidently choose 'working on the relationship'.. but somehow, the complications due to the in-laws have totally thrown me off balance. But I still gave this very careful consideration and figured that the separation part is 40% while working on it is still 60%..in fact, two days back, i had drafted a goodbye message but after writing it, it totally broke me and filled me with emptiness. I think the line pook has suggested is the best for me now, to mention that separation is in my mind in case we don't figure out how to solve our issues (and this will be my honest truth too, I AM thinking of separation in case we can't solve, or at least agree to seek some solution) A bigger enlightenment i had from both your replies is that, what i actually need to focus on and propose to him is to communicate.. for that i need to learn to communicate effectively..the examples pook has given are very helpful.. let me consider them a bit more and discuss possible responses from him and how to deal with those.. sorry I am late sometimes, and sorry my posts are kind of messy, i really struggle with organising my thoughts in my head.. thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading them and responding.. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 21, 2025, 01:56:09 PM Or maybe there's a technique I can practise and use to frame these responses? I saw how @pook wrote the me versions 1st,which are exactly the version I m feeling and literally wanna shout them to his face. And then came the carefully framed ones which are assertive yet very kind to him.
Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 21, 2025, 08:39:23 PM Or maybe there's a technique I can practise and use to frame these responses? I saw how @pook wrote the me versions 1st,which are exactly the version I m feeling and literally wanna shout them to his face. And then came the carefully framed ones which are assertive yet very kind to him. So much of this is counter-intuitive because we're keeping in mind that the person we're talking to has self-esteem problems and takes EVERYTHING personally. Once they're in that emotional mindset, even seemingly innocent comments can have the exact opposite effect of what we were hoping for. With that said, there's no 'correct' way to say, "Come home and stop being a jerk." That's why this has to be about you. Remember, he relates to feelings since that's what drives him in life. If we say, "Why won't you come home?" That carries blame, and it causes guilt, shame, etc. that he has to process. But if we say the exact same thing and make it only about us, then he can process it differently. Instead of, "Why don't you come home?", we can say, "I feel alone and heartbroken without you here." It's the same sentiment, but one puts all the drama to the side and says what we actually feel. There's less chance of misinterpretation since it's so vulnerable. As Once Removed said, this has a high chance of backfiring. But so does saying nothing, or continuing the same arguments that you keep having. That's why this has to be about you and you alone. What do you want? How do you feel? What's in the way of allowing you to heal? What would give you more mental clarity? These aren't trick questions. They're so hard to answer though because you're in limbo right now, hoping for the best but expecting the worst. So you're torn and everything is harder. The way past that is focusing on what actually matters to you. Finishing out school- we know that's a non-negotiable. Solving the housing scenario- that's a big one too, and moving home could mean immediate support from family. What else outside the relationship actually matters? Health, work, fitness, hobbies, friends, faith? This is where your focus should be shifting towards. The more you "work on yourself" and find your new normal, the easier those "me statements" will come to you. And none of this means the relationship is over; it just means accepting that you're reaching the end of feeling stuck with no options forward. There's always options when it comes to putting ourselves first. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 21, 2025, 10:17:12 PM the complications due to the in-laws have totally thrown me off balance. it is definitely something to consider. there are a few big marriage killers. complications with the in-laws are one of them. fights over money is another. Excerpt working on it is still 60%.. then i would suggest putting all your eggs in that basket. dont expect it to be a guarantee. but to truly improve a marriage, you really have to be all in. you cant have one foot out the door, waiting on someone else to change. things will only deteriorate. Excerpt i need to learn to communicate effectively.. id recommend a few things, wholeheartedly. stop walking on eggshells is a very validating book. it tells us we arent alone, that theres a name for this stuff, it sympathizes and reminds us this isnt easy. but there is little in the way of how to improve a marriage, skills, or coping tools. grab yourself a copy of "stop caretaking the borderline or narcissist". stop caretaking gets into the things we do to contribute to the dysfunction. its about cleaning up our side of the street. you can find our review of it here: https://bpdfamily.com/book-reviews/stop-caretaking-borderline-or-narcissist also get yourself a copy of "loving someone with borderline personality disorder". this book is more about building an overall validating environment for your relationship, the kind that it needs to thrive. its "take your skills to the next level" kind of stuff. our review is here: https://bpdfamily.com/book-reviews/loving-someone-borderline-personality-disorder but if you want to dive in right now? everything you need is in a few different places: 1. the tools section at the top of the page. these are coping tools. they are more about managing yourself, your reactions. it begins with Wisemind. 2. the lessons at the top of board; theyre a sticky. its a crash course on everything. all of the resources geared toward improving a relationship are there. https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=347836.0 3. included within the lessons are some of our workshops, specific to those still in their relationships. the complete list of workshops is here: https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?board=36.0 the communication tools take practice. they take practice because, simply put, changing your approach to communication is awkward at first, and you, like most when we first try it, are likely to sound transparent; like youre talking down to him, or talking to him in a rehearsed sort of way. if that happens, dont mistake it for "not working"; keep practicing. but also, know that the communication techniques arent about speaking a magic language only people with bpd can hear; they are just plain ol communication skills, that you can start using with anyone in your life, immediately. you can work through them here, and get feedback, too. the key to them "working" is sincerity, learning to use them in a genuine, and natural way that sounds like you, the way you talk, in the context of your relationship. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 24, 2025, 03:11:36 PM Thank you Pook and Once Removed,
Your responses helps a lot. Thank you for you book suggestions, i grabbed a copy of stop caretaking and have started reading it. Next will go for loving someone with BPD. I am also looking into the resources you linked. I see both of yours emphasis on myself, my wellbeing, rather than directing it towards him. It's rational and the books also suggest it. That's why this has to be about you and you alone. What do you want? How do you feel? What's in the way of allowing you to heal? What would give you more mental clarity? These aren't trick questions. They're so hard to answer though because you're in limbo right now, hoping for the best but expecting the worst. So you're torn and everything is harder. This really made me wonder. After a lot of cross thoughts in the last 2-3days, i figured that simply pushing him to move back in will only address a surface level issue. Also, I am so hurt at this point, that I am no more feeling the urge to 'force' him to move in. I am at my parents now, and honestly it's the best place for me now, regarding my mental and physical health. Even though I drafted two msgs asking him move in (based on the examples pook gave), and thought of sharing those here and but now i don't at all feel like sending them. Rather I am now feeling like sending him something like this: I am hurt and broken with everything that has happened. We are at an impasse. I don't know where we go from here. Or I am hurt and broken with everything that has happened between us. We are at an impasse. I don't know where we go from here. Does this sound okay? which one? The expected response to this will be: We can never break out of the impasse unless you change your behaviour and accept the damages you have done, otherwise nothing will change. (I based this on his last response where he repeatedly said these :"unless you change ur behavior, nothing will change, you have done all the damage to the relationship, i am a sufferer" ) What can be a possible reply to this? He will be back on 26th and I am expecting some text from him. If he doesn't reach out, I won't too at the moment, it's too much for me to handle currently. Parallely, I am searching for therapists who treats BPD via DBT and can also support family members. When i manage to find one that is good enough and affordable, I will first start with myself(DBT can possibly be helpful for me too) and then try to see if I can suggest him couple's therapy like pook had mentioned before. In this way he doesn't need to feel like 'therapy for his illness' but rather for both of us as couple. What are your experiences regarding therapy? How did you find a suitable therapist for your near one? If its not suitable, the BPD might totally flip out and also refuse therapy in future, right? Thanks so much for your continued support. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 24, 2025, 03:15:20 PM clarification : he has gone on a trip now so we didn't talk or text for last 12 days. he'll be back on 26th. i am expecting that he will reach out when he's back.
Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 24, 2025, 06:40:17 PM I am hurt and broken with everything that has happened. We are at an impasse. I don't know where we go from here. Or I am hurt and broken with everything that has happened between us. We are at an impasse. I don't know where we go from here. think it through. what is the purpose of what youre communicating? what are you hoping to achieve? the two messages are not materially different. they are both saying, essentially: "i dont know what to do. do you?" or "things are bad; change them". you are right to expect that he will counter with "no, you change them". that is the sort of exchange thats characterized the conflict style between the two of you in the past. why do more of that? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 24, 2025, 11:17:08 PM umm it feels like he doesn't even know or understand that I am so broken. In one of the msgs in the last conversation, he wrote "if I have done something you can tell me, i dont know".. obviously when i told them, he flipped out..
by this msg, i want to let him know that i am very broken mentally..i what him to ask something like "ok then what do you want?" To this i want to suggest that our conversation has broken down and we need to have proper conversation (and later on couples therapy) .. via this proper conversation, i want to use the statements pook mentioned.. assertive sentences about my most basic nd immediate needs.. what do you think?? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 25, 2025, 12:03:51 AM Also, for the 1st time in ever, i am able to detach from him.. i don't feel strong urge to "make everything ok" by sending cute emojis...i feel safe here at my parents..obviously still my mind in working 24x7 to "figure it all out", but still i am quite happy and surprised that i am able to do this kind of detachment.. it never happened before.. for initial two weeks i was still feeling "he should move back in or the world will end".. from last 1 week, i have kind of accepted it.. trying to see this break as an opportunity to make things different, if possible..
Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 25, 2025, 09:52:19 AM but what is he supposed to do with the statement "i am broken"?
fix you? dont expect him to read your mind or intuit your needs. speak them clearly. Excerpt assertive sentences about my most basic and immediate needs.. then why not just do that? having said that, it may not be the best launching point, or the best opportunity for it. sometimes its better to listen first, and when we do, and the other person feels "heard", its often easier for the other person to "hear" us. hes coming back tomorrow, right? and youre expecting that he will communicate with you, correct? why preempt that? why not just wait and see what he says, and go from there? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 25, 2025, 11:16:34 AM i wasn't going to text this first.. he is coming back tomorrow and i am expecting that he will reach back..and he will be most certainly very neutral, like nothing's happened.. when he moved out, he reached back via text as if nothing happened.. when i tried to bring that conversation to something serious, he got angry and raged.. then again next day he reached back as if nothing has happened.. like i am supposed to be absolutely fine with everything and we will continue talking over msgs and phone in cuddly voice and sweet talk like nothing's happened..so i was thinking, if he texts or calls, he will almost certainly say something like "hey howz u,what's up" in casual tone,then will reply back with that msg..
but ya maybe just be more direct.. i don't know what or how.. any need i say now will only be a temporary step.. the core issue, that we have become disfunctional, will still remain unless both of us agree to work on it..and he is not even ready to talk about anything.. i don't know really what to do.. maybe ask him to work on our communication.. but he still just feels everything is my fault and he has done nothing and he owes no responsibility and that i need to change..sorry i am thinking out loud.. maybe i don't reply at all since i myself am too broken to handle everything at this moment.. but that might just make him angry.. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 25, 2025, 01:03:43 PM if im reading you correctly, then what youre essentially saying is you want to stage a confrontation. to let him know that youre unhappy, and something needs to change, and that something includes him.
do i have that right? if so, that is one option. there are more diplomatic ways of going about it (where youre more likely to be heard), and less diplomatic ways of going about it. SET works best for that kind of circumstance. SET takes a lot of practice. it is one of the most effective tools, but also one of the easiest to get wrong. you can get lots of practice and feedback here. another option though, is to take a longer term, big picture approach. the problems didnt start over night. they wont be solved over night. they wont be solved in one conversation. confronting him with "i am unhappy and something needs to change" is a valid option, if you are at your wits end, and you are ready to walk away from the relationship. it is not an approach that, at this point, is likely to have a high success rate. Excerpt he will be most certainly very neutral, like nothing's happened youre hurt over what happened. you want things to change. you dont have to stifle that hurt, but you can hit pause on it. you dont have to act on it now, or confront him about it. you could, instead, take the bigger picture approach. break the relationship issues down into bite size chunks. keep learning, and practicing, your skills and tools. see where you can realistically find improvement and head way on particular issues, without staging an argument about them. because if you can do that, tension will drop, things will get better, and youll have created an environment where you have momentum that you can then build on. if you cant get any improvement anywhere, on anything? then that tells you that realistically, there isnt hope for change, and youll know in your heart what to do, and youll be ready. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 25, 2025, 01:40:53 PM yes yes absolutely, you got this right..
Thank you so so much for the suggestions.. i have read about SET in Kreisman's book, but i find it so hard to apply in real life context.. could you help me apply this in this context??.. Also could you help me with example about the big picture method? i don't know this very well.. how do i apply this?? i would like to learn and practice.. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 25, 2025, 02:28:53 PM i have read about SET in Kreisman's book, but i find it so hard to apply in real life context.. it can be practically difficult to apply in real life, because it is a structure/format that tends to lend itself to, and be best for lots of words. in a real life situation, it isnt always the time or place for lots of words. you would need to narrow it down. you also tend to need a captive audience (someone who is listening), and you dont necessarily have that. in other words, i think it would do you well to learn it and practice it, to the point where it becomes natural. trying it for your first time in a high-stakes situation is likely to go badly. this, i think, is a better place to start: https://bpdfamily.com/content/ending-conflict but our SET workshop is here: https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=143695.0 Excerpt the big picture the big picture is all of the things about both of you that contribute to the dysfunction in the relationship, and your style of conflict. it is, at this point, likely somewhat ingrained; not that it cant change, but that it will take work, trial and error, etc. it will take patience. its what i was talking about when i said if youre leaning toward staying, then put all of your eggs in that basket, be committed to it, but dont expect it to change over night. another way of saying it is "play the long game". list (either in your head, or here, or both) all of the problems in the relationship as you see them. pick one (we can help). pick a low hanging fruit, something that you think would be the easiest to resolve, or at least get to a more tolerable point, with or without his help. in other words, rather than confronting him with "somethings gotta give", instead, take an incremental approach to reducing conflict, rather than trying to solve it all at once, or putting it all on the table. its too much to get a handle on and you dont have cooperation. little improvements reduce tension, increase harmony, and they give you momentum, trust, cooperation, to push for bigger improvements. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 25, 2025, 02:58:29 PM the big picture is all of the things about both of you that contribute to the dysfunction in the relationship, and your style of conflict. it is, at this point, likely somewhat ingrained; not that it cant change, but that it will take work, trial and error, etc. it will take patience. its what i was talking about when i said if youre leaning toward staying, then put all of your eggs in that basket, be committed to it, but dont expect it to change over night. another way of saying it is "play the long game". list (either in your head, or here, or both) all of the problems in the relationship as you see them. pick one (we can help). pick a low hanging fruit, something that you think would be the easiest to resolve, or at least get to a more tolerable point, with or without his help. in other words, rather than confronting him with "somethings gotta give", instead, take an incremental approach to reducing conflict, rather than trying to solve it all at once, or putting it all on the table. its too much to get a handle on and you dont have cooperation. little improvements reduce tension, increase harmony, and they give you momentum, trust, cooperation, to push for bigger improvements. okayy sounds interesting.. would be difficult but let me try my best.. the first step is to list the issues we face??like for example, he always insults my family which is very difficult for me, he refuses to communicate at all regarding any issue, i have difficulty maintaining time and this enrages him..is it something like this?? if so, i will think more clearly and come up with such a list.. Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 25, 2025, 07:29:30 PM Excerpt he always insults my family which is very difficult for me thats a good one. i know the family issues run pretty deep. its a problem that there might be immediate solutions for, that wont necessarily require a great deal of "work" to change. can you give an example, or examples, of him insulting your family? what is his issue with them? how do the conversations go? what are the sorts of things he typically says about them? what do you say in response? Excerpt i have difficulty maintaining time and this enrages him everyone has things about them, big or small, that may irritate a partner, more or less. it never hurts to work on them, and it leads by example. but dont "maintain time" simply to appease his rage. the point isnt to contort to please him. if its something you want to improve, tie it to your values, and the ways it might improve your life. what does difficulty maintaining time look like for you? Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: losthope1234 on May 26, 2025, 10:25:12 AM okayy i see, i understand what you are suggesting.. this maybe very helpful for me too, to quantitatively see the particular issues that we are facing... i will take some time and think carefully and make a whole list.. then we can prioritise them.. just give me a little time..
in the meantime, if he texts me something casual, like "how are you doing?" what should be my answer? .. honest answer is "i am not doing well".. but what should i reply? i really don't feel like doing small talks with him or the "sweet talk" for that matter... Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: once removed on May 26, 2025, 02:15:04 PM i will take some time and think carefully and make a whole list.. then we can prioritise them.. just give me a little time.. sure, take your time. youve got the right idea. it doesnt necessarily have to be the issues as he sees them, or even issues that both of you are contributing to (though both are a helpful perspective to have). just the major and minor complaints you have with the relationship is a great start, for us, and for you, to break down in bite size pieces. in the meantime, if he texts me something casual, like "how are you doing?" what should be my answer? .. honest answer is "i am not doing well".. but what should i reply? i really don't feel like doing small talks with him or the "sweet talk" for that matter... honesty is important. you want to be true to yourself. you could say "how am i doing? im miserable because of the way you treated me, you jerk." that would be honest at some level, too, right? but you know instinctively that it wouldnt be constructive. some excerpts from the lesson on ending conflict to consider: Excerpt https://bpdfamily.com/content/ending-conflict Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse. Someone has to be first. This means generating the motivation to stop making things worse, learning how to interrupt your own negative responses, and learning how to inhibit your urges to do things that you later realize are destructive to the relationship. Make a Commitment to Stop Making it Worse The first step is commitment. By definition, when you are out of control (throwing the proverbial fuel on the fire), you are not using logic (or any other helpful process) enough. Commitment means practicing alternative reactions ahead of time until they become automatic. Then, as you start to become out of control, this new automatic behavior appears. In a way, commitment gives you self-control. In situations of high negative emotion, when it is harder to do the new behavior, you are likely to think, "I don't really care about that now". In this emotional state, you fail to see the consequences of your actions. So, you need to get to a balanced place in your mind in which you are broadly aware of your real relationship goals and not just your painful emotion of the moment. It is important to practice now, so you can get there in situations of duress. Stepping Out Is Not Surrender Maybe you now are thinking, "It's surrender to be attacked, and not to attack back!" Well, refusing to continue to fight to the death (of your relationship) is hardly surrendering. Rather; if defeating your partner is also self-defeating; then stopping the fight is both showing the courage to do what is needed to survive and the courage to engage in self- preservation. You can get yourself out of "win- lose" thinking (which really means "lose-lose") and into recognizing that not attacking is a win-win-win situation: you preserve your self- respect and your relationship and your partner emerges less trampled. Nobody loses. If you think that stopping is surrender; you will likely feel ashamed; for we are typically taught to "stand up for what is right;" But; when you realize that stopping requires courage; conviction; and skills; and will lead to a better life for everyone involved; you will see that shame is not justified. Anticipate Your Impulsiveness Even if you are highly committed to stop making things worse in conflict situations; you still need to practice a host of skills needed to stop. When we are in the middle of enduring a verbal attack from someone else; our own reaction feels impulsive; like an unpredictable and overbearing urge. However; realistically; a lot of these situations are quite predictable. How many times have you had that fight? How many times has your partner said that particular hurtful and provocative thing? Look descriptively at previous problems: what did your partner do that resulted in your emotions going through the roof to the point where you had urges to retaliate? We will call those things triggers because they trigger your response. Rehearse a New emotional response Once you have identified typical triggers; you can anticipate that your partner will do them again. The more aware you are of the triggers; the less potent they will be. In a way; every time you imagine your partner saying that trigger and imagine that you respond in a kind way (or; at least; not in kind); you are reconditioning the trigger because you are changing the cycle. The effective thing to do is anything that brings your arousal down and helps you respond differently. There are many strategies for tolerating distress in dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) that might be helpful in these situations. For example; you can distract yourself away from the argument by doing something else (take a walk; read; engage in other activities that are physically active ones or relaxing ones); look for spiritual soothing (say a little prayer; remember your values); do something soothing to your senses (listen to quiet music; eat comfort food; read a pleasant story or poem); or do something social (call a friend; send an e-mail). Some of these things you can do quickly. Others you will simply have to plan to do after successfully ending the interaction without responding negatively. Once you have identified the typical triggers and also identified more helpful alternatives; you can put them together. Imagine a trigger; Imagine remembering your goal (not to make things worse; that you love this person; that responding in a negative way just keeps the negative cycle going); and imagine responding in a self- respecting and respectful way. Of course, whatever you say needs to be in your own words, but the essence of an effective response is staying reasonably calm and describing something about your genuine goals and feelings rather than telling the other person what she or he is doing wrong. ... The difference between this example and visualizing the negative consequences of giving in is that the former uses your motivation to avoid negative consequences, whereas this one uses your motivation to achieve positive ones. Both can work rather well in the moment. This is not surrender Rather, this is an example of a couple working together - they both agree to work on these issues independently and together - there is no intimidating mention of BPD vs Non-BPD – it’s just two people building a bridge and ending the unhealthy cycle as a first step. From there they can look to more substantive work. You can do this and still analyze if you want to stay or leave the relationship. These are basic tools to stop the bleeding in your household. with that in mind, visualize using whatever he says as an opportunity, not to fight, but to repair. "how are you doing" is a commonplace question that people rarely if ever answer directly or with full, lay it out in the open honesty. it is an ice breaker. you can honestly, in a true to yourself way, choose to let it break the ice, or you can respond to it with ice. you neither have to let him have it (start, or escalate conflict) nor tell him what an angel he is (roll over). Title: Re: He has threatened to move out Post by: Pook075 on May 27, 2025, 02:09:07 AM This really made me wonder. After a lot of cross thoughts in the last 2-3days, i figured that simply pushing him to move back in will only address a surface level issue. Also, I am so hurt at this point, that I am no more feeling the urge to 'force' him to move in. I am at my parents now, and honestly it's the best place for me now, regarding my mental and physical health. Writing a letter isn't always about sending a letter. In this case, you arrived to a healthy conclusion without his interaction at all- you feel safer and better supported with mom and dad. So we've cleared one hurdle and there's no reason to second-guess that anymore. Unless something abruptly changes, you're better off at home. Even though I drafted two msgs asking him move in (based on the examples pook gave), and thought of sharing those here and but now i don't at all feel like sending them. Rather I am now feeling like sending him something like this: I am hurt and broken with everything that has happened. We are at an impasse. I don't know where we go from here. Or I am hurt and broken with everything that has happened between us. We are at an impasse. I don't know where we go from here. Does this sound okay? which one? The expected response to this will be: I agree that both statements are the same, and there's not an advantage one way or the other. I also agree that you need to be more direct in terms of what you're feeling for specific challenges. However, when you got to his expected response, you sort of lost me there. If you know what he's going to say and it's not going to be productive, then why say it at all? The goal here is not to argue and it's not to win points- it's to decide whether or not the relationship can be turned into something positive. For that reason alone, every question needs to be about what you're specifically struggling with. 1) He won't come home 2) He doesn't respect your parents or your traditions 3) He won't take responsibility 4) He's quick to blame you for everything For #1, he won't come home and you've decided that you won't either...so problem solved. Living together is off the table for now because that's not what's best for you. For #2, you've tried having that conversation several times and he dismissed it. Is that acceptable to you or not? Again, this is about you and you alone. If this isn't okay (and I know it's not), then what can you do differently that you haven't already tried? For #'s 3 and 4, they sort of go together since he believes that everything is your fault, not his. This is a classic BPD struggle at the heart of all the other issues. Can you accept returning to the relationship on these terms? Or is it something that needs to be worked through beforehand? Again, I'm challenging you to do some soul-searching just like you did with the housing arrangements. For #1, you chose you...and that's fantastic progress. Why? Because it's no longer something you have to argue about, or even think about. You fixed it all by yourself and took that option off the table. Living together is going to require different arrangements, and you're not sitting back waiting on that anymore. Bravo! |