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After a three month infatuation phase our first breakup took three months after moving in. She had gone through all my fb and decided I kn,y liked blonde Barbie dolls and that she couldn't believe that she was married to a man that would be attracted to a woman like that. Meanwhile she is the most natuarally beautiful woman brunette with blue eyes that I have ever seen. We go to a pool party and she gets drunk and sits on an old boy friends lap crying that I don't love her she's not my type and I will leave her as soon as my daughter is old enough. This not being my type become the argument dujore for the next two months. I start emotionally disengaging and feeling smothered and engulfed. It also feels just like the end of my 22 year marriage is happpening all over again. I feel she has already lined up the replacement (she has) but it's. Y fault for breaking her heart. I finally tell her I can't take this and I need to move out but at the same time I don't want to loose her. I move out and I tell her I want to date I want to make this work. Within two weeks she has been through on relationship and is on the second.
I try and diesenage but, we begin the recycle phase with me professing my love and that I can do better blah blah blah. And that is really how I feel. When the fighting stops all I remember are the good times and think we can have those again.