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I'm here with another music post.  I ran across this song today from Nashville-based, husband and wife duo Fleming & John.  It could certainly be written for any non in a BPD/NPD relationship.

It's hard to pick a musical genre for this little gem.  I would describe it as what would happen if Led Zeppelin had a baby with a mariachi band and that baby grew up to be an operatic soprano.  It's a pretty fun, upbeat song for being about abuse and manipulation... .if you can imagine such a thing.

https://youtu.be/ygppFz8LuvI  (https://youtu.be/ygppFz8LuvI)

Devil's Food

He's got his finger on the trigger
It's not a gun, it's something bigger
Oh, emotional warfare has been declared on you
See how he manipulates, berates you and humiliates?
He wants you to see what it feels like to be him

Oh, that's not love pumping through his veins
You're like the sun shining on his shade
He's a parasite and he's trying to suck the life out of you

Why are you taking up for him?
No, you can't save him from his sin
Oh, he's pulling you down
He's gonna wrestle you into the ground
He'll make a mess out of you
He'll turn you into devil's food
Get away while there's time
Your friends are making bets on your life

Oh, that's not love pumping through his veins
You're like the sun shining on his shade
He's a parasite and he's trying to suck the life out of you

You're devil's food
Go, go, go
Go, go, go
Girl, run run for your life

Oh, that's not love pumping through his veins
You're like the sun shining on his shade
He's a parasite and he's trying to suck the life

Oh, that's not love pumping through his veins
You're like the sun shining on his shade
Oh, you're parading on his rain
You gotta go, you gotta get away

He's a parasite and he's trying to suck the life out of you
You're devil's food
I'm just saying this cause I love you

I highlighted a few lines that I like.  I really like the line He wants you to see what it feels like to be him.  It is a perfect description of the devalue/discard cycle.

So when you are doubting your reality, when you feel compelled to reach out to your ex - just jam to this song a few times.

Keep on being the sun shining on the shade.  Keep on parading on the rain.  I'm just saying this because I love y'all!

As I was listening to my iPod I came across this one and I started to cry:

Love the Way You Lie

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High off of love
Drunk from my hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown
She resuscitates me
She f***ing hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind at his back
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snapped
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting f***ing sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each others face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that's the culprit
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away now
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to f***ing leave again
I'm a tie her to the bed
And set this house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie

I prefer the Skylar Grey Love the Way You Lie.  I think you’re quoting the Eminem version which has the male and female roles in abuse. The Grey version is just her as a victim, with a touch of codependent.  

All good though.  Sometimes it takes music to shortcut through all the academic words describing abuse.  

Thanks for sharing.  

Hi SerendipityChild!  I didn't know this song so I checked it out on YT.  It's a good one.  It really describes that kind of love that's really 9/10ths hate and addiction.  I like how he worked "push pull" into the lyrics. Maybe's he's been reading up on BPD!   

Hi EG! I have noticed that most of his songs are about his exes with BPD, NPD and addictions. The said songs ended up me having tremendous "triggers => anger => run faster with my dog => more calories burned." Always looking for the bright side.