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Title: My husband is home from China and I just want to leave Post by: Leslieelf on May 08, 2019, 04:24:12 AM I can’t sleep. I’ve spent the two weeks while he was gone so very happy. It was so full and fun and now that he’s back I’m not sure how to stand. He was in China, I have 3 kids. We all deal in our best way I guess. I literally erased an entire story just now ending with me being in trouble for nothing and I couldn’t explain it if I tried. I knew it was going to be rough. Anyways, I’m working on about 4-5 hours of sleep regularly. Considering tonight and my responsibilities. It’s looking like tonight will be about 3.5. Anyways. I need help. I’m just tossing it out there. I hope someone knows what this is like? I tossed all my stress on a very good friend last night, and I hope I didn’t overwhelm him. He is the one to introduce me to here. Anyways, my main issue tonight is that it’s really hard for me to ever actually explain what’s going on. I feel like i spend a lot of time frozen or just unable to voice what the heck raven just happened. It never sounds like it was THAT bad. Do you feel me?
Title: Re: My husband is home from China and I just want to leave Post by: Ozzie101 on May 08, 2019, 08:35:04 AM Hi Leslieelf and welcome! :hi:
I'm so sorry you're in this situation but very glad you found us. I can definitely understand. When my undiagnosed husband was in his bad phase and went out of town, it was like a wonderful holiday. I basked in the freedom and dreaded his return. Also, during his bad phase, he would go into these long rants and circular arguments that would last until all hours of the morning. The thing was, so often I felt like I must be losing my mind. That this couldn't be real. That the verbal and emotional abuse must be something I was imagining. Or, in the light of day, I'd feel like surely I must have misinterpreted the night before -- and yet, that wasn't so. It was all real. It all happened. And it WAS as bad as I thought. Finding this board was like a gift. I learned so much and found so much support from my fellow board members. I know what you mean about it being hard to explain. But this is a safe place full of people who "get it." We've been there. Or we are there. We understand where you're coming from. We even have some tips and tools that can help make things better -- if that's what you want. Or if you just want to vent and have people who understand and can empathize, we can do that for you, too. Just keep posting. Let us know how we can help. |