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Title: Help. Sometimes I think I hate my daughter Post by: Losing It on January 28, 2020, 07:59:44 PM I literally feel as though I'm going crazy. Our 29 year old daughter is currently living with us. She's been with us since last February when she attempted suicide. She is diagnosed with BPD, bipolar, PTSD. depression, anxiety, and whatever else I forgot to mention. I dread coming home from work, the tension in the house is immeasurable, and I genuinely don't know how much more I can take. i have a therapist, but I still feel like I'm going to either implode or explode. She is manipulative beyond words and thinks everything is my fault. i am the target of her animosity.
i just need to know that I'm not going crazy, although sometimes I think it would be easier if I were, because then maybe I just wouldn't notice. it affects my marriage, my mental health, my energy level, and I'm finding it almost impossible to even like her. in fact, sometimes I hate her, which is something that i would have thought i would think, let alone say, in a million years. Title: Re: Help. Sometimes I think I hate my daughter Post by: Blind1 on January 29, 2020, 08:35:15 AM Losing It, I'm so sorry to hear you in such pain. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you, but I don't. I just wanted to let you know you aren't alone and you aren't going crazy. I go thru the same emotions. My 18 yo daughter was just diagnosed with BPD and things have only gotten worse. My emotions are a complete roller coaster including thoughts of hate. She, like your daughter, blames me for everything and is very manipulative. I went through a really tough period where it was all comsuming, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I was making very big mistakes at work, I was ignoring my other kids and my husband. The mere thought of my daughter would make my heart pound so bad my chest hurt. Things are a little better with me now, I have done a lot of praying and I keep trying to tell myself that it isn't me, it's her. And as tough as it is for me, I try to think about how awful she must feel and I'm hoping for the best. I will pray for you hope you can find some peace within yourself. Hopefully someone will have some words of wisdom for both of us.
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