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Title: Healthy balance Post by: No1important on June 23, 2017, 04:17:18 AM Hello guys. It's almost 6 months of my NC after b/u with my uBPDexgf. Today it's her bday and I was wondering if I should wish her happy bday. I was weak enough to look at her fb page where of course tons of sweet wishes to her and stuff. I decided not to because first, it would be my attempt to get her attention, second she may use me to make her current bf jelly. And here thinking came. She used her exbf once to make me jelly when our rs was on the rocks, said he contacted her and to make long story short was her savior. I dont wanna be used that way, or to break NC I started. But to the point. I'm in that place where I'm blaming myself for failure, sometimes countering it with "but she did that and that, she wasnt ok aswell". My question is, how do I find healthy balance in it instead of playing blame game in my mind? How does it feel?
Title: Re: Healthy balance Post by: roberto516 on June 23, 2017, 06:16:47 AM I'm in that place where I'm blaming myself for failure, sometimes countering it with "but she did that and that, she wasnt ok aswell". My question is, how do I find healthy balance in it instead of playing blame game in my mind? How does it feel? That is the start of you finding the healthy balance. Being able to practice the "wise mind" which there is a great article on here. It's just going to take practice. It won't be an overnight change. But rest assured, your example above shows that you are getting to the place of a healthy balance. I believe one day there will be a time when you think those things but don't have such an emotional charge or feeling to it. It will just be what it was and that will be okay. Congrats on 6 months NC. Honestly, I don't think I'll ever wish my ex a happy birthday. It would serve no purpose other than to hurt me. |