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Title: Help for the non borderline Post by: Borderlinejoe on June 21, 2017, 11:12:44 PM I am currently in an 8 year relationship with a borderline. Of course I can't tell him that. I'm in so deep I have to leave while there is anything left of me. Before I become him. I'm so lost I don't know where to begin. My family doesn't understand. I need help. Serious help. If I didn't I would have left long ago. I'm scared I've become dependent on him and accepting the behavoir just to avoid the consequences of hell. Which is a daily basis since last december. When a met the real person I believed to be in love with. This person has anything but love. I'm in a prison with no bars and he knows I want to leave. He has taken the car keys and stays outside the bedroom door watching and waiting for my every move. It's like he don't sleep, even if he is snoring and I tiptoe he wakes. And he has me so twisted I feel like I can't abandon him. I have to save myself for fear I will become him
Title: Re: Help for the non borderline Post by: Panda39 on June 22, 2017, 07:07:58 AM Hi Borderlinejoe,
Welcome to the BPD Family I'm sorry you have been feeling so isolated and not understood by your family It is scary to feel trapped and like you are losing who you are. But you are still in there, you posting here and sharing some of your story and your concerns show that there is a part of you that is in there fighting. It sounds to me like this relationship has become abusive... .isolating you is a form of abuse, stalking you in your own home is abuse, not allowing you to leave (taking the car keys) is abuse. Below is a thread on DV how much of this are you experiencing? https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=61403.0 I'm scared I've become dependent on him and accepting the behavior just to avoid the consequences of hell. . And he has me so twisted I feel like I can't abandon him. People with BPD oftion use FOG (Fear, Obligation, Guilt) or emotional blackmail in order to try and control people and situations that sounds like something that is going on with you too. Below are a couple of links to more information on FOG... . https://bpdfamily.com/content/emotional-blackmail-fear-obligation-and-guilt-fog https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=82926.0 Do you work? Is there a time when you are away from him that you could contact your local Domestic Violence hotline/center just to talk with someone? I'm glad you've found us and decided to post the members here are great for support, ideas, and a listening ear. I know others will be along soon, please take care and be safe Panda39 |