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Title: anguishing and missing her, scared of finding out that she was cheating Post by: glassman222 on July 15, 2017, 08:15:13 PM 2 days ago, I made the decision to lie to get out of a date we had to attend an aa meeting together. I did this because I realized that I couldnt stick around to help her and be a friend... .she was bound and determined to get me to further committ and purchace a 2k ring from costco.
I had returned because I left (3 times prior) because I found evidence that she was cheating on me. she tried gaslighting me over and over. I realized that she will never admit cheating and I was just torturing myself. when I left the third time, I returned to plant some survailence devices around to get concrete proof, not just circumstantial evidence that I already had. If I was going to devistate her, I had to be in the right, be a true victim, have no doubts to have a clear conscience. I didnt want to spend the rest of my life lamenting if I had sabotaged a crazy in love relationship with the most beautiful woman Ive ever been with. she kept telling me that leaving would be the biggest mistake ive ever made,and that I was throwing away a gift of love from God. Im 50 (handsome and in good shape), but I was resigned that all the pretty women in my age group were taken and taken good care of. Imagine my surprise when the hot hot receptionist on the office remodel I was on told a coworker (happened to be a mutual friend) that she was VERY interested in me. I was in a sexless, hopeless roommate type relationship with my landlady (older) for the past 5 years and was embarrassed about it, but the landlady picked me up at the lowest point in my life and helped me to get sober and employed. I was grateful so I played boytoy, but I got stuck there. Not only did I see an opportunity to jump ship, but I was going to land on the deck of a woman my age, who was absolutely stunning in the looks dept. I couldnt believe my luck, and when she gave my the ultimatum that I had to jump ship and move in with her, I did. the next day I realized i made a mistake Title: Re: anguishing and missing her, scared of finding out that she was cheating Post by: Mutt on July 19, 2017, 08:28:51 AM Hi glassman222,
*welcome* What clued you in that there was something wrong when you moved in with her? |