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Hi,

So I posted probably a couple months ago explaining my situation with my ex friend/intimate partner. Essentially we were really close after being friends at first. We hung out all the time at college and hooked up multiple times but she was always scared of doing too much. And when I told her I liked her she said we had to stop. But we were still friends for a couple months until I said I needed a couple weeks because being around her just as a friend was hurting me mostly because I knew why she wanted to be friends which was her fears and bpd. She always said she didn’t love me but her actions said otherwise. I was the person who comforted her when she needed it and she was mine as well. Then at a student dean meeting she set up she said I scared her and sexualized her and gave her nightmares and said she wanted no contact.  Now about a month ago, four months into the split, she unblocked me on Instagram but then quickly reblocked me. There is a chance two weeks ago she did it again but I’m not really sure. She just came back to college, which I graduated in May but I live five minutes from campus and a close friend of hers is leaving to go abroad. Is the unblock a sign that she wants to come back or is it just random stuff that means nothing? It’s really hard because I love her and I know a split could happen again but I need to try at least one more time. Also she has been in therapy for years about bpd and is very aware she has it and knows about it.