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So my wife is mad at me. I have not been allowed to touch her (literally not even a hand on her shoulder) for a month. She's been sleeping in another room. Today she spent a great deal of time telling me how bad I was (referencing a time over a year ago). This is what happened next:

DH: "What are you trying to prove here?"
DHw: "I'm trying to prove that you're despicable"
DH (Shocked that she would actually admit it): "That doesn't seem very compatible with trying to make things work between us."

I leave and the texting starts. Clearly, she's upset, but I'm not about to validate her statements about me and I have not been successful at validating her feelings and having the rage subside. She needs her pound of flesh. I have no more to give. Not sure I'm doing this right.

First of all... .    

When someone is out to "prove" you are bad... .there is really no right or wrong... .there is less bad or perhaps "more effective" ways to do it.

Big picture:  It's not a court case... .if you "prove" yourself good... .it is actually counterproductive. 

Perhaps you can "listen" a bit and then kick the can down the road.

You are trying to "problem solve" with someone that has about zero problem solving skills (when it comes to emotions)... .

Self care is the number 1 goal here.  Let your wife feel what she feels and do what she does... even it she does it quite badly... .she will... trust me. 

No fixing or "clean up" on your part.

You are "right" about not giving another pound of flesh... .or even an oz.  Let her be mad... or "want" to argue... .your choice is to not engage.  "Leave the issue on the floor".

As long as you don't pick it up... .you have mostly done your job.

Listen... .before I give much more specific advice.  I need to know whats up.  What is she mad about?

FF

I'd like to point out the good and the bad (on your side) here. [The bad on your wife's side is so obvious I'm not going to mention it!]

|iiii That is actually a decent question. It is a bit provocative, but it is also a bit validating--you are at least showing genuine interest in her, her thoughts, and her feelings.
Ugh. That is hard to hear. But it was a baby step in the right direction--she was telling you something about her real feelings. It was a tiny bit vulnerable and honest with you... .and also is waaaaaay more open than a month of not letting you even touch her.

This is a really hard statement to validate, but if you succeed, it could thaw a lot of ice. Think about she is feeling when she says that, and remember that her FEELINGS are valid. Even if her actions aren't valid.

That she feels you are despicable is a valid feeling. Or perhaps that she feels you hurt her, or is afraid you will say something to hurt her which might be closer to the target is valid. The conclusions she jumps to aren't valid--that she has to 'prove' it by treating you badly, or that you 'deserve' the punishment.

So for the future if she says something like that, think about what the valid feelings behind it are and whether you can validate them. Or perhaps you can ask her more about them, which is also validating. Here are a few things to consider:

"What do you feel I've done that is despicable?"

"You sound angry with me... ."

"You sound really upset with me."

And remember--sincerity matters. If you are feeling hurt and defensive and falsely accused, that will come through non-verbally and it won't be validating.

Only ask these questions if you can find a sincere curiosity about what she is feeling that you are asking about--and are ready to keep directing the conversation back to her (genuine, valid) feelings, and away from her (abusive, likely imagined/fabricated, or projected) judgments and conclusions about you.


Unfortunately, this response went the wrong direction. Completely invalidating.

Technically, you are telling her that her actions (proving you are despicable) are wrong for the goal (trying to make things work). And that is completely true and completely correct.

But what she heard was that her feelings are wrong. Pure invalidation.

Yup, it set her off... .and you are correct--there's nothing to do now but wait for this round of rage to burn off. No point trying to validate anything more NOW.

You got that part right. Cut your losses for now.