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I usually never ever remember dreams.  This morning I remembered a small snippet of my dream.  I kissed my wife.  It felt so real.  Was so nice.  I miss her terribly.

Gadget

This happened to me last night as well. I had a dream of my wife. I never remember my dreams. It woke me up. It wasnt a sexual dream but an intimate one. I felt sick to my stomach I missed her so much. I love her more than I can write. I tried to always tell her that and show her. I told her many times a day. But that wasnt enough. Nothing I tried was enough. She moved out 2 years ago. After several months she moved back in. She does do out of control anger and rage but that was decreasing. She has been working on herself and I thought making progress. Then, BAM out of nowhere 4 weeks ago she told me she had already gotten an apartment and was moving out. She said she no longer loved me and wanted a divorce. She has taken most of our money. I think I'm getting worse not better. This dream started my day off horribly.

Last time I dreamt about my ex was that she was following me trying to kill me. I woke up sweating, I'm not even kidding. I missed her really bad during the first separation and tried like hell during the reconciliation to fix things but she had an ulterior motive the entire time. Wait for the divorce to be dismissed and start all over again so she would get her way the second time around.

dreams can have a powerful effect, a sort of hangover effect.

how are you feeling now?

Hi once removed,

I'm better now.  Just made me sad for awhile about what we had together and now do not.  I'm hopeful we will again one day.  Waiting is so hard.

Gadget