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Title: Sad and quite tired. Post by: penny52 on January 01, 2020, 08:00:09 PM I think with the holidays I'm been feeling rather low, I just don't know how much more I can take of this. I've done the counseling, I've read the books, I watch the videos.
I guess I'm just really at a low point. I'm feeling rather tired and sad because even though she seems like she's doing better she seems very angry with me and quite honestly I am with her too. She never stops asking for money or cigarettes. I guess I would just like to be regarded as a human being once in awhile and maybe feel I'm connected in some way.I guess what I'm wondering is is there a point where you should just bow out gracefully? You love them but for me the last five years she hasn't showed me any love or regard, I feel exhausted. Title: Re: Sad and quite tired. Post by: Swimmy55 on January 02, 2020, 09:04:39 AM Hi Penny,
I hear you. This BPD goes on and on into infinity and is disheartening ... I have read through your previous posts and you were doing boundaries with her regarding the $ for ciggies, etc. Did anything change? Title: Re: Sad and quite tired. Post by: wendydarling on January 04, 2020, 04:41:50 AM I hear you too penny, you are carrying a heavy load, how can we help lighten it? :hug:
WDx Title: Re: Sad and quite tired. Post by: penny52 on January 27, 2020, 08:20:07 AM Sorry I haven't answered, I honestly don't know how too.
I finally just told her that we are just destroying what bit of a relationship we have and I needed to stop with everything for awhile. I'm just going to take a day at a time. Thanks Title: Re: Sad and quite tired. Post by: Swimmy55 on January 28, 2020, 04:02:33 PM Good for you for drawing the boundary with her!
Title: Re: Sad and quite tired. Post by: mggt on January 28, 2020, 07:55:29 PM Take it easy on yourself. This is a terrible disease. A marathon vs a sprint. I sure wish it wasn’t but it is. You’ll have good days and bad days. Hold on. Sending hugs and understanding. Write anytime you want. Ramble, rant, yell, scream. Whatever helps
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