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Title: I have that feeling inside of me Post by: Santi83 on August 16, 2017, 01:55:40 PM I have that feeling inside of me... .
I don't know if I wanna be with this person any more I know it too early to say this but I know how I am and when I get that feeling of "I don't know if I want to be with this person" the count down on the relationship started. On each single relationship I been on my entire life that feeling its like an alert... ."GAME OVER" I'm going to her house today but I don't have that feeling like... .OH wow Im exited to see her, I'm more like... .oh well I don't care if I see her today or not. Here is my first post so u can understand this relation a little better. https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=313582.0 Title: Re: I have that feeling inside of me Post by: isilme on August 16, 2017, 02:17:30 PM It's never too early or late. We all have to look at the feelings we have throughout our lives and determine what our next steps should be. Sometimes, staying works. Sometimes, leaving works.
My parents would have been better, I think, never meeting, never dating, and certainly never been married for 17 years and having a kid. I used to wish I could travel back in time and prevent them from meeting, even if meant no more me. H and I, meanwhile, seem to do better together than I think we'd each do on our own. His BPD is not on the same scale as that of either of my parents. And overall, it seems, as we work on his underlying physical ailments, his BPD, tho there, is easier to also manage. If his body is doing okay, his mood is usually better. This weekend he was feeling poorly, and his mood matched. He was combative at all times and almost lost it a few times in public. Then, he checked his blood sugar, and realized it was off. He is having a hard time facing the fact that with his current health, he needs to take an active stance on controlling it. BPD challenges executive control skills (adulting). It was just one more validation for me that his body is a big culprit in his brand of BPD. How bad is the fibromyalgia? I have to admit even though my SIL has it, I know very little about it. Is there any correlation between the worst behavior and flare ups? |