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Just need some outside eyes/ears to let me know if im mad and what to do. Its such a long complicated story (arent they all!) So ill try condense it.

Met 6 months ago. She was like no one i had ever met. Instantly feel for her. As far as to say it was love at first sight

Was extremely intense. But hot and cold. Upset i didnt ask her to be in a relationship. Then would end it a few weeks in as she wasnt ready. Later found out she was also seeing another girl. When they fell out she came to me. When we fell out she went to her.

Found out and ended it completely. Blocked her on everything. Sent her a letter saying i think she sufrered from bi polar as she kept ringing me saying she hated herself for how she treated me and wanted to kill herself

She got back in contact. Wanted me to go doctors with her. I said i would. Doctor diagnosed her with BPD within 20 minutes. Further appointment with another doctor confirmed this. She started taking meds

She then pushed to move in with me and my daughter. I let her as she was taking the meds and eas more balanced. Bad move. It was a nightmare. She made me redecorate everywhere and was so demanding. Starting skipping meds. Moods swings started again. Then crying she wanted to die. Sex was non existent. If we did it was all about her. She barely touched me. Made me feel disgusting. She always wanted to finish herself off as well

We rowed. I said i couldnt deal with it all. I was angry. 2 days later she had found somewhere else and was moving out. A different city. An hour away. We even ended up having a physical fight! She started it.

That was 5 weeks ago... .since then we have spoken on and off. Ive tried NC but we get to about 5 days and she rings me off a different number (shes blocked). There has been other girls since. She said. Before me she met random girls online for sex. Hence why i had such an issue with our non existence sex life. She talked the talk. Didnt walk the walk.

So 2 weeks ago we meet and go to the gym together. Ended up spending 2 good days together. She was flirty and touchy feely. Couple of days later she tells me shes met someone online. She really likes her and they talk for hours and hours. Said shes going to meet her that weekend. She loves 3 hours from her and is about 15 years older. I cant handle that and block her again. Go 6 days before she starts calling off a withheld number. I answer because im weak. She tells me she needs the rest of the stuff from my house. There is nothing! She starts mentioning random rubbish she left because she didnt want. All of a sudden they are sentimental. Told her ive skipped it all and hang up.

Next day she calls. We have a storage unit. Its in my name with her stuff in. I had handed in the notice to cut the final cord. She rang to tell me she had called them pretending to be me and cancelled the notice for a month. I went mad. Said i dont want that as i dont want her to have a reason to contact me again. She starts screaming at me. High pitched screaming. That im being vicious because i have stalked her and know shes in a relationship now. That hit me like a ton of bricks. Pretended i wasnt bothered. We argued more. She told me to slit my wrists and die a slow painful death. End convo

Told some friends. They believe shes making up excuses to see me. Talk to me. She never puts anything on her facebook about girls and shes done this a week after talking to the new one. The day she met her. Everyone thinks shes done this hoping i would see it and fight for her. And because i hadnt she rang to tell me to make sure.

Im split right now. I dont know what the hell i do. Is this why shes doing it? For me to fight for her?  Im not about to message her and make myself look stupid. But then why do i want her back so much?

She has no one where she lives. Her family are 4 hours away and tell her she doesnt have BPD. Nothing's wrong with her. All her friends are girls shes had one night stands with and most have left her as they cant handle her. Shes alone and no one will help her.

Or am i just wishing this was the case. 3 weeks after she left she arranged lunch with my friend. Sue invited me and i went. It was like we had never split. Everything was so good. The next day she told me she had slept with the girl she had cheated on me with at the start. I just dont underatand any of this!