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I may be posting on the wrong board, I don't know, but I think I'm on the right one because I'm definitely just tolerating things at this point. I'm definitely sure that if there weren't kids involved I would walk away and not look back.

Last I posted, xBPDh (who I am living with again in an attempt to work things out) was upset with me bc I wouldn't look at an inflammatory post of his on social media. I knew I would disagree with the content so I chose to just not engage instead. That was Sunday. Things stayed pretty quiet until yesterday, when he yelled at our son for not getting ready for school fast enough and I told him he was out of line. So he then refused to pick him up from school as planned, and since I had to work late, I had to find another arrangement to get him home. I just took care of it and didn't say anything. Again I was trying to just not engage and keep it quiet.

So today I'm at work and he texts me a screenshot of another social media post he made in reference to another political issue we differ on, and says "I gave you a shout out today." Basically it was just making fun of my stand on the issue and said something to the effect of "my wife is going to feel so stupid when she finds out she's wrong." So I just ignored it.

I get home from work today and he asks if I saw the news that came out about the details of the death of Otto Warmbier. We discussed it for a few minutes and I made a remark that I hope it brought him some comfort that he died at home with his family. (I am a Certified Hospice and Palliative Care nurse for the last 12 years, he is an ancillary healthcare therapist. Both of us have a lot of education and experience in healthcare but my specialty is palliative care - his is not.) Anyway, he started laughing and mocking me when I said that - telling me that I was basically an idiot to think anyone in that condition knew where they were, that saying things like that are just things to make a family member feel better, etc, etc. I attempted to calmly say that it is my area of expertise and I'm speaking from years of education and experience but it was on deaf ears. It ended up with me storming out of the room in anger, which is, I'm sure, exactly what he was trying to do.

So I'm frustrated with myself for giving him the reaction he wanted. And I am so pissed off at him I can't interact at all.

I am continuing to get things in line to move out in the next 3 months. I know I can tolerate it until then, but it's getting tough. Just really needed to vent. I'm open to any suggestions to help me continue to keep my reactions neutral. He knows the buttons to push, that's for sure.