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Well, sigh

I have never seen someone go into such a rage over personal pics. I suppose when he was making jealous remarks in regards to my pics I should have picked up on it. I have never ever seen someone have such a fit over a facebook account. I had to close my Facebook completely down. I thought about leaving it up and just putting casual pics but those triggered him as well. If I can’t put what I want on my own social media account then I don’t want one. This is totally ridiculous and I have not spoken to him on the phone since. He tried to call me but I did not pick up my phone. The man called me a prostitute.

Actually he sent me a list of what he needed with check marks and he checked off “ non prostitute girlfriend”.

With this whole ordeal it’s actually pretty hard to really get in your head that someone could act this way over pics. He actually broke up with me, told me he was dating someone else and he moved on. Now, mind you he just showed his mom a picture of me and I was supposed to come visit him in 7 days. Just four days ago he was so in love with me and he missed me. Now I am the prostitute named Jezebel.

Prostitute huh?

I showed my girlfriend and we did have a good laugh over that.

He has a Facebook and yet mine is a trigger. Heck any pics I give him are triggers. For some reason he doesn’t want people looking at me.

He text me the breakup. Then when I didn’t respond he called me after he got off of work to make sure I knew we were broken up. He actually left me a message asking me to call him back. He sounded so casual in it like he was ordering pizza. Then when I still did not reply he compiled his “what I need list”. He took a picture of it and sent it to me.

I am fine. He is being so manipulative. I recognize it for what it is.

What does he need?

He needs my stability. I am the rock on the relationship. When his mind changes or his moods or personality, I am constant. He has gotten used to me filling in his and being a partner to him. When he rages or gets angry or irrational, I don't argue with him and he usually comes right down.

Do I believe those things he said? I believe that he felt them when he said them. I am not sure why his first instinct in some situations is flight and in others it's fight.

Did what he said or do bother me? Actually for a sec he caught me off guard and then I rolled me eyes. I just went into my room and unpacked my suitcase. There goes my fun filled trip of ten days. He ruins everything! He always has to make things up.

Why did I mail his pics back? Well because you said those words you will own them. I will not allow a man to use me a crutch and live his life. People never feel a void when you are there filling their needs. When I go, everything I am goes with me.  Sometimes people need to feel the weight of there actions. Yes I know you were going through something but no excuse. I go through things too

The best way I can explain my way of thinking is this: if his fear of abadonment is greater than his fear of isolating me then maybe these flight responses will diminish. I mean obviously the man knows I love him  and he truly knows I am here for him. Fine. People will come in and out the door as often as you let them. My life is certainly not a  revolving door. This time let him be out for a little so he can experience life without me.