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After are last fall out he went from saying he was getting one to saying he wasn't... .the next day police served me the order.  It was for sending texts and he brought up two instances months ago where I stopped by his house after he tried to break up, he invited me in both times.
I got a PO on his as he has guns and I felt his behaviour was becoming very scary and he even said he would blow his head off.
He really hurt me during the breakup via phone so imlashed back and said some nasty things.
To make a long story short in court he wanted to drop the orders his atty replayed a msg the x felt terrible for the breakup and only did so because he has slow self esteem and felt I deserve better.   We had that extended and I got an attorney... next court date, he would not agree to sixth months protection, Andy this time only wanted a month.
I'm gathering he is afraid as I threatened to report him to his job as he's my letter carrier and would use work time to dump me, enter my home etc.  in the past I threatened this and he shrugged it off... .this time it was an issue.

After six hours in court the judge made the attorneys tell both sides that its four months or both might be dropped. 
The x looked scared in court, and now has all his guns removed supposedly.
I'm not sure if I've been painted black or not.
I just find it odd that so far he has not broken the order or contacted me.
I regret the things I said about getting him reported... .I do not regret msg his mother that he threatened to kill himself. 
I'm sure he's happy now in his room where he feels he belongs all alone on 2nd life.  I was trying to help him break back out into life as he went reclusive six years ago... he felt he is too far gone as he has no connection or emotions at all.

He was in therapy last we talked but only went to one appointment... in most of my texts I told him to please get help as he is declining rapidly.

I'm amazed she can still goto work everyday as he literally is falling apart. 

My family thinks he will contact me once the order is lifted in July... .I just dunno.
I miss him everyday , and just wish this could have been different, maybe if I wasn't under so much stress when he broke up I would have said let's talk this out... .or maybe he's right and he should be alone forever. 

I think he's mostly been treated for depression...   I wish I knew why I feel such a storm pull towards him... .I think it's what he calls the female persona, that is so nice to be around and I shared with him stuff I could never discuss with anyone... .I felt safe with him in many ways.