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Title: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on June 08, 2018, 06:50:24 AM
I have dated this girl for about a year. Things were wonderful until spring came in. In spring she accidentally dialed me, and I overheard her date with another guy. (She did that with many other guys as I found recently, but always came back to me, and I have did the same, and she knows about it) I was angry and blocked her off on everything. That caused her to split, and hate me. However, she was going after me in April, and we had few wonderful dates together. It got to the point that she said she would break up with the guy. However, she had another split since then. Now she lives with him. Whenever, I try to end things she shows up and does everything me to convince me to stay. She says that she doesn't know what to do. She showed up last Thursday, and we had wonderful sex together. She left for work, and called me after work. However, her phone died after 30 minutes of conversation, and she never dialed back. Last night she asked if I am callable. Once I responded with yes, she said she will call me after shower. She never did though. I am trying to be supportive, and not react in harsh ways to avoid another split. I would like to win her back, but I am not sure how to proceed. Any help would be appreciated.


Title: Re: Help Needed
Post by: juju2 on June 08, 2018, 07:55:23 AM
Hi,

So sorry you are going thru this.

You are in the right place.

You have power.  You can learn from others experience, strength, and hope.  There are tools here.

Write more, share when you first noticed something, something that didnt feel right.besides the phone call she accidently dialed.

Also, take good self care, j


Title: Re: Help Needed
Post by: Woolspinner2000 on June 08, 2018, 04:21:13 PM
Hi WaitingGame,

Welcome  

Sounds like a lot of ups and downs for you. How often do you have contact with her now?

Excerpt
I would like to win her back, but I am not sure how to proceed.

Do you live by yourself right now?

Wools


Title: Re: Help Needed
Post by: WaitingGame on June 09, 2018, 05:06:50 PM
We spoke recently. She called me on Thursday, and Friday. We were supposed to meet this Saturday morning (her idea), but she slept through it (she also has narcolepsy), and I didn't form any negative reaction to it. And yes I do live by myself.


Title: Re: Help Needed
Post by: WaitingGame on June 10, 2018, 11:53:29 AM
So I visited her parent's yesterday afternoon, to help her dad with his car (her family and I remained friends), and this was the first time since the break-up, and I became overly emotional afterward. Here's our texts exchange:

ME: (this is our cute way to say hi, and she was at work)
Hi!
Hey!
Hello!

ME:
Being at your parents this afternoon, hugging your mom, talking to your dad, and uncle over dinner makes me miss you real bad.
I have never missed anyone before as much as i miss you right now.

HER:
I'll call you back.

ME:
Im sorry. I'm a mess.

HER:
Are you okay

ME:
Are you still at work?
I'm sorry.
I will be okay.

HER:
_____'s nieces are here.
Call you tom

ME:
Okay.
And my apologies about earlier. I was in a weird state of mind. I snapped out of it though.
And you do not have to call me if you don't feel like it. However, if you ever will be in the mood to connect with me or spend time with me, then, by all means, call me. Goodnight! I hope those kids don't keep you up all night, and I hope Papa John's was better than yesterday.

How long do I wait before initiating contact again? I don't want to engulf her, but also, I don't want her to feel abandoned.


Title: Re: Help Needed
Post by: Radcliff on June 11, 2018, 09:34:15 PM
How long do I wait before initiating contact again? I don't want to engulf her

Doh.  She gave you the answer.  She said she'd call you tomorrow.  Then you said she didn't have to, creating ambiguity.  You essentially told her that she didn't have to hold to a commitment, and invalidated yourself.  I know you were trying to be gentle and not too demanding, but your response had unintended effects.  Technically, the ball is in her court.  I'd let it ride for a good while.  Next time, say, "Great, looking forward to talking the next time it's a good time for you" which also communicates respect, but also firmly places the ball in her court and also communicates your enthusiasm for her.

I don't want her to feel abandoned.

She shouldn't feel abandoned if the ball is in her court (I'm not saying she won't, but if she does, you shouldn't feel responsible).  If you work too hard to keep her from feeling abandoned, if you essentially do HER work for her, you take on too much of a burden, contribute to an unhealthy relationship, and prevent her from growing.  It's OK to be sensitive to our pwBPD's abandonment fears, but we cannot let it be one of our main drivers.

WW


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: CryWolf on June 11, 2018, 10:46:22 PM
Id really like to echo Wentworth here. His advice is pretty spot on in my opinion.



Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on June 14, 2018, 09:44:07 AM
So we ended up talking again, and it was her reaching out to me. We had a nice conversation, and she has talked about coming back to me. She was at her parents but was watching her current boyfriend's kid. That same night:
HER:
I don't think I can have kids
I can't take it

ME:
Why?
What happened?
Kids can be overwhelming. And it's fine by me if you can't, but I do think you will be a great mom once you have stability in your life.

Then 3 days of a long break. Today I wrote that I miss her, and what I miss about her. Was that a bad idea?
ME:
I miss you.

ME:
I miss you calling me every morning. I miss our messenger conversations where we played with the filters. I miss you complaining about how bad Sapphire's poop smells. I miss holding you in my arms. I miss making love to you. I miss hearing how your day went. I miss our trips together. I miss our little ze affectionate ways. I miss talking to you on the phone when you need someone to talk to you because you are falling asleep. I miss looking deeply into your eyes, and the time slowing down. I miss talking to you about baby names. I miss complaining with you about other people. I miss having adventures with you. I miss trying new food with you. I miss how you can cheer me up even when everything is going to . I miss trapping your hair. I miss caressing your head. I miss the scent of your body.

ME:
I have a pit feeling in my stomach seeing how we are getting more apart, rather than being together in love like we are supposed to.

ME:
I'm looking forward to talking the next time it's a good time for you.

Am I'm being over the top? (I feel that it was, but I also know that she likes attention, and I'm worried that if doesnt get any she will think that I moved on)
Was that too much?
Do I just wait it out now? Or do I tell her I'm done and trigger the abandonment?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: Radcliff on June 14, 2018, 02:16:50 PM
You want to be slightly warmer than neutral to her, and not pursue her.  If you are initiating, especially at short intervals, that feels like pursuit to her.

The situation is complicated by the fact that she is currently deep enough in a relationship with someone else that she is watching his child.  If you work too hard at this, it increases the chances of drama and pain all around.  The best option is to give that relationship respect, but be available for contact, and invest in other areas of your life (friendships, hobbies, etc.) so it's not like you're waiting around for her.  That will make you more attractive, and also build your life in the other areas which has benefits for you.

WW


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on June 19, 2018, 07:22:04 AM
I followed your advice.  I have noticed she only reaches out to me when there are problems in her relationship, and it seems according to her account that the relationships is heading towards the end. She calls me about once a day now. However, she makes plans to meet me and never follows through. So I just end up not saying anything or asking anything, because I do not want to lose what I have and I do not want to appear needy, but at the same time, this causes me anxiety when she agrees to something and does not follow through.

How do I deal with this?



Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on June 22, 2018, 04:12:04 PM
As a follow-up question, should I keep having sex with this woman? Or should I just spend time with her, and refuse her sexual advances?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: pearlsw on June 22, 2018, 04:20:13 PM
As a follow-up question, should I keep having sex with this woman? Or should I just spend time with her, and refuse her sexual advances?

Hi WaitingGame,

Is having sex with her making you feel bad? If so, that's a big  red-flag

with compassion, pearl.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on July 01, 2018, 07:30:08 PM
The sex with her is awesome. However, I'm worried that she uses it for control. I'm also reinforcing in her that's okay to have sex with someone else while being in a committed relationship. I'm worried that it is going to bite me later if she decides to come back.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: Radcliff on July 01, 2018, 08:24:30 PM
The sex with her is awesome. However, I'm worried that she uses it for control. I'm also reinforcing in her that's okay to have sex with someone else while being in a committed relationship. I'm worried that it is going to bite me later if she decides to come back.

One risk for us "nons" in a relationship with a pwBPD is that as we try to adapt to make a relationship with them work, our actions get out of whack with our values.  Once we get embedded in a life where our actions and our situation don't align with our values for how we want to live our life, getting back to a life of alignment can be hugely difficult.

Short answer, then, is if your values say nobody sleeps with anyone else while in a committed relationship, that has to hold all around, all the time.  Holding on to your boundaries and your values is tough, but worth it.  Beyond the example you set by not violating that value of sleeping with someone committed to someone else, you'll be demonstrating that you value yourself by not letting yourself get sucked into intimacy with her when she is not available for a full relationship with you.

Your goal here is to avoid the yo-yo effect.  You don't want to heat up your relationship with her and then have her distance herself the next week.  What's the status of her relationship with the other guy right now?

WW


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on July 06, 2018, 07:15:06 AM
What I care about the most at the end of the day is that she would be always back. I'm okay with other people.

I'm very familiar with the yoyo effect that you describe, and I am not sure how to avoid it sometimes. Right now, we have been seeing each other and going on dates very often until July 4th. She was ready to break up with her boyfriend at that point, but he broke up with her before she did, and she chased after him and convinced him to stay.  She called me later that day, and apologized for everything, and tried to continue what have we been doing. I was a bit cold. It was a short conversation. The next morning (yesterday), I said "I accept and appreciate your apologies." to which she replied, "Thank you". Do I give her space now, or do I propose to meet again?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: livednlearned on July 06, 2018, 09:28:32 AM
Hi WG,

Trying to get a picture on what kind of future you want with her... .are you wanting to be the main guy, but she can date other people (as long as she doesn't live with those guys)?

This:

What I care about the most at the end of the day is that she would be always back. I'm okay with other people.

and this:

she makes plans to meet me and never follows through. So I just end up not saying anything or asking anything, because I do not want to lose what I have and I do not want to appear needy, but at the same time, this causes me anxiety when she agrees to something and does not follow through.

Seems like you two agree on what is physically/sexually permissible (ok to have other partners) but not on emotionally intimacy. There are protest behaviors when both of you advance and retreat.

Your values seem to be: it's ok to be with other people. It's not ok to be flaky.

Is that accurate?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on July 16, 2018, 05:24:34 PM
I want emotional exclusiveness. Ideally physical one as well, but I am not sure if we are both capable.

I haven't provided enough background, so I will do so now in hopes of getting more advice. We have finished dating around the beginning of April. Our relationship was full of ups and downs. Towards the end of it, I found she was dating another guy and I broke up with her, and I pushed her away. In the first month post break up, I have given her a lot of attention (I would send her flowers every day to her work). She started reaching out to me, but we were not close. When I threatened to stop seeing her in May. She agreed to see me, and we had sex, and reconnected. We saw each other for the next few days, and she said she would break up with the guy, but she didn't. We had an unpleasant exchange and she hated me for a while. I managed to repair that, and now I am always nice to her, however, I am not sure if that's what I should be doing.

We talk regularly every (almost every day), and see each other 1-2 a week. This past Saturday, she flipped out and broke off with her bf, and we had a long phone conversation, and I said I still have feelings for her, and that I want to date her. She said the same. Next day she is back to dating the guy.

Is there anything I can do to fix the situation? Do I provide her the warmth, reassurement when she needs it, and say nothing when things don't go my way? How do I react to her coming back and forth to her bf? Deep inside I am not okay with that, but I also understand it is very hard for people with BPD leave (especially in the idealization phase). I also worry, that I am reinforcing the belief in her, that I will be there no matter what happens. On the other hand if I react strongly, I will probably flip her switch and she will hate me. What do I do? Please help me.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: livednlearned on July 16, 2018, 06:00:24 PM
Emotional exclusiveness, got it  :)

So that is your value -- she can have sexual relationships with other people, but not be in a relationship in which the other guy thinks he's her BF (and vice versa). She would have to recognize you as her BF.

Is that accurate?

If you know your values, then you can have boundaries. If she were not BPD, you might be able to discuss these boundaries and come up with something mutually agreeable.

She's BPD, tho, so boundaries have to be things you have control over. For example, I will not sleep with you while you're having sex with a guy you date more than once. Or whatever is acceptable to you. The point being that the boundary has to be something you have control over, because the only person you can control is yourself. If she is impulsive, sticking to a boundary is going to be tough for her.  

Then you have to stick to that boundary. If you say it's a boundary and then don't follow through with it, you just teach her your boundaries don't matter to you, so why should they to her.

And when you assert that boundary, you don't get mad at her, you simply tell her you're taking care of yourself because feeling hurt sucks. And (if this is what you agreed to) tell her when she's done dating the guy, or guys, come find you and you'll be ready to try an emotionally exclusive relationship again.

What are your thoughts about doing something like that? If you were to set boundaries like this, it's best to do when you are both emotionally regulated -- setting boundaries when one person is emotionally activated doesn't work great.

The part that's tough about being in a BPD relationship like this is recognizing that she will probably test the boundaries to see if they are really there. Actions are everything. Words not so much. So eyes wide open that this is really about you learning to set boundaries, then follow through. And recognizing that you don't have control over what she does -- this requires radical acceptance on your part.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: I_Am_The_Fire on July 16, 2018, 06:09:06 PM
Excerpt
How do I react to her coming back and forth to her bf? Deep inside I am not okay with that,
This may be your answer. Maybe something for you to think about and discuss with her. What does she want? Does she want an exclusive emotional and possibly exclusive r/s with you?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on July 16, 2018, 06:37:45 PM
I_am_the_fire: She flips back and forth on what she wants.

livednlearned: I believe that boundaries are important. However, if I put the boundary that I won't see her until she wants to be exclusive with me, I'm afraid, that she will eventually move on. I will have to ignore her texts and calls to enforce this. Also, from all the dating scenarios in her life, she always had someone before breaking up with someone else. I am thinking that I should perhaps start dating someone new, and redirect my focus there, but still, talk to her. In other words, show her that I am not emotionally exclusive to her.

I messed up a bit because I bought a house to be nearer to her. Currently, she is 1 hour away which makes seeing each other a difficulty. However, I think that makes her believe that I will be there no matter what. Also, her current bf is very controlling and checks her phone all the time. He doesnt know that we are seeing each other. Also, she trusts me enough not to lie to me. We decided that I will use a burner phone, and text her female friend messages (to set up girl nights, and such) until things resolve.

Am I insane for playing along?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: livednlearned on July 16, 2018, 06:46:34 PM
Am I insane for playing along?

Not insane, no.

It sounds like your values take a backseat here.

So boundaries then become hard to assert.

Healthy boundaries are usually the backbone of healthy relationships.

She is the one setting the terms of the relationship.

So you have to be ok with that.

At the very least, you will want to keep an eye on your confidence, your self-esteem, and watch that it doesn't dip too low.

Make sure you are taking care of yourself so that someone is  :)


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on July 16, 2018, 06:57:29 PM
I am good at compartmentalizing. However, is that the road to get to what I want? (I want an exclusive relationship with her) What is the optimal decision considering the circumstances? Is it too late? Should I cut the loses and move on?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: I_Am_The_Fire on July 16, 2018, 08:03:35 PM
Can you simply ask her about it and let her know what it is you want? If she says yes, then great! If not, then try to move on.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: Radcliff on July 17, 2018, 12:12:47 AM
You are getting solid advice from livednlearned and I_Am_The_Fire here.

I completely understand where you are coming from as far as being afraid to withhold contact from her because you don't want to lose her.  But, if you bend to fear too much, you undermine yourself and end up getting a relationship that never meets your needs.  Folks in long-term relationships have this issue, too, where things get badly out of whack because they are afraid of asserting themselves appropriately.  So if you want to have a successful relationship with her, you need to master boundaries and face your fears of losing her.

What if the world wasn't black and white where you have a choice only between NC and trying to court her.  What if you established a "friend zone" with her that allowed modest amounts of contact, but your availability and the topics of discussion were limited to what would be appropriate to casual friends?  Is it worth a try?  Right now, you are giving her intimacy from you, without the emotional exclusivity you want.  You are shooting yourself in the foot.

WW


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on July 29, 2018, 12:58:35 PM
I started establishing boundaries. And I need your perspective/input on what I am doing wrong.

We were supposed to meet this past week, but she canceled on me 3 times. Her boyfriend is very controlling and was by her side at all times, and she couldn't come or talk to me.

This was the message I have sent to her after the third time:

Before today I have heard that you are coming here. After a lot of effort on my part, you said that you are at your sister's, which you could have mentioned yesterday so that I wouldn't count on you coming here. Then you said that you are leaving your sister to come here. 3 hours later I texted you and you said that you are stuck working. I have no problem with you visiting your sister, working or doing anything else. However, when you make plans with me, and they change I feel that I should be informed of that so that I can make better use of my time.

That's what I mean by inconsistent/strained communication. And I'm out of ideas on how to make improvements.


The next morning she texted me:

I just ended it with Robert. Or at least made it to where we aren't together. It's been a really hard night. I'd appreciate the positivity. Okay


I responded with:
If that is actually true, please call me as soon as you get this.


We have then talked, and she was really sad about the breakup. I tried to be positive, and we made plans to meet after work. Later that day I have sent her:

I have planned something fun for us to do after you're done with work. I look forward to seeing you.

She called me towards the end of her shift and told me that she is a mess, and needs to take the time off to relax, take a bath, and listen to some music.

I tried to be encouraging that it would be good for her to get out, and do something fun, and she was not happy about that.

I send her this text then:
I'm sorry for giving you a hard time about tonight. I didn't mean to. If you need to take the night to yourself, that's fine. I mean it. I trust you, and I want what's best for you. I do believe that I can get you out of the blues if you give me the chance though, but that's totally up to you.

Having said that you are the most beautiful woman with strong wits that I have ever met in my life, and you have bewitched me body and soul. No woman stood a chance to get my attention during the last 4 months.

Then before going to sleep, I sent her this:
It's a full moon tonight, and it is the eve of us knowing each other for 15 months. It's has been a hell of a ride, but I have no regrets. I went through a full range of emotions, and through that journey, I have learned how to love. Thank you! It's been a rollercoaster, to say the least, but it was all worth it to me. I am not sure what lies ahead, but it seems that for the past few months we were heading down, and that makes me scared. I hope good times lie ahead, because we really need them to keep the rollercoaster wagon rolling. Cheers to you Sarah Louise Verhines.

Marcin Stanislaw Malec
The Polish guy that always believed in you, and wanted your life to be better.


She did not respond. I have learned from someone else that her boyfriend has spend the night at her place. So I asked:
Before I jump to conclusions. Why is Robert at your place>

She responded:
He came over to talk. I drove his car yesterday

Many hours later, I have sent her the text:
How is your day going?

She sent me a picture of her sad face and said
how is it look like it's going?

I responded:
Like it needs a makeover. Let's do something fun. You need this. I hate seeing you like this. I want to put smile on your face. Plans after work?

I'm pretty wiped out today, but you're welcome to come over here, and just cuddle/sleep. I have some good food. Otherwise, I propose going on a fun small road trip the next day you are off work.


There was no reply.

At 4:30am she sends me a picture of a female, and writes:
My date tonight

I have replied:
I'm jealous. Do I need sex change? Are you into girls now? Who is she anyways?

There was no reply. In the morning I have send:
I was joking of course. I hope your date went well.

I am assuming she did send me the picture to say that she is not spending the night with her boyfriend.
However, I have learned that he did spend the night.

After I learned that from a friend, I have sent the text:
Call me when you are awake. It is urgent and super important.

She has not called.

What is your opinion? Where did I go wrong with my interaction with her? What should I do when she calls me?



Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: Tomacini on July 30, 2018, 12:50:07 PM
You’re interacting way too much and way too romantic stuff. She is not feeling it at the moment so this repulses her probably.
Let her initiate the conversations, don’t chase, don’t act needy... .she hates it, it reminds her of the engulfment of the abuse.

If you must send something, keep it neutral and please, quit the lovey dovey stuff. Only use that when she does the same


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: once removed on July 30, 2018, 02:07:09 PM
Let her initiate the conversations, don’t chase, don’t act needy... .
... .
quit the lovey dovey stuff. Only use that when she does the same

i think this is stellar advice.

one thing i might suggest is to avoid rescuing her. a lot of us fall into this pattern. you want to cheer her up and bond with her, i know. i think unless she comes to you and asks you for that, its really best to give her space, avoid trying to make her feel better. it can feel smothering or demanding.

the other relationship is a complicated situation. it sounds like things are on the fritz, but it may be a "too good to leave, too bad to stay", on and off kind of situation... .broken up one day, back together the next. anticipate this. let it play out, and should it come to an end, give her lots of space to grieve. i think its in your best interest to be as far out of the equation between the two of them as possible.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: livednlearned on July 30, 2018, 04:55:11 PM
Boundaries are things we have control over... .

So in your scenario, a boundary might be always having a back-up plan when you make plans with her, so you aren't left hanging when she doesn't show (it's a pattern). You can't make her stick to plans, but you can have a boundary about what you do when she's a no-show.

Or, giving yourself a limit to how long you will wait. Maybe it's 30 min. It's a pattern that she doesn't stick to her plans. You can't make her stick to plans, but you can have a boundary about long you wait for her. 

Also, she said one thing, did another (you found out). Then you said, "I trust you."

Do you?

It's ok if you don't. But you don't have to say I trust you to someone you don't trust.

That's confusing 

It may also tell her it's ok to be duplicitous because you'll not only keep trusting her, you'll tell her she's doing great.

So that's a boundary, too. You won't tell her she's doing something that she's not.

It may be sending the signal that you don't respect yourself, which will make it hard for her to respect you, too. It might be time to shift to acting on your boundaries vs. getting her to buy into them, because she either can't, won't, or doesn't want to.

The first text about how she did one thing and then another isn't going to work (it shames her). Better to say, "Hey, I'm going to be here at one o'clock. If I don't hear from you by noon, I'll assume you have other plans." Then go do something else, be consistent. Be strong. It's attractive  *)


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on August 06, 2018, 07:37:41 AM
Solid advice thank you. So as it turns out, she did move out, and they don't live together anymore. However, they had a trip planned that started this past Thursday that I found about from her best friend. We have talked about it, I wasn't happy about it, but told her that she could use vacation and that I will see her after she comes back. I was giving a ride to her best friend when we have talked, and I told her that. She was always paranoid, and afraid that we would be dating. An hour after the conversation she started accusing me of using other people to say something to her current boyfriend and demanded that me, her and her current boyfriend talk. So we did talk, even though it was past my comfort level. Then silence. The first day after she published pictures of herself when we spend our times together. Three days after she posted a lovey-dovey video with her boyfriend on the beach. I still didn't reach out. 4th day she was posting pictures, and videos like a maniac - which is out of character for her. It felt like a person on the rebound trying to show the world how happy they are. Later that day I found from her best friend that she won't talk to her anymore. So I send this:

I am not involved romantically with ____, and I never will be. She owes me money, and I gave her a ride to her uncle to get money I oversaw your conversation, and I asked her about it. I can be rather intimidating, and she probably thought that I don't care anymore about you, so she saw no harm in sharing. I just want to clear that up. She cares about you, and as I said before, I don't want to be the reason of why you ladies don't talk.

Also, I'm not sure what the deal with ____ and you was that night, and I think by now you know that I wouldn't talk to ____ or about ____ to other people. I hope that my interaction with him made that very clear to you.


I feel like she thinks that I abandoned her, and her switch is off. She never replied to my message. Her birthday is coming up this Tuesday. Do I send her generic birthday message? Or do I send her more personal message? Do I send her flowers? Or do I do nothing and live my life, and live it up to her? She cares a lot about her birthday, and it is absolutely a big deal for her.

What do you guys think?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: livednlearned on August 10, 2018, 04:08:39 PM
The goal posts move a lot in this relationship, and the rules of play are constantly being negotiated, mostly by her (you help), so it's hard to know what the best course of action is.  :(

Also, this is a relationship with three people, and she is in a great position, one-up all the way. You are there whether he's on his way out or not. He's probably on his way in/out depending on where she has you positioned.

Even if she lives on her own and picks you, expect him to be there. His tolerance for you is high, as is your tolerance for him, even if neither of you likes it.

In BPD relationships, actions are what count. What she says depends on what is happening in that moment, whatever she can say to meet her immediate needs to keep two guys.

I think you have to be honest about the love triangle dynamic so that you can focus on what you value and then get things aligned from there.

There appear to be no signs in any of this in which you win her back and it's just the two of you. Is that ok?

Also, what do you mean about being intimidating?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: CryWolf on August 14, 2018, 05:43:36 PM
Hows everything going waitinggame?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on October 16, 2018, 05:56:17 PM
Well, I'm still where I was months ago. I have no idea how to proceed. I do not want to be the second guy or a backup plan.

 Do I just tell her goodbye, and request to reach me if she ever is single again. Or do I continue to be available to talk, and meet with her on her terms, and have sex with her?

I worry that if I tell her goodbye, that will be the end of it. I don't fear to lose her anymore though. If I continue seeing her, she does not really have a motivation to change the circumstances since she is getting what she wants. It seems that I am her backup plan.

What is the best way for me to proceed?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: CryWolf on October 16, 2018, 06:08:21 PM
What do you think will possibly give you the end goal you want to achieve?

You don’t want to be a backup plan right?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on October 16, 2018, 06:22:32 PM
The end goal for me would be to be in a relationship with her.

It seems that in her past she always went back to her backup plan if things didnt work in the relationship.

I am not really sure what will happen if I say goodbye and ask to contact me when she is single.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: CryWolf on October 16, 2018, 08:00:37 PM
Is that something you’re willing to do?

In my case I didn’t want friendship when my ex broke up with me but to continue seeing another romantically. I had to say what I wanted and had to walk away.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: Euler2718 on October 18, 2018, 09:13:44 AM
I wanna say I have a similar situation! I don't send I love you texts like that one (I have feelings, it's just going to cause her discord and I have to trust God; she knows how I feel, though, I think). She loves to talk to me as she falls asleep, then as she did this she would be like "I love you Soo much" as she fell asleep.

A pertinent and harsh question could be why do you want her back -- because you don't want to be distanced and left, do you? I have fear of abandonment, but it's confusing -- is it my own neuroticism or am I afraid of something real and likely? Life was simpler in my 20s, ha ha. Have a good enough day and Wentworth etc give reasonable advice. It's pretty hard not to react though, when you are "turmoiled".


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: once removed on October 18, 2018, 02:06:29 PM
Well, I'm still where I was months ago.

whats going on specifically? is she still in the same relationship? are the two of you hooking up?

It seems that in her past she always went back to her backup plan if things didnt work in the relationship.

well, there are "back up plans", and then theres whats comfortable, but doesnt necessarily hold in the long term.

I am not really sure what will happen if I say goodbye and ask to contact me when she is single.

you can do this, but theres a pretty low success rate, and it will likely be received as "i only care about you if youre my girlfriend".

its the harder, but healthier and more effective method to just live it... .to slowly detach emotionally and physically.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: Euler2718 on October 18, 2018, 07:41:17 PM
"its the harder, but healthier and more effective method to just live it... .to slowly detach emotionally and physically"

I'm sorta doing this because I "sense" it's a healthy thing to do, but why did you say this? It's so painful, I need motivation I guess. And so many people pick the "easiest" solution: jump into something with someone else (I'm not gonna do that, it seems unhealthy, but I understand if it killed the pain what an awesome temptation that would be).


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on November 12, 2018, 03:52:33 PM
So that relationship with the other guy is over now. She moved out and got her own place. She reached out to me recently, and she was trying to meet but during the conversation behaved distant and cold. (We havent met yet)

Do I still let her initiate and not do anything? Would love bombing be appropriate in these circumstances?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: once removed on November 12, 2018, 03:57:50 PM
tell us more... .she reached out, but was distant and cold? what did she say?

i wouldnt love bomb, or otherwise act in an over the top manner, in any circumstances.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: Euler2718 on November 12, 2018, 04:46:27 PM
You didn't say why, though. To me, "love bombing" is pretending to have more feelings than you actually have for the purpose of inducing a romantic reaction in the other person. So it's 1. Dishonest and 2. Manipulative.

Of course, having a huge feeling and showing it is not necessarily dishonest or manipulative. That's why for a BPD it may not be "wrong" -- there were a lot of times I wanted to pretend I had different feelings than I did (to draw her closer or keep her) but I pretty much stuck to the truth.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on November 12, 2018, 04:56:21 PM
First of all she said that she feels numb after the breakup, and needs just a friend to which I agreed - why wouldn't I ? Then she proposed meeting with her and her friends. I asked if she is afraid to see me alone, and she responded that she doesn't want to freak out on me and also wants me meet her friends. Last night when she called, she had me on the speaker . First she wanted to meet for dinner, and I was not available to meet at the time when she had free time. Then she said that she needs to talk to me about college applications (I'm a college professor) and said she can't think of anyone better to talk to. Her circumstances are making it pretty much impossible to go to college. I started teaching as a side job earlier this year so that she could have fee remission. I told her that, I already said what the best way is, but she said that this is not an option right now. I asked her if she's dating someone (and I explained that it would be hard for me to be involved if she's started seeing someone new). She said that she needs friends, and avoided answering the question. I finally agreed to meet with her this week, but have not heard any follow up on the time.

Also, at the beginning of the conversation, she mentioned that her most recent ex tried to commit suicide 2 days before, but somehow instead of shooting himself, he shot his hand and is at risk of having one of the fingers being amputated. I told her that I do not want to talk to her about him with her, to which she responded that I am insensitive. I also asked if she wants to be back with him, to which she replied no. Then, I changed the subject and the conversation went on.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on November 12, 2018, 04:59:23 PM
Also, I have very strong feelings for her. I wouldn't love bomb her to be manipulative. It would be my way of showing her how much I love her. However, I have been restraining myself from showing how strongly I feel for her, to no push her away. I worry that if I start sending her flowers every day, and pursue her, that it will push her away. However, I have seen online some PhD counselors mentioning that this is something that pwBPD crave. I worry to be myself and shower her with love. What if that will cause more harm than good?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: once removed on November 12, 2018, 05:34:46 PM
Also, I have very strong feelings for her.

i think youve expressed this to her. i think stating it in even stronger terms will probably complicate things for both of you.

this sounds like a situation where she is reaching out for friends, and for help/support. do you want to do that, even if it means not getting back with her, or that she might be seeing someone?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on November 12, 2018, 05:53:49 PM
Here's what I read about love bombing:

How to Get Her Back

If your girlfriend actually has Borderline Personality Disorder, the good news for your purposes is that she is inherently unstable and has difficulty being on her own. That is why she keeps “flipping” on you: one moment she loves you, the next moment she hates you. You need to find a way to “flip” her back.

Love Bomb Her

Take a tip from the Narcissists and “Love Bomb” her. Do every single romantic and loving thing that you know she likes. This will take some thought, persistence, effort, and cash. Does she like flowers? Do you know her favorites? Send her flowers every day. Tell her how much you love her over and over again. Write her cute and loving emails, texts, etc. Do not give up until she agrees to see you again.

Then, no matter what she says or does, be sweet and loving. Explain that you really do love and care about her and you want to start over again. And you had better mean it because this is not going to be an easy relationship to sustain.


So the idea of showering her with love does not seem so bad from this perspective.

Also, take into the account the following:
Belief that absence makes the heart grow fonder

We often think that by holding back or depriving our “BPD” partner of “our love” – that they will “see the light”. We base this on all the times our partner expressed how special we were and how incredible the relationship was. Absence may make the heart grow fonder when a relationship is healthy – but this is often not the case when the relationship is breaking down. People with BPD traits often have "object permanence" issues – “out of sight is out of mind”. They may feel, after two weeks of separation, the same way you would feel after six. Distancing can also trigger all kinds of abandonment and trust issues for the “BPD” partner. Absence generally makes the heart grow colder.


What do I do?


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: once removed on November 12, 2018, 06:36:40 PM
be careful with junk psychology, WaitingGame. i dont know that good advice begins with "Take a tip from "the narcissist"".

look at the big picture:

1. shes upset about an ex who tried to commit suicide. she feels that you were insensitive about that.

2. she has been clear/upfront that she is looking for friendship.

if you respond to either of those two things with over the top expressions of love, it will come off as very confusing at best, and insincere/manipulative at worst.

if you want to be her friend, be just her friend. maybe it will become more, but probably not right now, and not necessarily soon. if youre not prepared to do that... .


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on November 12, 2018, 07:27:32 PM
Those were the words of:
Elinor Greenberg
PhD Psychologist
Author of: Borderline, Narcissistic, and Schizoid Adaptations: The Pursuit of Love, Admiration, and Safety.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: WaitingGame on November 12, 2018, 07:49:09 PM
Last week she has also mentioned that she wants to be with me but is not ready yet. She said that she doesn't want to go back right now because she doesn't want to hurt me by being back and forth. I said that I'm willing to be friends for now.

After much consideration, I don't think I will shower her with excessive love. In the end, I just want her to be happy. Regardless of how things turn out to be. When I was driving home from work today, I have heard on the radio, that secret to life long marriages is to keep it as a never-ending first date. I went to the very beginnings of our relationship and noticed that it all started with innocent, witty and playful text messages. There was no talk of whos dating who, any feelings or emotional stuff.

I did send her a text message in that style, and I'll let you all know how it goes.

I did not want to talk about her ex, because he was physically and mentally abusive to her, and has threatened me in the past. I told her I don't feel comfortable talking about him, and in the end, I said that I'm proud of her that she mastered the strength to move out, and dump him. I do not want to be walking on the eggshells all the time, and I certainly don't want to encourage/validate any feelings towards the ex.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: once removed on November 12, 2018, 07:57:46 PM
Those were the words of:
Elinor Greenberg
PhD Psychologist
Author of: Borderline, Narcissistic, and Schizoid Adaptations: The Pursuit of Love, Admiration, and Safety.

the context here is important WG: https://www.quora.com/How-can-you-get-BPD-girlfriend-back-after-she-cut-you-off

the circumstances the author describes dont fit this situation. shes talking about courting someone. if you try to court someone who is emotionally unavailable, they will feel disrespected and taken advantage of. or, in a vulnerable state, they will be initially receptive to your advances, and then quickly have second thoughts.

Last week she has also mentioned that she wants to be with me but is not ready yet. She said that she doesn't want to go back right now because she doesn't want to hurt me by being back and forth. I said that I'm willing to be friends for now.

I went to the very beginnings of our relationship and noticed that it all started with innocent, witty and playful text messages.

i think this is a better strategy. be her friend. be someone both fun, and supportive. build trust.


Title: Re: I'd like to win her back, but am not sure how
Post by: CryWolf on November 13, 2018, 12:09:28 AM
Hey, I since you’re bit anxious and feel the need to act to show your “love”. Not everyone with BPD is the same. There is no one size fits all when it comes to people and a mental illness doesn’t change that.

She’s stated many times she’s just looking for a friend right now. That could change but do you really want her to jump into a relationship or dating with what  she’s going through right now? I agree with once removed here.

Let her feelings come back on her own doing. Let it flow organically. I know how anxious one can get with someone they love so much. It’s counter intuitive sadly. I think you did well by choosing not to talk about the ex.

Show her fun and new experiences and make her laugh. Try not to stress so much about labels right now. Let it take course.