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Title: I want courage and strength to care for myself too Post by: JsMom on November 24, 2025, 09:05:15 PM Hi, My son turned 45 yesterday.- this has been a long painful road and I have been trying to do, say, buy, help, sacrifice, love .... my adult son to a better place emotionally. I'm tired and my anxiety is over the top. I'm scared to set limits, I'm scared of how far he'll fall, scared of his raging at me. Feeling guilty that I've failed him. Sometimes I feel manipulated but I'm not sure. I've been in a spin cycle and a part of me really wants off. As far as I know my son hasn't been officially diagnosed with bpd but he fits many of the criteria. He is in intense pain and talks suicide more than I want to hear. He's seen therapists off and on over the years. He spent 2 weeks in a facility after a suicide threat after a divorce. He blames me for that stay. He says he was fine. Anyway, thank you all for being here. I'm sorry you've lived this. I don't burden sisters and other family talking about this. I think it's too much for people. It feels too much for me too. BTW, he isn't in treatment, I've recently started therapy. Thank you
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