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Hello. I'm in love with a woman. We dated in highschool and things ended. It wasn't a crazy ending or anything we just grew apart it was a short and sweet relationship. Well fast forward to the present (16 years later and 5 months ago) she came back into my Life. And like a hurricane it was new, exciting, beautiful I was completely smitten. I fell in love fast. This woman is super intelligent, funny, smart, kind, I could go on for hours about the reasons I fell in love with her. But here we are five months later. I am so sure of our relationship and that scares her or makes her uncomfortable I'm not sure which. And sometimes she returns that sentiment and then others she doesn't. She can never make her mind up and always seems so unsure (not just with our relationship). Well we broke up 2 months ago. And I couldn't just let her go. We talked and eventually we reconciled. And some not so great stuff has happened since. And I feel like part of her was acting out just to try to push me away. But we worked through it and are trying to be together again. But those ideas, those feelings of uncertainty still plague her. I support her and go into every scenario with patience and understanding. But truthfully I'm exhausted. I'm so tired of feeling like this. Feeling defeated, feeling like I'm never the choice, the feeling of instability. I love her dearly and just want us to be happy and healthy but her indecision is weighing on me greatly. I don't know why I have decided to post on here. Maybe I'm looking for advice. Maybe I'm hoping someone in the same scenario has some kind words or maybe the ability to help. I don't know. But I do know I love and accept her and don't want to give up on us. Send help!