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Me and my Ex, let's call her "Sophia"
So Sophia and I met on Facebook in January of this year, and we began a very intense relatonship. We live in different countries and she came over here, a month after to see me. And we enjoyed our company together. She has had a ___ childhood, abuse, self harms etc. A mess.

I love her so much though, And I did stupid ___, like saying things I regret, and making fake profiles, which I regret.

We broke up in September because I realized she was cheating on me with some dude from America.

We were apart for a week and in that week, she managed to send him nudes.

I called her and we got back together, and she admitted to doing it, And admitted she still loved me.

She began being cold and distant with me, which I began yelling etc, Because I couldn't take it. I would not react like that again, But she refuses to even give me another chance. I'm breaking inside, I want to die. Please help, What can I do? I'm giving her no contact and space, Hopefully she sees what she had and messages me, Oh well if she doesn't, though.

What country is she in?

Scotland.

I'm in Ireland.

So if I let her go, will she one day wake up and miss me? Does she love me? Did she ever love me?

If I let her go, will she come back in a few weeks, months... .years? My mother explained it like when she's been burned a few times, she'll come back. But I'm not sure. I hate this.

To be fair, she never leaves the house, she has severe anxiety. The only time she ever has had sex other than her room mate, who is also her ex lmao.
Was with me, Everyone will be online, I think. But I don;t know. I still love her so much.

I said some stupid when we were together, and I hate myself for it all.
I called her names when we first started out because I'm a bloody moron, and blamed it on a friend, She said she knew all along it was me, and wondered why I did it. Yet she still came to see me three times and was very close and loving with me. If you've been reading through my posts, you know my story and why I'm on here, But I want her back, The problem is, she does have BPD, I think. I probably should move on, But I just can't. I just can't. I love her too much. I want to die. I hate myself, for saying what I did, and making fake profiles. I think I caused her BPD to get worse, because of my actions. I love her so much, She said she doesn't love me anymore and has met this American guy. (We live in the UK.)
I wish I was dead.

Calling her names is never good, but what is happening here is more complicated than that.

Tell us what is going on... .are you still able t communicate? How has this thing come apart.

We might be able to help.

Nah, she blocked me because I didn't want to be friends with her.

I yelled etc, because she blew hot and cold at me.

What type of support are you looking for?