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I was diagnosed with BPD over 2 years ago, after suffering with a break down at home. Cause of my break down was the poor relationship I had with my wife, for several years. I felt like I had no worth and couldn't function as a person. After having time off work and attending DBT therapy course for several months, I returned to full time work. But no matter what skills I use, I keep breaking the relationship I crave for with my wife. We've seen many councilors for our relationship, but never really managed to make the good times last, before I revert to my BPD bad side. Life has led me to a place where my wife says she doesn't have time or understanding anymore for my BPD. I've told her that we should end the relationship, as I just can't be the person she wants/needs. But deep down I don't want that, it's just I don't see anything else that we can do to make life better for both of us. I'm scared to stay and scared to leave. 14 years with my wife, knowing that I am the reason that the relationship is broken, is soul destroying.
I don't really talk about my emotions, which I know is a major problem. But I needed to find somewhere to talk and hopefully not be judged too harshly.

Hello Budgie

I am very sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you right now, but it is great to see you reaching out for help and support - a very brave and scary thing to do!

This site is a support group for those who are or were in a relationship with a person with BPD, so many of the posts can be triggering to a BPD sufferer. There are resources of the type you're seeking. Please check out Resources for BPD Sufferers (https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.html).

Learning new skills through DBT can take time to master, small gentle steps work and I encourage you to continue your investment in DBT.

I wish you well on your journey.

WDx